The Beauty of Unexpected Hope
That guy is lucky
My heart was empty after I lost him, 'aq often dreamed of him, although I was disappointed because it was played 'aq can not forget him..
she was my first love.
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Today aq works like his culture, 'aq always try to ignore the anxiety in my heart even though my krjan often do wrong bosses remain mentolelir, he said, honestly aq not feeling good almost every day aq break the glass because aq work and daydreaming.
honestly aq want to stop working, but aq blm have another work tempet , aq today deliberately went home from work early to find a new job at stan2 nearest clothing store but the result is nil , 2 ,aq was tired of walking around in that supermarket.
. Finally aq break in the city park, see a lot of teenagers who are on a date feeling envious and it feels aq want to meet with him want to hug him. it's been 3 months he ignored me every time I call his phone rarely active every hour1 or 2 nights he scandals several times but aq tlvn never lifted aq need certainty, aq wanted to know what he wanted.
time has shown at 20:45 mlm aq benjalan go home ,in the junction jaln towards the house aq in the face of men2 dressed all in black lucuna he wears a sarong in view of his posture seems aq know him yes he.cowok tall white gingsul Lucky Pradana his name is a child boarding school near the bulek house, she is both sholeh pinter humorous and ambitious .
lucky faced me asking for my new phone number either purpose ap he asked for my number but I don't care if I give my number ,honestly aq a little admire lucky he always has time for me.dlu pas aq start living in the city aq always comfortable when close to him he taught me many things make aq a better figure again.every there's a problem he always gives the best solosi he shabatku and I've considered like my brother our age 5 yr difference my relationship and lucky a little tenuous after aq know raden, aq, he walked away from me every time I asked him why he was just silent and indifferent because he was cold to me until finally fitting he knew aq in lamar raden a few months ago he was arrived2 disappear aq can be heard from friends2 cottage he said lucky came home because his mother was sick, much of which changed from lucky now his appearance lbih adult thin mustachioed hair a little long but neat.
Today, I was tired until the house immediately cleanses the body and sleeps,at 2 am aq got a telvon from raden aq immediately raised it sunguh aq shock when he said he did not speak at all aq only heard the voice of a woman who woke up her sleep calling raden with the title sayangk ,aq instantly turn off hp aq crying hysterically making ibk and bpk panic he immediately hugged me and calmed aq until aq asleep lagy but he did not ask for anything.
Aq bagun bad luck at about 7:45 am, my head dizzy limp body my hands a little blurry aq walk slowly2 to the bathroom cleaning the body , 2 , then to the dining table aq straight breakfast aq benah2 hungry finished eating aq call the boss for permission a few days because he did not feel well he allowed. finished calling aq saw there are several messages from keluxarga and one new number he lucky aq watch tv while replying to the message, because of bored aq also change clothes aq want to visit the grave of grandfather.aq always comfortable every in the grave of grandfather because the place is clean cool and shady tree an fragrant sharing frangipani flowers, and,jasmine kathil roses etc make me forget my problems it feels like I don't want to go home.
aq went to the river near the cemetery sitting under a big tree riverbed daydreaming the breeze sepoi2 made me drowsy aq raised my feet from the river walking closer to the big sengon tree, the, he fell asleep in the little hut under the tree.
aq felt a feather coming in my nose aq was awakened in front of me there is a little boy 2 he son adk budy my old school friend, in his hand holding a feather dara aq just smile not scolding iw he aq thank you for being woken up. I saw my watch at 14:25 aq and the son walked closer to the river aq washing.muka eha instead encouraged the son to fall into the river I saw many men temn2 who laughed at me ,aq chasing the son and I drag him I throw into the river buddy2 he caught it. sunguh aq feel happy peace all the burden on my heart and mind vanished seeing ank2 smile aq play water with the ank2 in the river until I forgot the time. I did not hit the clock .15:55 aq immediately invite ank2 to return home 2 . on the grand journey aq met lucky he saw me soaked immediately take off his jacket and throw the jacket at me with a smile and leave my aq.d wear his big jacket rushed home , licky really understand how the nature of his mother must be angry if I see me soaked. arrive at home aq quite relieved because it is still quiet maybe ibk's father is still in the rice field ,aq rushed to kmar bath to clean the body and wash clothes. finished bathing aq cooking favorite ibuk noodles fried mix mustard, eggs and a little sliced chili, chili, aq cook pretty much the same for dinner. side dish tempe fried beans,etho2 and salted fish. finished cook aq clean the house, and, while waiting for ibk bpk to go home aq break in the room.ku open the postel there are only a few missed messages from luki, aq also called him.
