The End of Long
The Part 37

It's been two days since Awan tried to see me when I got home from work, but he's always late. Because when he just arrived I was already in Mas Andre's car, he could only look at my departure with a disappointed look at not being able to see me. Actually my heart aches when I see those eyes, but I don't want to give the Clouds any hope that we can be together again like before. She now has a responsibility to Laura and her son. I am engaged to Mas Andre.

My legs were rarely stopped seeing Laura already standing in the apartment yard, much less what she wanted right now. Maybe he already knew that for a few days the Clouds were trying to see me again. She shouldn't have to do this, because she must have known that I would be engaged to Mas Andre. My engagement to Mas Andre was a bit much also driven by his childish attitude that always bothered me. Try earlier I did not refuse Mas Andre's offer to take me to the top, maybe I did not meet with him at this time.

At first I intended to avoid it, but if thought free he would definitely follow me to vent his anger. So I decided to just meet him.

"What's up Laura!" I said a little sniffy because I saw him just standing there without a word. It's a bit strange, usually if he met me it would have been a rebellion of words that could arouse my emotions.

"I want to talk to you" Laura's voice sounded doubtful.

I'm confused because this isn't the Laura I've known all along, why she can turn one hundred and eighty degrees.

"Please, I'll listen to him" I replied him flatly.

"We'd better talk somewhere more comfortable"

What a satanic ambush Laura is today, how can she speak well without irritating me.

"I don't have time, please just say it here" with the same tone as before.

I retreated a rare one in shock to see him sitting on his knees. I looked around afraid that others would be mistaken if they saw him like this. It was fortunate that it was currently deserted, probably because it was now ten in the evening.

"What's this about Laura!"

"I'm sorry for ruining your relationship with the Clouds" she bowed, weeping,

"You don't have to do this, I've let the Clouds go to live with you" there was a guilty feeling in me when I saw him like this.

"I'm sorry..." Laura stammered, "because my selfishness ruined your relationship" Laura tried to look at me.

I felt sorry to see him kneeling like this, he didn't need to do this so I tried to help him to stand up.

"Honey you're okay" said the man who had just hugged Laura's shoulder.

I let go of my grip because I was surprised by the presence of the man. Especially this? Who was the man who embraced Laura and called her dear? Laura's cry broke out in the man's arms. While she tried to calm Laura by stroking her hair. I just sat there watching what had just happened.

"Cha I'm sorry.." It's obvious that Laura was terrified by what she was trying to say "The kid I'm carrying is not actually Awan's child. But Bang Romi's son"

Like being struck by lightning upon hearing what Laura had just said, my heart stopped beating. Suddenly my feet felt helpless.

"Cha are you okay?" laura asked looking worried seeing me start to stagger.

I tried to catch my breath to remove the tightness in my chest.

"Cha forgive us" that was heard from the man's mouth before I ran in leaving them.

With great effort I headed to my room because my body was so limp right now, my head was dizzy and my chest was tight. As soon as I got to the room my power was completely gone. My legs can no longer hold my body. I sat behind the door, tears that I had been holding back from now on finally spilled out as well.

What kind of destiny is this? Why am I experiencing this? The clouds I loved for a dozen years had to separate in this way. Why did I only now know that it was not the work of Awan, after I received an engagement with Mas Andre.

What bad luck is taking us. I hit my chest because I felt sick and upset, why all this time I never wanted to listen to the explanation of the Cloud.

All night I could only cry thinking about everything that had happened, I was confused to make my footsteps forward. Should I go back to the Clouds because until now I still love him very much. But this is not fair to Andre, because all this time he has been so good to me. After all, our engagement was only a few weeks away and I agreed to it at the time.

Today Tina had her own lunch, because I had no appetite since last night. Maybe he understood when he saw my condition with slightly puffy eyes, so he did not force me to eat with him.

My breath feels tight if I just stay here, so I need to go up to the building to get some fresh air there. That place has been my favorite place lately and Tina. We often spend time here just to chat or eat a snack during the break.

"Cha.."

My heart skipped a beat when I heard my name being called, I know for a fact that right now it's calling me Clouds. How the clouds know that I'm here, is it possible that Tina told him. I was confused to meet or avoid it. Since last night, I have been eager to see him to hear all his explanations.

"Cha are you okay?" The clouds looked anxious as they stared at my face. "Are you sick?"

"Do you know where I'm here?"

"So I wanted to see you in the office, but when I was going out the elevator I saw you go in the elevator. That's why I follow you where you are"

I did not pay much attention to the person in the elevator, because my mind was currently in a state of turmoil.

"Are you okay?" ask the clouds back

"I'm fine" my heart ached when I saw the Clouds near me. He's a person I love very much but we can't be together because of this misunderstanding.

"Cha I want to talk to you" Clouds looked me in the eye, and from his eyes was clearly a longing for me "I want us to be together again as before"

My heart beat brighter, my eyes began to heat up when I heard the words he had just said "Why new now.It should have been before" without me noticing my tears running down my cheeks.

"Sorry Cha all this time I've always tried to explain that the child Laura conceived was not my son but.."

"If he's not your son, why did you tell me to wait until the child was born" I cried this time to be held back.

The clouds pulled me in her arms "I'm sorry Cha" she stroked my hair "I'm sorry Cha for hurting your heart. This is all I'm doing because Laura threatened to kill herself if I left her"

"That way I think it's your son, that's why you want to take responsibility. You evil Wan, you might prefer Laura to me" I punched her in the chest in annoyance.

"Sorry Cha, that's when Laura cut her veins in front of my eyes when I wanted to leave her. I couldn't have left her at such a time, I felt guilty that Laura would do that again. That's why I just follow what he wants, while finding out who the father of the baby he contains"

"So you'd rather hurt me" I let go of Cloud's embrace

"I didn't expect it to be like this, I thought you'd trust me and wait for me to sort this out"

"It's not easy to just be trusted, when Laura kept coming to see me and saying that she was pregnant with your child, instead of trying to explain the real situation but you were actually seen together with Laura. That's why I thought that it was true that Laura was pregnant with your child"

"I can't do that to another woman, because I love you so much. If I wanted to do that, of course I would do it to you, only all this time you know that I've always held it. You know why?" The clouds held both of my shoulders.

"Because I can't arouse your desire to do it" I said exactly as Laura had told me back then.

The clouds laughed "You're too innocent.."

"Because of my innocence that's why I don't know how to get you excited about me" hot cheeks in embarrassment, I just realized what I just said.

Clouds of smiles towards me, this makes me feel even more embarrassed, so turn my face the other way. Now his hand was holding both of my cheeks in order to look me in the face. The hair that covers part of my face.

"You know that your innocence has always shaken my faith" my cheeks grew hot upon hearing this. "And you should know that I always try to throw those naughty thoughts in my brain, because I don't want our love to be dirty with sheer lust" Cloud looked me in the eye with a mischievous smile "Or maybe you've wanted it all this time"