CHEATING FIVE STEPS
AYU introduction

My name is Ayu Lestari, born in 1989 in S. At the age of 25, I wandered to the city of A and had been running for approximately 7 years.

I married a man named Darma. We met at a karaoke place for the first time.

After meeting a few times, bang Darma expressed her love for me and she wanted to marry me. At first, I didn't respond so much. Because there's still a deep sense of trauma, and it's still in my heart.

My household has been destroyed twice, and I have been a widow twice. That's what traumatized me so much that I was still afraid to start over.

I did not refuse nor did I accept the invitation of bang Darma to marry me. I just asked him to be patient, and thank God he also wanted to obey my wishes.

We had a relationship for a year. And during that year, I used to recognize his personality. Recognize all his attitudes, and recognize his daily life.

Yes, we live under one roof without any marriage ties. After a year passed, I agreed to be his wife, and to accompany her life forever.

He worked in an old iron warehouse, and had more than enough salary, to meet our daily needs. Her status is widower son 1, before marrying me.

His son is with his ex-wife. And every month, we give food ration for his child of five hundred thousand rupiah.

The first year of marriage, everything was fine. But in the second year, bang Darma started to be indifferent and cold to me. He rarely supported my inner self, and even he often refused if I had sex with him.

Once or twice, I am still aware of his rejection. The reason is always tired. But over time, I began to get bored with this marriage.

No warmth, no laughter, no harmony and no caress. Everything feels so empty.

He only supported my birth, and ignored my most important living, which was my inner living.

Honestly, I was very disappointed with this cold household like the north pole. To make me darken my eyes, and the intention in my heart to seek warmth on the outside.

Though every night, I always dress sexy and use fragrant fragrance to tease her. But bang Darma is still indifferent and does not care. And it makes me very frustrated.

Where would I channel this lust, if not to my husband? That's what I think about in my brain.

Honestly, I often do stimulation on myself. To satisfy my lust that sometimes I can't stand anymore.

In fact, I even had the intention to buy a tool that could be used to channel my passion. Until one day, when I was alone at home. A neighbor named Agus came to me.

His reason for looking around at the clothes I sold. In fact, his main intention was to tease me. Even she spoke brightly, and invited me to have an affair with her.

At first, I didn't respond to all of her remarks, because I was afraid of being discovered.

After all, it was also impossible for me to have an affair with my own neighbor, who was only five steps away from my house. That's what I was thinking, when he told me his heart.

Apparently, bang Agus has long liked and paid attention to me. In fact, he also wanted to have me completely.

Honestly, I'm very much in a dilemma with this love triangle. On the one hand, I don't want my household destroyed. But on the other hand, I also need affection and warmth. And all that I got from bang Agus.

Yes, bang Agus always spoils me with his affection. He always gave his best to satisfy my desires.

I was so overwhelmed by his service. I really enjoyed all the gentle touches. I was also very addicted, with her bed games always satisfying me.

Bang Agus was also able to make me peak again and again, just by playing his tongue in my sensitive area.

That is the activity I like the most from bang Agus. Very far the difference with bang Darma who is only selfish, while making love with me.

In fact, me and bang Darma often quarrel. Just because he always refused my wishes.

I had a moment to think, is bang Darma any other woman outside? So he was so cold with me. Is he cheating on me behind my back?

What's wrong with my body, so that she doesn't get excited about me anymore? All those prejudices, they've always been a burden on my mind.

If only bang Darma had not ignored my inner needs, surely I would not have cheated on others. I will not seek warmth outside.

So upset, I once asked to separate with her. But he never wanted to. I was so confused for her, I don't know what she wanted?

He ignored me, but also did not want to let go of me. If he knew, if I betrayed him, I don't know what would happen?

Will he divorce me or not? Will he keep me, after he knows what I've done behind his back?

I don't know, I'm confused by the life I'm living. But to be sure, I enjoy cheating these five steps consciously, and without coercion from anyone.

Even though the risk is very heavy, I will still live. Even if this affair is discovered, inevitably I have to accept Agus bang to be my life companion.

Because bang Agus has promised, will marry me and bear all his risks.

Even from the beginning, bang Agus has invited me to get married. But I still doubt, because I still love my husband. I don't want to part with bang Darma, my cold husband.

If you have to separate, how else? I have to give up, maybe get there my soul mate with her.

Household harmony is the key to happiness. I often scolded my husband to get a little warmer with me. Still, there is no change at all. He's still cold, like the north pole.

O Allah, please forgive me my sin. Amin amin ya rabbal a'lamin.