The Beauty of Unexpected Hope
my thoughts are always about you
Waiting for something that sucks for me,
when I have to be patient and be patient waiting for your presence ,
which is never sure when it will come back, though,
he who was present hugged me for just a moment and left again.
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Today I woke up at dawn because she kept calling me. she cried all night but she always tried to comfort me, early morning around 5 o'clock
he invited me to jog his reason for getting stressed while working gk sleepy
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well he's lucky .just don't like every way just as he's a lot of pretty girls always tease him ,if in the past he was always flirtatious humorist like nagepin every girl who sedukanya can be said santri playboy to a point aq in played by men2 as a bet show material since then he also brubah so the cold man is quiet with others but does not reduce the level of good looks that are now thin mustachioed lbih dwasa . other people always say aq lover because klakuaan we both are hoby hand in hand when the road sometimes he embraces me and lagy when aq sick or tired when the road together with him he holds me ,he used to be there for me to always accompany me wherever I go aq always be happy with him but he always biyasa only. my friend2 always doubted our friend Frenszone well that was aq never fell in love with him but in silence aq never revealed it because aq fear that losing him aq fear he did not care anymore to me well better aq harboring that feeling. until one day he said he had an aggressive school tmen girlfriend he broke up because he did not want to be kissed hahah funny not that time he invited me to walk out of love to the playground he needs entertainment even though many girlfriends he never wants to be in physical contact with his girlfriend tpi if the same aq byasa just maybe because comfortable times yes he considers me as a sister so instead aq consider him brother..
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2july the beginning of my relationship with lucky time aq soan same om raden,aq told me a lot about the same raden he ,when I said her name she was angry she asked aq leave it seems like she knew that raden was how her people were but she was trying to be indifferent . after that meeting he decided on all his girlfriends and went home.
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today aq jogs the same he feels cangung anyway not much chatter as he used to be silent we go around the park a few rounds out it buy black glutinous pulp+kangijo for breakfast, because the day of the park saptu is getting crowded the most dislikes because as before many who looked at us both trying to stain lucky even though now he is indifferent , there are also teenagers who desperately get acquainted and give no hpnya hahahah a small entertainment for me when sad because he scowled gk nature gk how it if he saw the whimper hem must be lethargic. finished eating porridge he bought drinks and cilot naruto my favorite we sit in the garden gasebo to spend our food, because today aq work brangkat a little afternoon at 8 so a little relaxed
finished eating cilok we talked2 casually he told me all his problems knp home kapung while lying his head on my lap and it was bijasa if seen other people maybe in the thought of lovers .
he also told about the raden he knew from his best friend Eko and hendrik if dian was bedboys the richest man in karlos etc but aq tried to be biyasa even though aq misses him terribly ,want to feel aq cry and scream to vent my anger aq can only duck aq no doubt hold back these tears so as not to fall a few drops of tears I hit the cheeks lucky he immediately sat down and memeluku from the side.he kept trying to calm aq.
until the time showed at 7 aq immediately got up from sitting and we both came home he grabbed me half way he held me home during the trip he did not say a word . until home aq immediately clean themselves and go to work.
arriving at work everyone looked at me cynically and talked aq ,yes, those who saw me in the park was really uncomfortable, I decided in the kitchen alone to help cook junior chefs rather than serve cynical buyers
good bosses understand my situation and hope never to see them again, aq immediately finished my work aq busy dri take another job well only work can make my heart calm and can forget my problems.until finally the time shows at 19.00 aq immediately replace use a short break pamit back home 2 the middle of the road when going to cross the street aq see him the same ex-lover nyesek mbokmu, but aq be biyasa anyway he did not consider me aq keep running home with a chaotic feeling , arriving at home aq immediately clean the body and to the room no appetite after seeing the incident earlier.
before aq sleep aq reactivate mobile phonekun aq got some mms message from new no yes from her new lover raden photo 2 it's old photo at the same time hendrik time in the old school stalls he feeds me and there is also when hendrik hugs me.(aq used to date. sma Hendrik for 3 weeks aq ptus because he was too spoiled he was 2thn younger than me even though his body was burly tigi but his possessive attitude was child2an and it made me uncomfortable he introduced to my underclassman aulia her name until now she is still in a relationship I stubborn with other friends2 she said already want to marry, aq quite happy they are the same now).
photo to the same three aq eko was eating on the roadside and piggybacking (fto that when aq was in school he drove me home during school holidays.aq also dated 1 week the same yes, he was about my age for a while but I deliberately invited him to break up because he had a jealous and ngajak marriage hypothesis, heheh he once proposed to me but aq refuse because he was a bedboys and a pill addict doble L ya aq tau because lucky tells all about his best friend he knows because lucky ibih old of them three, ' ' ' 'cause lucky ,aq rejects degan smooth because it is aq still want sendri , but also kasian heck aq see he now becomes quiet I also salut he has turned gk into an addict and I degar he was married aq happy.)
photo terakhi new photo this morning when in the garden lucky sleep on my lap and hugged me. yes after aq saw fto2 it aq received a message from the same number.
