Infinite Wound
family reaction
after work I immediately rushed to my brother's house whose house is not far from my workplace.Aik angkot may only be 5 minutes if not jammed."assalamu'alaikum.yu, sleep? by this afternoon." I called my sister-in-law .I was closer to my sister-in-law than my own sister besides her fellow sister brother had a super hard character.I don't think it's solving problems and making runyam later."what the hell bothers people." he replied even though I knew it wouldn't really.
"take hauuus" I try to whine as usual.who knows later he can love a solution to my problem.again I have to take a breath first to tell the toughest thing in life."take it yourself.there is a mother behind."answer it. not to mention I answered the mother has come with a cup of coffee."nih, it just so happened that the mother just made coffee.you drink it first.later to make it again." answered my mother with a sweet smile, why every time I see my brother's in-laws I feel like I'm dealing with my own mother.
after the mother went inside with a serious and unceasing stare I immediately asked."mbak, kalo late 1.5 months at the love of medicine what ya .mas krisna want it like that." I can't help but hold my sadness and fear again at this time.
"you're crazy y ras.are you sure you're pregnant?"ask Mbak Endang full of search.
"it's tested anyway and the result is positive." I replied while holding back tears.
"yes, I have told you the responsibility why you should be killed.later your life can be in danger you know." asked Mbak Endang began to worry about my decision.
"the problem is that Krishna wanted to break up with me." I couldn't hold back the tears from falling.trying hard but I was also fragile when I realized the end of this relationship.
"let's just test it again first aja.lanti mas you I tell you."Mama began to provide solutions
"don't mbak later if mas Krisna in gebuki mas Mardi how."tanyaku began to panic.I don't want later on blamed mas Krisna for complaining to my brother.
"You are the koq wants to be fooled by a man.later let me say the same mas you let's not use violence.later let me tell you slowly."the answer seemed annoyed to me because trying to defend mas krisna.but my mind became unsettled.along the trip to the pharmacy to buy a pact test my heart was very chaotic.later what to answer when mas Mardi asked.yes I tell me if Krishna asked to break up because he knew I was pregnant ?can increase the length of his business.not mas Krishna kemvali to me will even be further from me later.then what about my love?
"nih, don't be bengong aja we go straight home later in the test.then let me say the same masmu.biar masmu who said the same father." said Mbak Endang firmly
hearing that I instantly panicked the image of my ailing mother flashed instantly in my mind.
"do not mbak later if you know how.ibu can not be much mind mbak.kalo so he decreased how?"I replied while holding down Isak crying.kalo this is not a highway, of course I cry hysterically and ask mbak emdang not to tell father.
"that's the business of the father.lagian this must be completed by parents.so Krishna it's not as good as asking to break up.lanti his trial at my house just let mother not know." he said.
this time I can not argue anymore because my mind is also deadlocked.I already feel very tired.tired heart tired mind is also tired physically due to nausea continues.
after arriving at home we both rushed into the bathroom and did a test as requested by Mbak Endang earlier.mas Mardi who just came home from trading can only stare confused by the behavior of the two of us.
after the results have been read me and Mbak Endang out the bathroom with a tense face also nervous extraordinary.I squeezed the hand mbak Endang for fear of the gaze of mas Mardi who investigated with both of us.
"why the hell are you guys going to the bathroom just the two of you keep coming out face in the bend so.weird."my brother was never willing to be serious in saying but once there was an emotional problem he immediately rose drastically like a thug ready to pounce on the opponent.
"mas, here I want to say something bold."it's a little spoiled manjain.but because of nervousness even sounds strange in my ears.
"what the hell is buk?"said Mas Mardi who kissed something was wrong with the arrival of me to this house.
"this...."mbak Endang did not continue his sentence just thrust the results of the tespact earlier.
"who's this, do you open it?Fitri's gonna have Adek dong?"tanyanya was still suspicious.
"not having Saras" he replied softly.
I had not dared to look Mardi in the eyes and could only look down because I was afraid of him.
"hah.."he wanted to escape when I saw him getting down.
"race, do you know it's a sin and it's until you get pregnant?how the hell.kamu free dong often njai used to often pray if your behavior is depraved gini."his breathing until gasping for emotion.I become increasingly unable to grudge and do not know how to answer.
"it's not a problem now mas."continue mbak endang.
"what's the problem with mom?"mas Mardi scrunched his forehead
"not Krisna even asked to break up."mbak Endang really represent me to talk everything.because from then on I just kept quiet and did not dare to answer a single question mas Mardi.
"what the hell?"mas Mardi's hands clenched
"mas, please don't beat y. I ask you please say it's good to want to marry me so.but don't beat.I'm afraid mas."finally I began to biacra while sobbing.between fear of losing mas Krisna is also afraid of the emotions mas Mardi at this time that I see his eyes until red light.
"okay.ajak she met at the mall end of the road.later I call the father to come alone aja.gak need to be the same as jiar I did not think."mas Mardi has made a decision and I have not dared to fight.
I took a phone call to contact Krisna mas and make a deal at the place where Mardi was planned earlier.while in the mas room Mardi also called my father and told me my problem while mother was asked not to come.and do not let know first.
finally he agreed and immediately rushed to the masrdi house alone while I picked up Christmas at the mall end of the road .
