The End of Long
Part 6's

Those were the days I spent as the clouds moved away from me. Awan's attitude did not change until the day of the rapot division, even I think the more day feels further away.

From the news that I heard the clouds have become the same Dinda. I also asked Ari and he confirmed the relationship between Awan and Dinda. I also asked why the attitude of the Clouds had now changed to me, saying "Dinda was jealous that the Clouds were close to other girls"

I understand that means Awan really loves Dinda because he is willing to obey Dinda's request not to be close to other girls.

Maybe at that time I didn't mind if Cloud was with another girl, as long as her attitude didn't change. Although my heart actually hurts, but at least I can still be a friend of the Cloud.

I also had time to hope that the Clouds would change back to how they used to be, when I heard that he had broken up with Dinda. But it turns out that the attitude of the Clouds has not changed at all even though it is not with Dinda anymore. He only caught me glimpsed when we met in the school environment. Or just a quick smile because I happen to be with a person known to the Clouds. But at that time I still did not feel the loss of Clouds, because I could still see him every day even if only from a distance. Just by looking at it my heart is happy. Sometimes I laugh at myself when I see him joking with his friends. Because I feel like he's joking with me like he used to.

This feeling of loss was felt when I sat on my High School bench. From what I heard from Susi, Awan continued High School in Yogya while I myself moved to Palembang following my parents.

Because my grandmother from next door to my mother is getting sick. There he was no one to take care of him because all the mother's brothers were far outside Palembang City. So Dad decided to move to Palembang when I graduated Junior High School, after all, we are the only family that is most likely to take care of grandma, considering my father is not a regular employee like my other mother's brother.

When I was in High School the feeling of losing Clouds was really heavy for me. Hope was almost non-existent. For me, the cloud is not my best friend, it doesn't matter as long as I can see him from a distance.

My tears often drip every time I remember our togetherness. Even though in High School I already have a new friend who is no less good with the Clouds. But the position of the cloud in my heart is irreplaceable.

One day I was crying in my room because it was my seventeen-year-old birthday. At that time my miss on the Clouds could not be contained anymore. I cried until I didn't want to stop even though at that time Mom was in my room because she heard me crying.

My mother tried to ease my cries, but somehow my cries did not stop and became more and more. It seems I can no longer afford to disturb my longing for the Clouds.

Actually, the party is nothing special if done by someone else. But since the one who prepared the party was the Cloud felt different, it felt special. Remembering all this time there has never been a friend of mine who celebrated a birthday party until I turned 13 years old.

One day before my birthday Awan didn't care about me on the grounds that he had more OSIS duties. I never thought I would get a surprise from the clouds. That day I really felt bad. In the first hour of math class, I forgot to bring PR, but I prepared it from last night from home. Why did I forget to bring the book? I was confused where I put my book when I was sure it was right that I put it in my bag before I went to bed.

But yes, that day I was punished by Bu Dita doing PR as many as 35 questions, while the others only did 10 problems. For me solving math problems is not a problem because even though I like it a lot.

During the break I did not find the three of them, either lost where they were. I searched everywhere but didn't meet either. Suddenly it just appeared as soon as the break was over.

They don't seem satisfied with me. When I went home from school, I lost my phone. Time asked if they saw my phone no one knew. Many of my friends have gone home. I unloaded my bag, my desk drawer but did not see it either, I did not suspect a bit because the three of them helped me find it. Because the entire class we have been looking for did not meet, there is a litter box that we have not been looking for. So without thinking long I approached the trash box and wanted to search inside, who knows I accidentally threw it away when throwing paper earlier. The clouds ran towards me directly holding my right hand that almost stirred the trash.

"Cha hp you're in Susi" I see the look on Cloud's face feeling guilty.

I sat down with my head bowed down, after hearing the words Awan, maybe people think I was too excessive because it was only a second-old hp that can only be used for the same call sms. But they don't know if they have to save my pocket money little by little in order to buy that phone. Maybe my expression wouldn't be like this if there wasn't a string of events today that was so stressful for me.

Seeing me sitting almost crying on my best friend, the cloud that was still holding my wrist felt guilty.

"I'm sorry Cha" he muttered as he squatted before me."we didn't mean to make you cry"

Ari and Susi squat with us "sorry we are Cha" Susi also felt guilty while thrusting my phone. I just nodded my head, indeed at that time actually I was not angry because of being bullied by my best friend. Just maybe today I feel like I'm a mess then I'm like this.

The cloud stood up, he also pulled my hand so that I could stand up as well. "Happy Birthday Chacha" The clouds pulled me in his arms."Long live, healthy always, and still be my Chacha" he whispered in my ear.

I really didn't expect the Clouds to do that, my whole life there hasn't been a man to hug me but my father and my family. My blood is rushing to my heart, my body is cold hot, I don't know what to do. At that time I did not express my feelings in words.

Then Ari hugged us all"Happy birthday Cha, may all your ideals be realized"

It was the sweetest memory of the four of us, especially this sweetest memory between me and the Clouds. After that we laughed together. Ari and Cloud walked to her desk and Susi and I followed behind. The clouds took out a gift and handed it to me, as did Susi and Ari.

"Open gift now" Susi's pinta

"Yes open now dong" Ari continued.

The Clouds just nodded her mark she agreed with the idea of Susi and Ari. I open one-on-one from them. Susi gave me a teddy bear "thank you Susi" I said as I hugged her.

If Ari gave me a picture frame with the words best friends forever "Ari thank you" while laughing happily with the attention of my best friend.

Now it's Cloud's turn, I see only a smile watching me tear off the wraparound. And it turned out that the diary was my favorite color at that time. I was speechless at the time, all I could do was smile at him. I actually have a lot to say to Awan, but I'm really embarrassed.

My birthday was not there, Awan also treated us at a meatball stall not far from our school. I myself feel bad for my best friend when I am the birthday but the clouds who treat us to eat.

When I arrived home I opened the diary of the gift from the Cloud, it turned out that there was a poem inside.

I feel like there's something wrong with the shift

It's not an hour but a minute

When I'm with you

This one minute feels like an hour

When I'm away from you

Can I erase all the red ink on the calendar

Because I don't want a mother's day right now

I just want all the red color gone

To be with you

That's why since then my mother knew that I was crying in my room I was missing the Clouds. My mom just hugged me and said. "Patience Cha, pray a lot with God so that the clouds there are also happy and you are also happy here. If indeed you mate wherever you are you will one day meet again".

The feeling of longing is not reduced from day to day even more increasing. Whenever there was a man who approached me always compared it to the Clouds. There is nothing wrong with so many people approaching me. What was wrong was my heart that could not forget about the Clouds even though it had been over the years.

And at that time only Brother Irvan was able to make me waver. Maybe because I'm tired of waiting and bear the longing or indeed because Kak Irvan the person is not desperate.