CARRIER (When Destiny Reigns )
It's Me (Part 1)

The moment you love and love has passed away,

It is not to make you sad and sad.

It's just that God knows, you've been able to live the day without them.

Introduce, my name is Renata. The young girl trapped in a thin and tall body with skin. My face is not so pretty, just that many of them say that I am sweet.

Honey, my life is not as sweet as many people say. My mother came home five years ago. At that time I was in Junior High. I spent puberty in solitude, but I was happy. There was a father who was always with me, supporting me and listening to my story. But that was long before Dad decided to get back into a relationship with another woman.

He's Ratna, Dad's office mate. Since my mother's departure, Dad's career peaked. Father is entrusted to serve as branch head. But unfortunately, Dad's increasing career made Dad leave me too often at Grandma's house, because Dad had to travel out of town. 

Grandma who is so old age, the more sickly. Until Finally Grandma also came home exactly a year after the departure of my mother. This is quite a blow to me especially my life.

It was at this time that Dad's decision to remarry also arose. Dad, pick Ms. Ratna. His office friend who is an aged girl. Ms. Ratna was also the place where Dad shared the story since the departure of Mother. Until Miss Ratna easily came into my life.

Dad's wedding took place three months after Grandma died, Dad was so confused about my whereabouts if Dad had to travel out of town. I was once entrusted to Father's sister whom I often call Om and Aunt, but unfortunately they were not being fair to me and their two children. I often get blamed if one or both of their children cry over a toy fight. As soon as I found out about this, Dad immediately decided not to put me back there.

Dad also had to pay a housekeeper to accompany me when Dad couldn't go home. But again I received an unpleasant treatment. I was threatened and locked from the outside. And he went somewhere, until midnight. I never complained about this to Dad, exactly did not dare complain. But God still loves me, with your own eyes, you see the ugliness towards me. He was angry and immediately fired him.

We cannot determine what kind of family we live in.

After firing the housekeeper, Dad got more confused. Confused what else to do. That's when the idea to immediately marry Bu Ratna was opened to my mind. After a six-month closeness, Dad ventured to propose to Ms. Ratna. Ms. Ratna was also an admirer of Father, because she knew very well the amount of affection, care and sacrifice Father had witnessed directly by her to me. Until finally Ms. Ratna decided to accept Dad's proposal.

“Darling, I'm sorry. Dad did all this so that someone takes care of you, someone accompanies you when Dad is not next to you,” said Dad sadly.

Dad's warm embrace made me crumble. I understand Dad's concerns. I also don't want to get any more bad treatment than before. I want you to calm down at work, that's my mind at the time. I cried to the point of wetting Dad's shirt, but it wasn't a cry of sadness. But it is a cry of happiness, because even though I no longer have a mother. I still have a father who loves me so much.

“Your mother is never replaceable, she is always in our hearts. But, will you accept Ms Ratna as your connecting mother, Son?” ask Dad with a sad face.

From his tone, Dad doesn't look pushy. But I who started growing up could feel my good intentions in marrying Ms. Ratna. Until I choose to nod and smile, signifying agreeing to Dad's plan.

“Thank you, Darling. I love you,” said Father who hugged me back and kissed me gently on my forehead.

Since that conversation, Ms. Ratna has often played at home. Approach, that's what they call it. Not infrequently Ms. Ratna took me both away, like her mother and daughter. We went around shopping for homes and schools. Often, Ms. Ratna cooks at home, or stays at home when Dad is out of town.

Everything was going well and beautifully, I started to feel comfortable. The kindness and sincerity of Mrs Ratna I can feel. It didn't take long, a month after this approach Dad decided to marry Ms. Ratna. Well, because the whispers of the neighbors increasingly talk about our family.

The wedding was simple, the agreement and guarantee and some of the guests who attended were close relatives or neighbors only. The show was so solemn, everyone was happy. Similarly, the family of the deceased Mother who is mostly outside the city. There was calmness in their hearts, as they looked directly at my familiarity with the well-established Ms. Ratna. They are calm, because from now on I am not alone. There will be Ms. Ratna to take care of me.