CARRIER (When Destiny Reigns )
My New Boyfriend (chapter 5)

Suddenly Dad came out of the room and found me standing looking at the door.

“Ren, you've been there a long time, son?” asked Dad, gently stroking my hair.

“Not yet, Mother how, Yah?” my many.

“It's better, come in with Mother! I'd like to see the doctor first,” pin Dad.

With my hands hugging the bag, I slowly opened the door and stepped inside. I found Mommy being closed, probably sleeping. I choose to put the bag next to Mother, then sit facing Mother's feet. It dawned on me that Mother's legs were getting smaller, Mother was getting thinner. Yes, Lord, so cute I am with Mother until I realize this now.

My hands were moved to cover my mother's feet, which were not covered in blankets. Mother woke up, then looked at me. I just fell silent, staring, not knowing what to do. Mommy seems to be sitting down, I also help you to sit down. But the pain in your stomach makes it back lying down.

“Re, forgive Mother. Mother does not hate you,” said Mother with a stammered voice\-brick.

I did not return his words, but tears that fell down my cheeks. Dejavu it felt, my mother who was lying weak before me. Now Mother also repeated the incident. There was a fear of loss, but I threw away that prejudice. I don't want to, this thought makes me misbehave and speak. Until it worsens the condition of Mother. 

The door opened, and Dad came in towards us. Gently Father stroked Mother's hair and said, “ Dear .. we will soon do the operation. You must be strong yes, rest assured with the doctors!” pinta Daddy's.

Seerrr, suddenly\ suddenly my chest rippled. It was as if the earth was swaying, making my view blurry. My head is dizzy, traumatized. That was the reaction when I had to face the hospital and surgery. Because those two things are the cause of my mother's departure.

“Re, you can help Dad. For now, help you take care of Mother. Dad wants to pick up Grandma, because Mommy will be operated on tonight!” pinta Daddy's.

I just nodded. Trying to seem calm, with the body resisting the fierce shaking that strikes.

As Grandma and I stepped out of the room, suddenly the doctor came out and approached Dad. Dad's face looks messed up, but I don't want to tell Grandma this. With our hands holding Grandma's arms, we continued our steps towards Mother's room.

When things weaken you,

Try to survive.

Because of that strong man, that,

He is the one who strengthens himself for those he loves.

A week passed, Mother and baby sister named Keira were allowed to go home. The situation of Mother and Keira was initially so bad, that doctors advised to be incubator and Mother inpatient. Thank goodness their development is stable, until finally there is no need to go through a critical period. This situation made Dad decide to ask Grandma to stay at home, in order to help take care of Mother and Keira.

Three days after Mother's return, a call letter landed at my house. A letter containing my scholarship application and a free boarding placement for a select few students.

“Ratna, this is no letter to Renata. What is it?” ask Grandma while handing the brown envelope to Mother.

With great care Mother opened and read the contents of her letter, “ Renata, Mom. He graduated from the university of analytics. He was also selected as a student who received a scholarship and free dormitory provided by the campus.”

“Re, called Mother,” said Grandma who approached me in the kitchen. I am busy arranging groceries, well this month I am shopping for my own home needs. Not as usual with Mother.

“Iya, Nek,” I replied while nodding my head.

I also stepped foot into Mother's room, seen Mother breastfeeding Keira.

“Bun.”

“Sini!” pinta Mommy with her hands hinted to get closer to her. “ Congratulations yes, Re. You graduated, you were great, Re. You are also chosen to stay in the dormitory for free. Mother is proud of you, Re. Forgive Mother, Mother is selfish. Mother does not look at your efforts, Mother only worries about the situation of Mother and Keira. Mommy is really sorry,” explained Mommy who followed a torrent of tears to hit Keira's cheek. We hugged each other, I was moved. Slowly the high walls of the barrier between me and my dreams now began to collapse. I didn't do anything. Just try to do what I can and keep praying to the Almighty. Well, I don't have the power to make you believe me. I don't even have the strength to strengthen my steps, just move. Now I am truly happy, God is always with me.

Tonight became the happiest night, a happy look across the residents of the house. Even Keira, the little baby is smiling tonight. Well, maybe my steps won't stop. But my fight is just about to begin. Keeping a scholarship is not easy. I don't want to worry about things that I shouldn't worry about right now.I just need to keep fighting and trying, praying all the time. So I can keep putting smiles on their faces. Well, they're all around me. I'm sure, too, that Mom is smiling at my struggles. The struggle of life after Mother is gone, the struggle to achieve the dream of Mother becoming a medical personnel. 

In prayer I cried, I cried,

In the night I hide, I hide,

In silence I hold on.

No life without problems, no problems without solutions.

I just need to persevere, fight and hope for the Maha.