The Beauty of Unexpected Hope
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You are present in every dream, whether it is a good dream or a bad one always makes my heart not calm... you will always be in my heart even though a million resentments always haunt me because of a dark time when I am with you...

Are you always happy when you are with me.?

Will you always love me even though I'm far older ?.

could we be together..?.

Can you accept my mass.?..

and can you always be by my side until the end of my life...?

only the word yes I can say because aq trying to.accept it as it is. and aq do not know that aq is just a bet he and his friend2..

he doesn't believe in love..

he'll talk about what's in his brain.

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he'll make me smile every time I see him..

he can make me comfortable..

although tired he will have time for me. aq only feel pain in stiap selfishness..But I am always grateful because I have known him..

he is Mohammad Raden Ardiansyah

sweet man who is 16 years older than me. I initially believe he said I'm older than me because his face is like my brother's sll make people rise in blood, he's jail and humor. until one day he became someone who bruntal cold and cruel whether what happened .will he be able to return to the way he used to be because.aq was very expecting and longing for him before.

After 3 days aq confine me at home, aq does not perform any activities only in kmar sleep nagis every night nimatapi nasip, even though aq never feel hungry , thirsty, or want to go to kmar bath.

My body is 2 tired to move was not able to shadow he always haunts me aq do not expect a man2 that I think as a friend would want to destroy my life, he is Wiwit Putra Pratama , ' he said ,he who always had time for me, heard all my complaints, not once he refused when I met openly, hoby joking, his appearance was always neat like a santri and romantic.

That morning was October 3rd, aq deliberately did not want to go straight home because aq no friends they were all busy with their respective affairs 2 there were interns who had finished the long holiday exam tlah arrived .

Aq has made an agreement in the same place biyasa wiwit said he wanted to invite me to his house to introduce me to his father ,coincidentally aq gk there is a buku apapu in ibk house again out of town so aq feel free do not need to do my activities like byasa hehehheeh, hehheeh, didn't wait long until I was in a field full of grass on the riverbank near my grandfather's grave,

he came to smile and asked me to feel strange appearance this time was not as good as it was, more like ank pank, tattered pants camping, lefis jaket, more like,the dress picture skull face was strange as I think black lips, eyes full of ornaments and piercing in the ears so much, I think, it is not as usual every met sll using neat and polite snow honest aq a little shock. After taking the long ckup journey of about an hour, I reached the house of Wiwit.

Tok tok tok tok

wiwit: Asalamallaikum sir, come home.

aq: wit looks like your father is not home.

wiwit: maybe not home yet, he said before he picked you up just wanted to go to the condangan .

aq: ow already if it mending you anterin aq just go home, gk nice to see the neighbors later we are just the two of us.

wiwit: do not have to rush2 Sih most immediately the father came home, do not want to give a surprise for you .

aq: it was a surprise why it wasn't a birthday.

wiwit: there are deh , just enter here safely just like home.

aq kun nodded and according to him, after entering aq like to see the contents of the house wiwit, even though the house seemed new in the building and outside there were still many tools 2 craftsmen and some building brang scattered, although the house was impressed new in the building and outside there were still many tools 2 artisans and some building brang scattered,different degan in his house looks neat clean and fragrant, there are some ancient orang2 paintings and calligraphy is very beautiful.

Wiwit: If you wait here, I want to make you eat something special for you.

aq: oh do not bother2 wit, this water alone is enough, anyways aq gk can lama2 because there has been a promise as ibk to shop later in the afternoon at the big market of Karlos.

wiwit: cook you want to leave aq on my happy day.

aq: today is your birthday .

wiwit.: yes Sih cook you forget the same thing again thn your own best friend..

aq: heheheh sorry wit aq forgot you alone tau aq end2 is busy for the exam up class.

wiwit.: yes gk papa Sih aq tau kok, anyways aq has been forgotten.

