LOVE ON THE HORIZON
PAPER BUTTERFLY

By the day of the verdict, I was no longer able to meet Ita despite being as silent as we were

do it in the past. Only limited to WA/SMS/Call and also when I send some money for the needs of Ita and my son.

The wheel of time that rotated in my life felt so fast and through the winding road, after Sisca left, I

thought my wounds would be lost by building up my love and Ita in a household, but all like paper butterflies, which are easily blown and torn.

Sometimes my body is tired of crashing the waves.Often my heart feels like hands and feet.

scratched coral beach.

I want to lay down my body and I let the waves toss over time.  But again I fell over rocks

the sharp one.and again I can only be silent in silence.

At the time of my pleasure...Dikala worry I..Ririn always try to come and be present beside me, never he often talk about the heart, but from his eyes I still know that he kept his dream. “You deserve a better dream Rin..” I said repeatedly in my heart.

At the verdict of my divorce hearing and Ita, she was only accompanied by one of her family members, I saw Ita

bowed with glassy eyes, my heart was also slashed to see his sadness, I alone a man can feel enough deep sadness for a farewell, let alone a woman.

As I left the Courtroom, I stared for a moment at Ita's beautiful eyes.and as if to say “ I'm sorry Ta..” I could feel the sadness he brought as it slowly passed and disappeared from my sight.

The day passed after, like there was a part missing from my life, not a pain like the moment

Sisca left first, but it felt empty and like something was missing, but I myself did not know exactly what it was. Learning from what happened first, I drown myself back in work, even crazier than that

before, because in addition to the emptiness of my heart, there was a little boy there that I had to fund.  Ririn often asked for my time to meet, but I could not fulfill because of the busyness and portion of the work that I deliberately added myself. Until finally my health condition dropped and I fell ill due to typhus symptoms so forced to be hospitalized.

Fortunately my sister-in-law Tika is a nurse at a private hospital in the new Kebayoran area, so all she set. During my treatment, Ririn always visited and accompanied me when she returned from work. Even the one who helped me take the medicine also fed me the hospital provided.

“It just so happens that his job again overload Rin..” I replied in a dark manner.

“You can lie to others...but not with me...” Reply Ririn while looking intently at me.

I've never seen Ririn so angry and serious. “I'm sorry Rin.

my family needs are fulfilled and..there is a child there who needs to cost me..” I said slowly.

“I'm not stupid Adrian..your job is not a trader who should need extra time longer if you want to.

you are also not a worker with overtime hours ..you senior staff and your work can be arranged efficiently as long as it is well planned….also you can share or be shared with your division co-workers.all you do is intentionally add a portion of your own work...look for the hassle yourself..make your own.” said Ririn at length.

With a woman as smart as Ririn, I can't just argue, if my answer is not strong, surely I will

dead fleas made.

“For the reason of the child..I understand very well..but not in a way to hurt or not care about your health.

by yourself..you are not a robot..many rely on you and rely on your same expectations..if you fall ill..drop....besides you who lost...they also suffer from”.

I just fell silent at all the words he said, everything he said was right, I was a stubborn man, in arguing too often I did not just want to give up, but in front of Ririn…I can't deny and I admit, I was wrong and I was looking for my own disease.

“I don't care how your heart fills.but I love you Adrian.and I don't want to see you like this..” Ririn said with a raucous voice holding back tears, her eyes glazed over.

“Iya..forgive me...I promise it won't be like this again...” reply me slowly..I hold his fingers.

I felt his great attention.his anger.not pretense or made up, but sincere from his heart.