I'm Always Wrong In Your Eyes
part 25 Asa and Hope
I'm Always Wrong in Your Eyes
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When I woke up, I was in the hospital. I saw Merwais sitting on a chair with her eyes closed, holding my hand. There were dried tears on his two cheeks.
But, all I remember is Aisya. What happened to him.
"Bi, where is Aisya? How's he doing?" I shook my hand and woke him up.
Wais surprised. He caressed my head.
"Alhamdulillah... Mother is already conscious." that's the only answer.
"Where is Aisya, Bi?" ask again.
I stared into his eyes, wanting to find the answer in those eyes.
"Say, Bi!" I also started crying.
"Mother, be patient."
There is a sense of tightness and suspicion with the sentence just uttered Merwais. However, I try to stay strong.
"Asians..." Wais hung up his sentence.
"Why Aisya, Bi?" chase me impatiently.
"Aisha, lost a lot of blood. Now, he's again critical in the ICU room."
I just kept quiet, I let Wais continue his explanation. Even though the heart is pounding and tears continue to flow.
"Doctors are trying to find blood that matches Aisya's blood type."
"Take my blood, Bi. Or we can ask for a donor to Galang and Gilang. They're Aisya's sisters." I'm starting to look panicked.
Wais clasped his hands and stared softly at me. He continues to give strength, to be strong to face all this.
"Dear mother, all of our blood doesn't match Aisya's blood type."
"Galang blood type 'O', while Gilang 'A'. Mother herself is 'O' too. And Abi 'B'. The blood type needed is 'AB', Mother. Maybe Aisya follows her mother's blood type."
Long-term Wais explained it to me. Hysterical cries exploded, I could not master the tightness in the chest hearing Aisya's current condition. He is too small to accept everything.
"Abi, this is your fault. If you hadn't brought Aisya along, she wouldn't have been like this." Emotionally, I hit myself. Because it was my fault.
Seeing me hysterical and uncontrollable, Wais hugged and tried to calm me down. There was a warm fall on my back, Wais also joined in crying to see my state of shock.
In his arms, I felt peaceful. Very lucky to have a loving and patient husband.
After a bit of calm, I asked her to take me to see Aisya's condition.
"Bi, please take me to see Aisya's situation!"
"Abi will deliver Mommy. on condition, mother must remain strong and firm."
I just nodded my head too.
With her on the side, we walked down the RS corridor to the ICU room, where Aisya was treated.
Once there, I could only see Aisya through the ICU's outdoor glass. Because no one else is allowed in, except the Nurse and the Doctor.
Aisya's tiny body, now filled with infusion and oxygen. I can't stand watching all that. If only I could be changed, let me take his place there
When I saw the doctor coming out of the ICU room where Aisya was treated, I hurriedly approached him, followed by Wais.
I asked Wais to immediately inquire about Aisya's current condition. The doctor asked us to go to his office.
There, the Doctor explained the condition that Aisya was experiencing at this time. Because I didn't understand their language, I was silent. Every now and then I noticed the hand movements the doctor explained to Wais. Seemed a deep anxiety on his handsome face.
Back this chest rumbled, tightness felt.when I saw his extremely tense facial expression. Mind confused. What really happened to Aisha?
After the Doctor finished explaining everything, slowly Wais led me out of the room. We sat in a long chair in front of the room.
Slowly the Lord explained to me what the doctor said. While holding hands and giving strength.
"Mother... Aisyah's condition is very critical at the moment."
"If only...!" Vaise stopped saying.
"If it were, what, Bi?" I asked him too.
"Had Aisya survived the critical period, she still could not live a normal life like a normal child."
Degs...
It felt like a big rock was hitting my chest. What did Wais mean to say that? What does it mean abnormal? The head feels dizzy, the eyes get hotter, the water continues to flow on these two cheeks.
"I mean, Bi?"
"Honey.The accident has damaged part of the organs in Aisya's body. The doctor said that even if Aisya survived, she would become unable to hear and unable to speak. It was Aisya's broken neck that had damaged part of her vocal cords."
It felt like my defense was collapsing, and only being able to cry in the arms of someone who loved me so much.
"Bi, can Mommy go inside the Aisya treatment room? Mother wants to be with Aisya."
"But you need to rest too. Still not recovering it's the situation."
"Son, Bi, you're healthy. Look, you're okay!" I wiped away my tears and tried to look strong.
"Mother, sure?" ask later.
"Yes, Bi. Mother wants to always be beside Aisya." I assured her.
Wais was alone and passed to Aisya's treatment room. I kept waiting until he came.
This accident has taken away Aisya's future, I'm the cause. I have to take full responsibility for her happiness. And I promise, there will be no one else who will hurt Aisya.
Not long after, Vaish came. He said that the Doctor allowed me to take care of Aisya. How happy my heart is and I embrace the body of the man I love.
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Day by day, I continue to take care of Aisya. I always write life-giving words for him. I did not miss a day without taking care of her. Luckily, I was around people who also loved Aisya.
Merwais who continues to support me tirelessly, she is always there when I need her. Galang and Gilang who almost every day visit Aisya, their sister, accompanied by the sust Ina and David. Also Aleda who considers Aisha as her sister, with her papa, Kabir. As for Alicia, never once visited Aisya. Because he was always busy with his work.
It did not feel like a month and a half Aisya was treated at the Hospital, and finally allowed to go home.
Since the accident, Aisya is not what she used to be. He who is always cheerful and continues to babble, is now gone. Only silence I guess. But I was never discouraged. Aisya kept me playing, chatting, and listening to murotal. Even if I knew, it wouldn't make him react. His movements were not as active as before.
The sadness of the heart continues to spread. I can barely see Aisya's current condition. However, the people around me continued to provide support and encouragement. Especially my husband, Merwais. Although I sometimes see her crying and always hide her tears, but it does not deny that she also feels the same as me.
Wais continued to support me, so that I would not lose the spirit of life to take care of Aisya.
"Bi, can Mommy ask you something?" ask me one day.
"Whatever it is, Abi will give it." he replied while hugging me and Aisya who was in my arms.
"Mother wants Aisya in therapy, so she can recover quickly. Please Abi find a pediatric therapy specialist."
"Yes, dear Mother. Abi will be looking for the best therapy specialist in Dubai for Aisya. Don't worry, Aisya will heal as she is." Wais continued to hug and kiss my forehead.
There is a feeling of peace in the heart. I was tired when I was in his arms.
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Not felt, now Aisya is almost three years old. But the progress remains invisible. Until now, Aisya has not been able to walk like other children. Aisya was just playing on my lap. Which makes me happy, now Aisya can smile and laugh. Sometimes, he tried to talk.
Comparison with Galang and Gilang. Both of my heroes always got a very brilliant predicate. Today Galang and Gilang became the best Qori in their school. Although they were young, Galang was eight years old and Gilang was almost five years old, but their abilities were amazing to me.
In addition to being Qori, Galang and Gilang have also become tahfidz. This is all thanks to the Wais who always taught and guided them, in order to become useful people. She is my proud husband and also an Abi of the pride of her children.
So did Aleda, she had incredible intelligence. He always got the best grades in his class and became a child pianist.
Pride and sadness mixed together. On the one hand, I am proud of the very satisfying results of both my heroes. On the other hand, I am saddened by Aisya's future. Could Aisya be able to develop like his brothers?
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