The Beauty of Unexpected Hope
a very dear disappointment
Time shows at 11 pm he drove me home.until at home I keep daydreaming last night events still ring in my memory even my pain is still there.I really feel the lowest woman in the world. aq knows that everything I do is sinful but my body enjoys every wholeness from it even though I keep trying to reject all will in vain.
Which in my mind right now is he going to leave aq after I give something very valuable to me..? is it forever going to continue like this just obeying ego and lust alone..is he my soul mate who will forever be with me..?
is it true that Aq is only an impingement..
1001 Questions in my brain made me tired.
I realize aq is like a betting item for him that does not mean ap2 .items that someday will be thrown away by him. But would it be wrong if I trusted him again and wished him more..? after all we have survived to this point2 for 7 years more.should aq give up on this relationship that has crossed the line..? aq doesn't want to blame him for what happened before because he's a grown man .and it must be hard to overcome all his desires ,
aq doesn't want to lose him, either,
she's my world..
he has filled the void in my heart and soul..
aq needs him by my side because he has everything and Iklas covers all my flaws.
Although my mind2 does not materialize does not mean aq will give up with the situation, there are still many of my wishes that have not been realized, aq want to live happily with it..
aq wants 2 people who love me to smile...
aq wants to remove all resentment in the past to set a better future.and aq wants to build a household with a.
Today I feel not confident, after I destroyed the trust of everyone my life feels empty.My mistake this time can not get forgiveness from them, after I destroyed the trust of everyone my life feels empty, my carelessness destroyed all the hopes of orng2 who loved me. All my dreams were shattered in an instant just because of black love . I really hate myself.I really want to cherish this life.Yes Allah forgives aq who always breaks your limits.
it did not feel like I was tired of daydreaming immediately clean my body in the bathroom, aq, when I looked in the mirror I was surprised that there were so many signs in my body that still hurt when washed with water. I finished my bath using a long-collared suwiter to cover the container ****** .
today aq shaving at home there is only my sister school and others work . finished changing clothes aq cook and clean the house finished with all my activities. aq back to the room turned on my hemphon many messages from kluwarga and 37 missed messages from him.tiba2 he called me again 😅😅😥.
*r* hello my dear..
*@* no papa mas kangen or you, again what deck..
^*^ sleep only mas, mas gk krj ta...
*@* ow met rest my dearangk, krj this mas still in the office waiting schedule from the boss.oya deck tomorrow the day after you mas jumput what among your uncles..?
^*^ emm. maz tomorrow krj only, aq depart the same uncle we are unidirectional...
*@* oki sayangk,.dk thanks ya for last night..aq very happy to know you and love you..
^*^ yes mas sama2..
*@* why are you crying, right,,? do you regret everything ,,? don't2 you already don't.love me lagimm😢😢
^*^q only a cold mas, aq also love you, you do not have to worry aq..
*@* thankfully if so. yes already deck mas want to go to work first yes.you liver2 at home just eat a lot and do not forget always.maintain health.
^*^ yes mas njenegan also hati2 krjnya.Asalamallaikum.wr.wb.
*@* yes deck waalaikumussalam.wr.wb.
after finishing tlvn I turn on the television to see my favorite cartoon film.for a moment I want to forget all the burdens in my life.
until finally I fell asleep.
#I don't want to ruin your life then you don't hurt my heart either. If you're good then I'll always try better. because aq does not want to extract old wounds.and because aw wants to be your future. ..#selaluberharapygthe best.
