The Beauty of Unexpected Hope
between an appointment and an invitation

Unlike usual arrived2 mas raden want to meet with me and tell me to dance..

to mas raden ..

today we meet the deck at the place biyasa at 21:00 mas wait no surprise for you show must dance and beautiful yes we walk.

I don't want to be disappointed mas raden again stop aq always refuse if you want to meet malam2 but somehow aq is not a little child anymore parents also already believe in my choice even though my heart feels not comfortable because it has asserted the demand for raden mas, aq just hope mas raden bener2 changed.

what else has not met 2 weeks aq also miss him. during these two weeks mas raden always telvon aq every time he istirat work attention and spoiled more humorous than before every tlvn always invites joking although aq tired many thoughts every hear his voice aq he had also asked for my birth order number which was in ambon call father asking for blessing and father blessui hungan ku same mas raden because our age is very far adrift father wants our marriage there but I don't want my mother always ask me to marry in Java only she does not want to be far from me.what is also disturbing the mind mas raden.maybe he will also discuss the problem but strangely why he wants to meet mlm when he knows aq can not go out of the house more than 21:00 nights did he forget or did he accidentally I don't want se udzon.semong all will be fine2 only.

Today I deliberately let the boss go home early because there is an appointment later tonight mas raden alhamdhulillah road he megijinkan. on the way home aq stop by a hawalayan to buy powder and lift just to be honest aq typical people who like grooming and indeed can not dance and wkkwkwkw.

Finished shopping aq hurry home, arrive at home aq a little disappointed because the house is quiet . aq also asked the existence of the same father's mother neighbor where he turned out to be the father's mother came to the condition of the father's brother aq just remembered 2 days ago mas candra kasih aq wedding invitation of the father's niece, the father's niece, and the father's niece, the father's wedding invitation, aq should also be obliged to come on the show but aq do not want to make mas raden jealous again what else in the venue many male guests I know because of my sister's future wife cousin my former schoolmate and arch-enemy aq do not want to ruin other people's events not to mention friend2 mas candra college brother2 others will definitely ngrecokin aq .honestly aq also anti come to the event considering the age is always inquired when, already there is a candidate yet, no he is also single he is just he is a sakep, tajir sholeh less anything else ...when's marriage..?? dsb.bla blah.

..Sometimes it comes to my mind honestly aq want to immediately have children, aq want to feel normal childbirth like a mother .but I did not want to get married because I saw the family of friends who ended the divorce and also my parents' relationship was not harmonious.

on the other hand aq meliah melewaraga others happy harmony never once aq heard the quarrel in kluwarga was aq envious aq hanYa hope someday aq can also be happy.

While waiting for mahgrip aq to clean the house and cook instant noodles because they feel hungry after eating dish washing shower prayer.

because there is still a long time to finish praying aq main to the house of adk mak other mak jau from the house ibuk aq accompany adi main karambol until isyak after praying isyak aq pamit go home and because there is an appointment to eat outside the aq also advised to paklek later tonight do not go home want to go directly to the house of the mother finished dinner with the same ojek llangan, completed the nitip clamp of the house keys because there are two keys. aq came home for a while to change clothes and a little dance and the clock showed at 20:15 Aq departing on foot from the house aq a little unpleasant because of the same lie paklek but want how else aq gk want to be disappointed mas raden. because aq walk down not.looking ahead aq accidentally hit the back of my former upperclassman and neighbor. aq also keep walking menjerkahkah me with him while chatting.coincidentally new joni.return from the stall.

roni^^. if the path of the heart2 to the deck do not be the same toy mobile phone emang you go where night2 bengini..

I^. hehehh sorry mas aq there is a promise to go home to emek raden trus.

^. hehehheh not yet mas ni still want tlvn father want to pay.

^^. yawes if so you heart2 on the road oya nitip salam.ke mother yes, you do not stop by first deck.

^.gak mas thank you anytime2 buru2 because.

mas Roni just nodded his head just rushed into the house when his house looks crowded there may be a keluwaraga event.

aq also continued to walk casually while playing the postel aq call the father many times there was no response finally aq send a message.

tobk2

pak sorry aq not so come to acra mas tobi aq no promise, this aq also want to go home to mom aq do not want to be home alone oya sekalilagi sorry sir greetings to bude.

finish sending a message continue the journey see the clock is still at 20:45 Aq almost until aq was tlvn mas raden but not in lift then aq continue to call it up to where biyasa met me see the road is also deserted across the park road only the the merchant who started packing wanted to finish shop2 they saw the clock was 21:13 Aq keep calling him but not in angakat then I send a message that aq already until aq continues to wait with anxious feelings of fear happen sesualatu with mas raden at 21:35 There is a reply if aq is told to wait until he comes .somehow longer my feelings are not good.aq just keep praying as long as he is good2 only and remain faithful waiting.

on the other side

it turns out that the message was open mas raden but teman2nya aq saw the date 11novenber birthday tahub mas raden aq forgot , is it possible that mas raden will come or this is just a trap no one wants to play aq then what is the purpose of his feelings increasingly unfounded. arrived2 my head was dizzy My stomach hurt probably because of aq blm mkan night and now it is 22:15 Aq remains faithful waiting for aq sitting in the front seat of the cafe that has been closed I send my head arrived2 my view is dark.

^open one or two times you please my feelings but aq still want to forgive you because aq can not see you frustrated anymore because the woman who once left you chose another man2 , semongga you are right2 changed and do not disappoint aq again