The Beauty of Unexpected Hope
absent minded

Already 3 days aq at home aq do not do any activities other than sleep, today my body feels cold, my head is dizzy, my stomach feels like in remas2.aq was immediately wake up from my bed limp once arrived at my door blurry view all felt aq just grinned my mother and sister2 screamed for help and the voice2it was getting longer and longer disappeared.

Aq collapsed and was taken to the health center, when I realized I saw many of my brothers who gathered in the room, my heart feels happy I did not expect many people 2 who still love and care with me. Even though they all persuade me and talk about my problem why I locked myself in the room, I did not know, aq did not tell because if aq has a lover will be cepet2 in marriage honestly kluwargaku do not know if aq has been proposed and engaged to him , ' he said ,when aq was engaged there were only a few brothers he and his friend2 from my side only my cousin and bpk agreed he had asked for blessing with him.aq deliberately hid my relationship with him from my family because aq has not ready to get married and away from my kluwagaku.

it's been three days aq in the puskesma and almost a week aq not working and contact him, honestly aq miss him aq always restless when thinking about him.today my cousin brother came he brought my hp ,aq was grateful to tell all my problems to him.and aq was surprised when I knew from my brother that he was the one who terrorized me first when aq was still sekolh.sudah2 my heart ached aq continued to cry until aq asleep kata2 mas hendrik always burrowing in my ears and brain aq in disbelief..

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he is actually Mohammad Raden Putra Ardiansyah the son of a businessman in karlos his mother Yulia Ardiansyah.he second son bu yuli he son of a rich man he has a business saoud system, he has a business saoud system,pabbek knows he is independent from the success of his empire he has 2 luxury homes one pajero car one track and pic up 2 motorcycle trel and sport.and a complete weapons collection. he has an ex-lover who until now has always been chasing him but his parents don't like him he likes you more, he is a dian aka raden who always terrorizes you when you were in school he bet the same dian,and wiwit if one of them can destroy you then raden will give his car to his friend2nya.but teman2nya failed finally raden intervened near you he was right2 fell in love with you he changed completely never again play female mabuka2 wild racing she actually2 changed for you tolonng forgive her and do not hate her.

after mas hendrik told me all he was back in town.aq kept thinking I would have to forgive him and accept his love, why he can be trusted, longing aq miss him so much. it has been 6 days aq in the health center and returned to the mother's house.

arriving at home aq warmly welcomed by kluwargaku many mother's dishes that I really miss today in held a bagakuran for my return and 3 months of pregnancy my sister, my sister, who is pregnant, happy people can regroup with my kluwargaku even though my little heart hurts he's not by my side and misses you.

until the event Tasakuran finished aw jalan2 to the garden looking for fresh air and looking for sinya aq want to call him want to know the news ,after arriving at the top of the garden he but his singang raised women he was angry 2 said kata2 rough and said that raden was out of accident when the trip wanted to pick me up and introduce him to his family in broad daylight my heart aches honestly aq regret having been childish2an and avoid it.

after I finished calling a lot of missed messages from him and the boss and 79 messages from him, then aq telvon boss and said he would work again the day after tomorrow.

it has been 2 weeks aq pulkam aq also sent ojek llangan ku Mas khoirul his name, he picked me to return to the city .until in the city aq welcomed with obk my father and cousin.during 3 weeks aq worked at the shuttle bpk or mas hendrik because they were still worried about my health.aq kept trying to contact him but his cellphone was not active. aq busy my driku by working overtime can forget him.

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it's been almost 2 months she hasn't called me I've missed her but I always felt like she was near me,today somehow aq keeps thinking about him aq unconsciously while working aq kesandung twice and broke the glass.and the plate aq fell 3 times my head dizzy, dizzy, seeing the pale aq mom boss not so scolded my iw he told me to go home because the kasian and stalls were deserted because of the rain, aq also packed and wanted to go home.

new keluwar warong aq terkejud saw him across the street and his nephew on the bike. he pura did not see me.aq also called him but not in angakat , ' he said ,he told me to stop me from getting close to him and then he turned on his bike past me driving his bike hard. My heart ached he ignored aq .

aq also looking for ojek aq want to go home immediately my body limp my head is very sick my heart aches during the trip aq keep crying until at home aq calm no one goes straight to the room crying until falling asleep maybe because of fatigue .

aq wake up at 8 pm aq sleep long enough ,my head is still a little dizzy my stomach hungry aq wake up and look for food on the dining table I see ibk and father sleeping in front of the tivi that is still burning maybe they are tired from the whole day of harvesting red onions. aq eat slowly2 afraid to wake them, after eating aq wash dishes.make my warm tea drink half and I take it to the room I put tea on the table.

my eyes started heavy aq take my phone look still at 9 o'clock ,there are many messages coming in from him and 37 unanswered pangilan sunguh aq tired aq need certainty aw want to know what he wants.aq also called him back up to 9 new times in the lift, during the telvon he behaved cuwek not like his usual.

.aq: Asalamallaikum mas, how are you.?

raden: waalaikumsalam.baik deck.

aq:again what mas ,do it sound rame once.

raden: just hanging out with anak2.

aq: ap aq bothers you..

raden: no.

raden: yes briefly.(gays I unplug first yes mistress again telvn later I return again loe up all drinks later I pay.)

hearing all that my heart aches aq miss him aq just hold my tagis.15 minutes later on call me.

.raden: hello loe want to say ap.

aq: what mas do not miss aq, why mas ignore aq, forgive aq if aq much wrong please do not like this mas

raden :yep.

aq: mas aq miss you, aw want to meet you.

raden: for ap.

aq: what you don't love me anymore why do you say that.

raden: gk knp2.

aq: want mas how , our relationship will continue like this, aq need certainty mas

freder: ow .

aq: please do not ignore aq

raden: how do you want me first time aq and kluwargaku want to propose to you you molest me, now you are like this.

aq: excuse aw mas aq wrong,aq thought you just play2 with you aq disappointedA same you because I know aq only bet stuff in your eyes.

Raden: aq also apologizes at first is aq just a fad just aq fall for you aq want to ask you, but you always avoid aq .

aq: sorry aq mas .

raden :yes, (he turned off his tlvn)

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.aq can only deny accepting the reality of all my happiness during this time is only mortal, after that tlvn he disappeared somewhere many of my old friends who said he was frustrated and squandered money for a hard drink2an and did not work back one of his business went bankrupt.sunguh aq feel guilty but aq could not contact him .q regret. Please don't think of me like your old ex-2 lover.

aq there is never any intention to play with your feelings aq sincerely love you, please do not torment you excuse aw mas.