LOVE ON THE HORIZON
A HEART THAT MELTS

Seeing Clara growing bigger, lonely and empty and my heart frozen, a little less, at leisure

and not too busy with work, I always stopped by late afternoon to meet Clara, and went home when she was asleep.

Ita never revealed what she wanted and also her heart, seeing me come more often for Clara already made her happy. As if he also knew, if I had been allergic to hearing the word or sayings LOVE.

I was in one of my company's branch factories in Bandung, when my sister Hendra panicked

dialled me

“Papa fell again after returning home from work..Tika hospital recommends to be taken to RSCM because the tool there more lebgkap...and this stroke attack the second” said Hendra half yelling.

“Follow the advice of Tika.lu hospital doctors and Satria bring papa to RSCM now, for administrative costs and.

so I transfer to your account..gw back to Jakarta with this afternoon flight” my answer quickly.

I was just as panicked as I was when I heard Debby was sick, thinking back to what I was carrying

Debby from Palembang to MMC Jakarta Hospital, I dare not remember the next incident. I just want to arrive as soon as possible at RSCM (Cipto Mangunkusumo Hospital) tonight.

At about 21:00 pm, I arrived at RSCM, Hendra immediately explained to me, what the Doctor said

handling papa when entering RSCM.

“This time papa's second stroke is more severe than it used to be, if first.stroke papa is still a mild category.

or the first attack and the cause is only high blood sugar levels or diabetes.this time two at once that causes papa stroke.hypertension ..high blood and also high blood sugar as before…” said Hendra explained to me.

“Then how papa? Can it heal completely..?” ask me again

“Can but it takes quite a long time and gradually.the situation is now half of papa's organs are not functioning.

and paralyzed...the left..” replied Hendra while bowed lethargic.

I leaned my limp on the hospital wall hearing Hendra's explanation,”Absolutely papa's food don't you guys control?” I told my three sisters.

“We're all at home control food papa ka Adrian.but we don't bsia papa control when he goes to work.

take his cab” obviously Satria my sister who is number three.

“Ya already...maybe in this way papa ga stubborn again by forcing himself to work and take a taxi

again.which is important now let papa get action first..then once out of the hospital, we think about what treatment next..whatever is related to the healing of stroke.”.

After a week in the hospital, he was allowed to go home. Papa came home in a wheelchair because of his body

the left side is paralyzed, and papa's way of speaking becomes pelo or lisp and becomes sensitive and often cries.

“Papa's job is now just rest and heal huh? Even if it heals later.papa do not need to bring a taxi again.

In addition to medical drugs, I also find out alternative medicine treatments, as well as medicinal herbs

traditional chinese for papa's healing.

I also received a side job as a consultant as well as factory licensing manager colleague boss

I'm in the office, I have to work harder because now all the responsibility backpacks are on my shoulders, my whole family and also the tiny Clara and Ita.

I don't care more about the name of a woman let alone everything that concerns love. I was also tired of all my failures, building a dream and in an instant falling apart

even in pieces and have to go back together again from the beginning.

I also use my savings to buy a used car to make it easier to bring papa to and fro, rather than having to bother looking for a taxi also saves my thought costs.

That night I saw my father not asleep and stared blankly at the sky of his room, I approached and sat beside him, I saw that my mother was asleep, maybe tired all day taking care of papa and cooking to eat my sister after school, except Hendra who has married.

“Pa...Adrian now has bought a car, so if papa medicate we do not bother, Adrian has also learned steering

car, papa will ever say ..kalo nyetir it association...and men should be able to..” said I half whispered afraid to disturb the sleep of mama next to him.

I saw papa smiling happily.

“And later...at the weekend end...we are staying at home that Adrian bought in the outskirts of Jakarta huh pa? it's good to make there

rest..ga noisy pa...” continued me again

“Iya...What age is your child now?” said papa suddenly with a slurred voice due to the stroke he suffered

I can't believe I heard that word coming out of my mouth

“mau three years pa...” replied me.

“Papa never take passengers ...and down near the house Ita...papa back and forth to twice ..want to see your child, but ga look or meet.” papa continued again.

My eyes glazed over to hear it.papa.people I knew were very loud in character and stance, could say words like the one I just heard, asking about my son.

melt the hardness of his heart.

“Papa want to meet...?” Ask me slowly

Papa nodded ..then cried….

I wiped his tears “ Yes..later if Adrian luang dang a lot of work Adrian will bring here to see papa mama..now it's night..papa break ya?” my words softly.

papa's blanket.