Wiwit finally gk so to the kitchen sitting in front of me, with the bowing of the head honestly aq kasian it feels aq want to hug him but I undo my intention because we are not muhkrim , ' he said , aq knows a little about wiwit he broke home or his divorce because his mother cheated, he lived with his father and used to be the son of the cottage said his friend2, aq could only silently listen to all the kata2 wiwit and look at her .

wiwit : Sih honestly aq feel lonely every day, aq only way2 spend money bpk,aq want to have a life friend who accompanies me every day, fill the emptiness of my heart.

since knowing you aq feel comfortable whatever calm you have in you aq curious, my friend's sister said you are single finally aq approached you aq want to sll with you and get to know you further.

aq: ma,,, your max what wit..,

Wiwit looked at me and flanked for quite a while, honestly confused as to why he told me all that. he was like my own brother, I felt uncomfortable with the changing attitude of wiwit in addition to the appearance, the look of his dinginya scared me, aq want to go home.

wiwit: I want to be honest with you about my feelings, Sih aq tresno karo kowe, maybe this is too fast but I'm tired of harboring this feeling ,aq,,aq jealous with all your male friends2, you are so happy, you always think of me as my best friend and brother for my attention so far it's always been more to you you've always been indifferent .

Every aq wants to shoot you say love and love you think aq is just kidding then you avoid me.

If there is not the slightest taste of it for me, please do not just flirt..

aq: wit sorry aq know you like me but, again sorry wit aq can not accept you, you know yourself aq should not pcran same as my brother.

wiwit.:wait here don't go where man.

Aqku also obey to wantan wiwit aq sitting in the living room long enough,aq feel my butt hot aq stand and see the painting2 in his house , the room in front of me in the house there are only two rooms one room looks neat that one mess all terliha krn mosquito nets placed above the open door.

Aq entered a room that was a mess of curiosity and then aq saw a small fto merip degan wiwit with women in the closet.

This room is spacious unfortunately a little dirty because of the clothes that are scattered, aq also want to clean it, almost half an hour aq neatly arranged the room put barang2 in place of dirty clothes I put on the bed.

aq: sorry aq wit because aq tlah presumptuous to enter your room..

wiwit : it's okay 2 Sih ,aq instead thanks because my room became neat and clean.

aq :sama2 wit.

wiwit: We ate together in my room, I'm cooking for you.

aq: outside aja yes wit gk nice looking at the neighbors, the name is just one plate for you where.

wiwit: yes, this is a plate of both, yes, romantic heheheh

aq: you are full of eating a little, usually eat you a lot heheheh

Wiwit : full what else eat it just as you see, later if you are full aq will eat you heheheheheh

aq: means what wit ,kok eat aq what you are sumanto,ih kok so mrinding sih .

Wiwit :hahahahahah wkkwkw already eat keburu digin.

Aq also sorted and did not think anything that actually will happen this step ,eating in Lesehan on the dark red carpet there is a small table in the corner of the kmar that I also took it I put in the middle of the carpet.

we started eating, honestly feeling strange, my heart was not calm to see the wiwit attitude that was currently a little cold smile and kept looking at me.

Wiwit : anyway you daydream again what to eat sdikit.

aq: oh gk mikirin ap2 kok ,aq was full before here aq already breakfast a lot.

Wiwit :cook the hell, kok you look pale that's what you think, yes already you aq aapi ya aq afraid we knp2.

Aq : gk mikirin ap2 kok wit, it has aq mkn itself aja .

Wiwit :ok you run outin yes let you be strong when we play later..

aq:heh maxutnya what wit, we want to play ap, where..

Wiwit : gk kmn2 kok gih cpet seluin.habis it aq want to talk seriously with you .

aq: ow yes wit.

Honestly, I'm getting uncomfortable what else is this in the room just the two of you, fried rice that is quite delicious blend of spicy sweet taste along with vegetables should aq like either rsanya smakin lma as bitter as maybe my tongue alone, but still aq continue eating because aq afraid he was angry ,only about 3 spoons mkn arrived2 plates in front of me on pull the same he.

Wiwit : Sih lives dkit aq suapi yes, aq gk accepts repellents.