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you cheap hypocrite woman you do not deserve to be with her, only aq deserves to be with raden aq just as she has everything aq has the blessing of her brother, show don't expect him to go back because you've hurt him aq will take him back...
my heart and mind became chaotic after seeing the message, as low as it was in their eyes.what because fto2 that he ignored aq and showed aq. aq continued to lament my nasipku aq crying only that could be done, until finally my body was limp and my view was dark aq was asleep.
aq work quite quietly after the story of my problem to ibk a little relieved.today my work I finish quickly aq home exhausted ashar until the house has been welcomed ibk , aq help ibk make jamu like old school days . just half aq help ibk aq can telvon from raden aq little shock saw aq silent ibk immediately turn off the herbal milling machine flush me to lift the telvon after that ibk take the phone in my hand taking a little away from me.My feeling is not good to finish tlvn ibk angry2 to me ya ibk so know everything and scolded me for aq rejecting raden to marry me when aq school dlu aq used to indeed refuse
a man2 who wanted to propose to me after graduating from school because I thought he was joking.aq started stripping again and left ibk just like that ,aq wants to go home and hug mom just that in my heart and mind.
during the journey mas khoirul did not ask anything he had memorized how my nature .until at home at 20:23 mas khoirul little chat with my brother, he said, aq run to the menaggis room in the arms of his mother to sleep aq do not know mas khoirul return. mas just said that his ojek he paid. like biyasa aa never tell me about my problem to kluwargaku because aq gk want to make them worry in addition to again that slah is aq.
wake up soon after the shower finished morning prayer aq sitting on the terrace of the house fresh air in the village fragrant coffee flowers and andong in the morning make my heart calm with a cup of coffee I see people pass lalang want to go to the garden.time shows at 5:30 aq immediately to the house uncle wants to leave together to the city ,incidentally uncle works as a big market porters in the city he allows because the road to the market passes the place krjku. after aq say goodbye to kluwarga aq leave again to the city at 06:05 Arrive in the city aw directly work, and I assume there is no problem aq work with a little relaxed because the Tuesday is a little quiet until finally the clock home .
Just a few steps from work aq in the face of a tall male figure2 yes he was lucky he immediately hugged me.
Lucky: you go anywhere, why hpmu die, aq miss you deck..
aq: sorry mas last night aq go home me mak, sorry hp I loebet aq do not bring cas, thanks for missing aq.
lucky: ow so to, oya dek mas want to talk seriously ma you, we go to the park for a while.
aq: yes mas. (during the trip to the park he just kept his gaze blank10 minutes we arrived at the park sitting in the gasebo)
lucky: the deck will be honest with you.
aq: yes mas honestlyaja tumben said very tense, want to say what the hell mas..
lucky: the deck mas like equally adek, you want to not marry the same mas and join the mas back home village.
aq: heheheeh mas lek guyonan gk funny.
lucky: mas seriously really, mas like you from the past, do not ad a little for your feelings for me.
.aq: ma, maaf mas aq can not. really aq sorry .honest I used to love sma mas but the taste is gone after aa know mas raden, sorry Aq mas.
lucky: own.., em not ap2 dek aw understand, just want to reveal this before the mas go home tomorrow.
aq: what angry mas, why mas go home ,sorry aq mas.
lucky: deck mas not angry, mas go home because a week more rahma marriage.kan who became his guardian mas bpk already no adA.
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I don't know my heart arrived2 hurt to hear it all, honestly aq also miss bpk aw directly hugged the lucky aw mas repress until a whimper arrived2 mas lucky memeluku tightly and kiss my forehead aq feel calm and stop tearing.
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lucky: the deck is late at night coming home, tomorrow morning we leave.
aq: yes, sorry.
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aq immediately got up from my seat and lucky held my hand tightly during the journey home, we both just talked for a while to forgive and encourage each other, she said, at home he said he hugged me tightly and kissed me.Honestly I still miss him only he who understands my feelings forgive me aq because it has made you disappointed. Aq immediately opened the door slowly because aq tau ibk and bpk must have fallen asleep in front of the tivi because tivi is still on. aw immediately sided with the body , tv math and rest in the room. today is very tiring for me after painting hp aq hurry to sleep aq hope tomorrow morning aq can start my activities as well as possible.
