The Beauty of Unexpected Hope
empty because of your possessiveness
One week after the incident I met him on the spot.biyasa lightly what possessed him I feel he is getting spoiled . and the longer aq has been engineered with his treatment. aq always obey all the wishes of him who sll exceeded the limit every meet. aq slll wake up in the middle of the night to call him.or he who called me. he was like an opium to me I always miss his smile and when2 with him I can never forget . aq increasingly do not want to be far from him he returned to be a raden figure that I once knew cheerful .suka ngombal a little romantic always make me comfortable and happy.
he has not contacted me for 5 weeks so worried I don't know if I always feel he is following his promise2 to me. What might be my hunch. aq kept sending messages to him never got a reply to me tlvn he was never picked up . until finally aq tired and did not contact him again. one month he contacted me again invited me to meet at the place where there is something he wants to talk about important.aq obey him .since aq is out of work and now lives in the house of aq mother wants him to pick me up.he takes me to the villa where we want to date. a lot of things we talked about started from her being told to get married immediately by her mother.and in chase2 the widow of 5 years was honestly aq feeling shock and jealousy. he said we are just waiting for a good day his parents will soon come to propose to me directly to my house.yes aq agreed2 only. but he also explained that will move krj in the city to be disappointed because the intensity of meeting we will be disturbed but what power aq can not prohibit him.so he worked hard for our marriage biyaya later. finished we chat2 he fell asleep aq still watching tivi.properly late at night someone called him I raised but aq did not say a word.which memelvanya women from his mouth it looks like a mature woman he said misses her.hatiku it hurt like a thousand needles.I turned off the tlvn and I sent a message to the woman klau mas raden sleep then I hpus the message. tk felt my tears melt my mind where2 why the number was stored without a name will she be the widow who likes it...
I saw him sleep tired and I paid him. I was tired of crying I finally fell asleep.
right at 3 am aq woke up because I felt thirsty. I saw he was not beside me I surfed but did not meet, I did not see him, then I turned on my dispenser making bitter coffee to calm my heart and my chaotic mind. Fifteen minutes later I saw the door open he came in carrying various kinds of snack pennies .aq kept trying to smile and ignore everything in my mind.Aq hungry I turn on the tv again to see the cartoons in the morning while eating the senek he gave. I saw him go to the bathroom maybe want to maandi 20 minutes later kmar shower open he kluwar just wear a towel wrapped around his ping. it's a difficult task for me to ignore hehehe my body.feeling tense as he walked closer to me with his devil smile made my heart not calm really he wanted to eat me it happened that morning we repeated things the same as before until finally we are tired and overslept.
time has shown at 10 noon worms in my stomach thrashing ronta want in the contents .aq immediately wake up clean the body and order food online.like I usually see he is still asleep I just pay. 25 Minutes later the last order of our favorite duck arrived. I took the money in his wallet to pay.I woke him up to eat.Finished meal we packed .he drove me home.
since then aq and he met in one month only 2/3 times. always do the same thing he was increasingly possessive and spoiled.until finally aq felt maybe just a gratifier only. aq always tries to ignore the word person2 that. aq is only a mere impeller. aq continued to sbar hahabut he reached the end point of the road 3 bln half aq got tlvn from a woman who claimed she was his betel wife.like lightning in broad daylight my heart was broken. and again I got the news that my future in-laws had a heart attack...
aq is like an undead.aq always do everything he wants to do aq ignore all that I should not ignore aq forget all your responsibilities .aq being a cigarette addict is too much I think , the sins that I have always blamed I repeat. The money runs out for foya2 .my wak runs out to think of people who never think about aq. aq ignored my obligation as a child to make the orng2 who loves me anxious . oh god it feels aq tired and want to die alone even though aq surrounded by many people aq feel empty like his own .for my carelessness always felt lonely.wanted to end my life but aq has promised to change and organize my life but it is very difficult.
he wants aq to be good but aq instead lulled with my freedom . all my dreams have been sia2 aq is not worthy of his partner who has everything .aq not who2 . should aq give up aq tired of living like this.aq hate driku sendri even though I have given everything to him but aq still feel unworthy in comparison with his aq want to run and assume all that tlah it happened yesterday like the wind but my heart did not want to love him .. aq do not want to lose him. but his overprotective attitude forbid me this it makes me careless ..her possessiveness makes me tired of wanting to end this relationship but she always tries to convince me to stay.
after the events of a few months ago I felt like he was getting changed
the longer aq tired he ignored me no news.and disappeared like in the swallow of the earth.Aq can only hope all aka baik2 only as hollow as what the woman said was wrong. aq can only wishan2. and sll hollow prayer as he is fine2 only.
aq never blames you when the person who gave birth to you is sick and you ignore me because I am aware of my status. what makes me angry is the news that you do not want to be honest and open about your decision to face others so that people consider you alone... aq just need certainty from you and hope that he who made me your betel wife is lying blaka.sorry aq because of my selfishness. my principle is only one if you want to menduakan aq make the first aq I first want in honey.