Aq just nodded and looked at him who was bribing me. In the last bribe aq terjud because there was something strange when I asked it like there was a cold hard object that I could not nail.

aq reconfigured the last mouthful on the tissue on the tray and cleaned it up was a plain sneak peek, it looks like the couple's ring aq looked at him then smiled.

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Wiwut : That's for you, I bought it long ago and I'll put the ring to someone who means something to me.

aq: own ta but sorry wit aq can not accept it .

Wiwit: why the hell aq benar2 like you aq want you always present in life aq accompany me until the end of my life, aq love you anyway aq please do not refuse aq, aq,aq will wait for you until graduation..

aq: ma sorry wit really aq gk can, aq already consider you like my own brother you know aq can not pcran here also aq ride aq gk can please understand the state of ku wit.

Wiwit :aq don't want to know if you have to be mine .

aq: plis don't scare me, deliver aq home wit...

..Aq was crying when Wiwit grabbed my hand very tightly and it hurt so bad he pulled me into the bed.dragging me and beating me.

Wiwit :no one can have you other than aq, you have to be my mliku if in a subtle way tk can then aq will use the rough way.

aq: please release aq wit, sick.

Wiwit being a rough figure he's bullying me is a real jerk2. Not content to kiss me violently she tied my hand to her new shirt on the loose, she slapped me trying to take off my hijab pulling violently until my neck was slightly injured by being scratched.

aq continued to thrash - hysterical thrashing aq always tried to escape to kick him I bite his ladder nyang mebap my mouth then he slapped me quite hard until aq limp he was standing locking his room ,put the key in his pocket.he took off his pocket and his pants only bokcer covering his body.Aq I put on a stand kicking his butt until he fell down near the closet, he grew angry and violent and kept crying and screaming as loud as possible but was nil because the room was soundproof.

Wiwit: free kou yell here anyway deserted neighbors all again to the mosque, no one can help you obey me aq will not hurt you..

aq: stop wit why are you so mean to me what is my fault, let go aq wit aq please..

he stood near me again slapped me until slapped on the floor he dragged me back on the bed while my feet were still on the floor aq sunguh was suffocated still trying to rebel kicking him again his left thigh tpi free he still strong. then he took off the rope in my hand , this is my chance to escape but no doubt he got stronger .

He screeched over me his other hand removing the button my knuckle wrapped around the top of the shirt and braku , di managed to see inside my bra crumple him and kissed him the longer the rougher he put a lot of red spots on the chest .me and my navel .aq continued to rebel I crest he I tambak tried to push it as hard as possible until finally he was careless trying to remove the chuck ,aq immediately pushed hard his body kicked up to the upside under the mattress.

Aq continued to try to stand near the place of eating earlier, throwing glasses and plates in front of him until they broke.

I took a piece of the glass and threatened him that I would kill himself if he approached me.aq continued to cry until I was weak.but he kept approaching me. dragging me again to the bed reveals my long roku squeezing my sensitive area, and ***** my tits rudely.

hinga finally he began to get tired because aqua rebelled aq kicked him again when di igin took off my underwear.aq tried to stand up again looking for the glass that he had snatched in the dump .

after getting the shard of the glass aq stuck his at the foot he was shouting, 'aq threatened him back if he approached then aq will kill himself, finally he gave up. he also walked limping2 looking for his pants took the key and opened the room, aq was crawling up to stand trying to run to the bathroom he just saw me jln staggering to help me but I clap his ladder until my bathroom is closed and aq can only cry.

tok tok tok tok

Wiwit: anyway open the door, forgive aq aq khilaf anyway , please open the door aq promise aq will not hurt you again open the door kmu long time in kmar bath open me take you home. please forgive me aq.

Aq out the bathroom with my bed soaked bdan .aq tk want to talk to him again.aq tidied up bjuku. took my bag. then I walk out of the house near the motor vespa it aq directly sitting on the side .because the day was very hot bjukupun some already dry. silence no one spoke.In the middle of the journey aq stop menyahat police who were on duty aq was down and continued to ignore the police question.entah what happened to him aq no matter.aq just want to go home and forget him.