aq : Asalamallaikum, yes.
lucky : Waalaikumsalam deck, tumben tlvn ad ap..
aq: it was notya mas that was yesterday afternoon tlvn, even now mas tanya.
lucky : oh yes deck aq forgot, ow nganu deck.it.. ..
aq: nganu op to mas, if the talk is clear.
lucky: it's later deck malem you no acra ap no..
aq: no reason why.
lucky : aq want to take adek jalan3, all you want to go to the bookstore want to buy a package book for my adek, do you want to accompany the mas.
aq: oky mas will not be temenin.
lucku: thank you deck, see you at 19:00 on yesterday deck.
aq: yes mas sama2,Asalamallaikum.
lucky : Waalaikumsallam, wwr.
after aq telvon out of my room saw bpk ibk just came home and tired immediately I made coffee, I gave it to him.
aq immediately changed the dress rushed to meet Lucki, until in the T-junction I saw lucky cross-seeking looking at me and a little smile, today he looks handsome using long black pants suwiter brown and fragrant.
aq: Asalamallaikum mas has been waiting for a long time.
lucky : waalaikumsalam.wr.wb not deck.
during the trip we did not talk he walked quickly and put both hands in his pants pocket.
aq continues to walk behind lucky while raising the posel, aq feel cangung.
arrived2 aq hit the chest of lucky aq field not knowing that he stopped.
honestly my head hurts but she just smiled and touched my eel, she grabbed my phone and then put it in her pocket, lucky grabbed me .when he wanted to cross he held my hand tightly my heart also beat faster his sweet behavior made me always comfortable, even though he was not much talk as before he was still very attentive to me.
Arriving at the lucky bookstore bamitan looking for a package book for his sister, aq also looking for my favorite comix I Kiss Four Money book. finished taking the comok aq looking for lucky then pay it at the lucky cashier who pays all.he forbids me to pay like biyasa every aq out the same he aq never spend a penny.
Finished buying the book we went to find a place to eat near the park, and, all places to eat rame.aq choose the place of the meatball tomb and the place is indeed on the roadside but the meatballs are always rame because it tastes good and the price is cheap.
finished eating lucky meatballs asked me to buy some ice resigned at the place pk mun behind An Nurr mosque, when I want to cross the aq almost dragged by a very cadet motorbike the person who almost hit me just turned his head and went to look at him turned out he was mas Raden who was chatting with sexy women .arrived2 my head was dizzy my body was limp aq almost fell lucky immediately memelelukuku tightly he memapah me to the edge of the road..
aq was crying hard enough that many people who were looking at me lucky to hold me tightly calmed me down, after a little bit of calm lucky to hold me and take me home. During the trip none of us spoke, until at home lucky lowered aq from his carrier and say goodbye . I open the door seen ibk bpk asleep in front of the tv that is still on. I turn off the lights and the tv rushed to room , until the room aq memelvon raden but his hp gk active aq continued to cry until finally aq fell asleep.
Aq always misses you, though,
my heart aches to see you shaking hands with another woman,
although our relationship was at the beginning of a bet,
aq still love you, aq can not forget you, aq jealous when you see you with luluk .
don't you have the slightest taste for me, though,
am I forever your only toy,
what you really want from me,
please talk don't ignore me..
aq really needs you by my side...
forgive selfishness....
allow aq to have you again,,,
give me a second chance so I can fix all the mistakes in the past.
Aq loves you very much.
