Infinite Wound
losing my dear grandmother

since then mas Krishna really changed.he was so attentive and gave his affection for me.I would not have heard again the woman called my husband.well secretly - hide let alone bright light.alhamdulilah mas Krishna right - no longer true has changed my mind.

after a month of working with Rokhim kang finally mas Krishna received a wage from his work so far.Until at home he handed the envelope that was still closed to me.

"we open together - together later you also take some to buy gasoline and cigarettes" I said.I do not want to be a selfish wife.took all the salary of the husband while he also needs gasoline and cigarettes.

"no papa deck ? " tanya asked me

"yes it should be so mas.masak if you want to buy gasoline or cigarettes should ask me first if pas no friend.lha if there is a friend of your friend will be embarrassed.as if I do not appreciate you as a husband "I said explain.

"iy.makasih ya dear" said mas Krishna

"dek, there's something I want to tell you again "say kas Krisna again

"what is mas ? "

" i want to be invited by Kang Rokhim to paint the house and also make a kitchen table in his house Adek people I work yesterday" he said

" yah Alhamdulillah mas if that.kalo you really want to take the job take aja mas "my words give encouragement

" but his sister's house was in Jakarta "he said again a little doubtful

"o..how long do you think - think "askaku lirih.I am so confused should feel happy or sad.on one hand mas Krishna will get another job but on the other hand I have to accept if we have to be far apart for a while

"at least two weeks of dek.gimana ?"

ask Krishna again

" I'm anyway up to you aja.toh just Two weeks.after that you can go home again.so if you want to take the job yes take aja not papa.but you should ask first the parents yes.gakbenak if we make a decision myself "i answered trying to find the best way.

" yes I will talk to the same father mother "sayapnya again

"when do you plan to leave? "

"maybe next week deck "

I haven't had time to talk again we were surprised by the voice of the phone coming from hp ku.tumben there are phone to hp ku.paling people home.but there is what tumben afternoon - afternoon gini my inner phone

"assalamu'alaikum bu.ada what tumben telfon clock this "my words directly nyerocos when I pick up the phone

" race, sorry if mom interrupts afternoon - afternoon gini.ada who want to talk about race "heard mother's voice across the phone hoarse like holding back crying like anxious

" what is it, ma'am ?" my question is to be anxious to hear my mother's tone

"this is race, man, your grandmother is sick.according to the doctor there is a hole in her intestine.and to undergo surgery is not possible because the age of the grandmother is too advanced.doctors say the possibility of your grandmother's age is only a few days away race.so if you can go home to Surabaya yes.see grandma before.."Mommy's words stopped because her crying broke now.

I who listen can not say anything.My tongue kelu.can never imagine grandmother will be sick until like that.even I have not been able to make Grandma happy.

"i'll go home Mom "I answered shortly I close the phone from mom because my chest is too tight.I can no longer hold back my crying.

mas Krishna panicked when he knew I was crying as much as he shook my body because there was no answer from my mouth

" race, please tell me what's going on. Tell me dear "say mas Krishna is still anxious to see my situation.

"grandmother is sick because her age is only a few days away said the doctor "my word after more calm.

I took a deep breath - and then told her everything I heard on the phone, including my mother's request for my return to Surabaya.

mas Krisna looks surprised also when I tell the condition of grandma.he heard my story with a sympathetic look at me

"we have to go home soon ras.tomorrow morning we take the train so fast until yes "

" but the money ?" ask me to doubt

krisna smiled in response to my question. "you forgot the envelope you just got ?"

" yes, "I said softly.

" let's go back now we say the same father and mother if we want to go to Surabaya "

"loh Kris, Saras why, sick ?"asked my mother directly approached me when I knew I was led by mas Krishna

" not Miss Saras again sad, "answered Krishna while sitting me on the chair

"what is race ?" ask me softly

" Mommy, I want to ask permission to go back to Surabaya ?" I'm a little doubtful

"maybe ras.but tell mom first what's up to having to come home suddenly like this?" tanyanya still does not understand

" this is the mother.grandmother was sick and we were asked to go home.because like her grandmother's condition was a bit severe" mas Krishna explained

at once I was a little more crying over my grandmother again, while mas Krishna explained all about the condition of grandma according to what I heard on the phone earlier.

including the intention of Krisna mas who want to go to Surabaya by train tomorrow morning

"kalo as soon as you ask for help your brother kris.friend Wanto will work there so let's buy his ticket first rather than you ngantri" my father-in-law gave a solution

" no need sir, I order through an online application just "answer mas Krisna

" yes, that's how it is "

the next day we rushed to the station to go home to surabaya.we did not wait how long the train had been willing to walk.In the train I still could not hide my sadness.imagine the grandmother who had been joking and the fight must lie helpless to endure the pain

mas Krishna who noticed me earlier rubbed my back gently.he brought my head into his chest.

"sleep first until surabay station I wake up "the love

my eyes are really tired because last night I could not sleep well because thinking about the fate of grandma.Unconsciously my eyes closed in the arms of Krishna.

I don't know how long I slept the sound of Krishna waking me up gently made me wake up. And it's true we've come to it.

arriving outside the station we ordered a taxi.but we just sat down and said our destination address, my phone reads.

"assalamu'alaikum mbak.aku already in Surabaya koq.ini take a taxi to the house "my answer immediately nyerocos

"ras.." said Mbak Yuli hesitated.

"what's wrong ?"I was worried and suddenly I felt bad

"grandmother is dead race " replied Yuli as she sobbed.

my heart is broken.I can't say anything.only tears that burst out.for a long time - my eyes blurred.

when I realized I was already in a room that I knew very well.it turns out I was already at home.in my own room.when I wanted to rise from my sleep krisna's hand prevented me

" don't immediately wake up.you are still dizzy for sure.calm down first yes.after that we just came out to see the body of grandma for the last time "

instantly I just remembered what I heard last time.when I ran out to the living room.there the body of grandma was finished in the cafeteria ready to be put in a coffin.

my feet immediately limp helpless.almost I dimbung again.lucky there is my father who catches.

"patient race.forgive your grandmother if something is wrong" said mr. lirih

my crush echoed in the living room as if it still did not accept the departure of my grandmother.I still miss my grandmother.I have not had time to make her happy.

mom touched my shoulder gently.then hugged me tightly.while rubbing my back.from behind I felt that Yuli also hugged me

"let grandma yes ras.biar immediately in kebumikan.kasian.." said mother while taking off the hug followed by mbak yuli.I just nodded resignedly.

"race, I went to the tomb first yes.you are strong here.don't faint again kasian mother" said mas Krishna say goodbye

"kalo still tired do not need to follow papa Kris" said mother

"no papa ma'am.the last honor "answered mas Krisna.ibu and I nodded together.

in my heart I pray.may the most beautiful place for you, Grandma.