Hijrahku From Dating
part 5's

Day after day I went with Bim full of joy and affection. He is so loving. How not, he always gives me anything every Sunday. Pay me to play and buy me food. I thought he was my soul mate. Not felt, our relationship has been 4 months.

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My phone rang, a call sign came in. Yes, after studying at 20:30 WIB, Bim always called me until 21:00 WIB. But the conversation that night was shorter than usual.

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"Assalaamu'alaikum, Dek," greetings Kak Bim across there.

Tumben Kak Bim did not call me "honey" as usual.

"Wa'alaikumussalaam, brother," I replied.

"Darling, are you done learning?" tanyakanya. The call, it's back.

"Udah, Brother."

Brother Bim let out a long breath.

"Honey, mmm 2 months away 'will be the End of Semester. And that also determines graduation. So, I want to study seriously. For a while, may we not get as close as usual? I mean, we keep communication with SMS. But, to accompany you to the cafeteria and drive you home, it seems like Big Brother cannot. It's nothing, it's just..Sister wants to go to Perpus more often and our home hours are different because there are tutoring. Maybe, a Sunday date, Brother can still. I hope you understand yes, dear," said Bim.

"mmm.. Yes Brother. Annisa also wants to take studying more seriously," I replied briefly.

"Yes Dek, I want to continue learning first. You go to sleep soon. I love you" said Brother Bim who suddenly hung up.

"Yes Brother. Annisa is also dear to Bim," I said.

"Assalaamu'alaikum Deck."

"Wa'alaikumussalaam."

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Why is Brother being this weird???

And sure enough, Brother Bim was always seen at Perpus as I walked to the Canteen. Me, so feeling lonely. No more calls every night. I'm like dating with writing. How not? Communication is only limited to SMS. I always see you on Sundays. However, the conversation was crisp like never before. I was also no longer treated to two meals. The event lasted for 2 weeks which finally made me sultry. So, I rarely SMS him. I refused to go on a date on the third Sunday.

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"Uncle, I'd like to calm down first to the city park. Please, no spies, Uncle. Brother Bim has rarely met koq with me," I said that morning, asking for permission.

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Around the city park, I just walked slowly. My heart rages. The people I love never look at me. My assumption was wrong, who was too sure of him. Maybe I'm not his soul mate. My heart's sliced. I remembered a sentence in the book Islamic Motivation, "Why is it that making love before marriage only hurts?"

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Suddenly, I saw a figure I knew very well, sitting in the garden where I was made. Brother Bim? Didn't he say he wanted to study at home?

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"Sister Bim? Why is Brother Bim here? He said he wanted to learn.. Brother lied, huh?" many wonder.

"I'm sorry, Dek," he said, looking down embarrassed.

"Either, Deck. Brother feels, we are not a soul mate. We're just like we used to be, so friends?" it was her asking that made me tear up.

"I mean Brother?" my voice is raucous.

"I don't know, I don't know why it just goes away."

"It's easy for Bim to say that? When I've tried my hardest to keep my loyalty?" I ask with a raging heart.

"Sister is also loyal, Dek. There were no other women all this time. However, you know for yourself. It can't be forced, '" he replied.

"Sister don't remember the struggle Brother Bim shot me?" my question with the hijab is wet because of tears.

Brother Bim just shut up. I can't stand this pain anymore. And...

*plaaak!

..."If the first slap is to accept Brother. This slap is to end our relationship. Forgive all my mistakes. We're PUTUUUS!!!" I decided, with a furious expression....

"Good, Deck. I accept your decision. I also apologize for all my mistakes. Forgive me for not being able to make you happy" he replied.

For the last time, Brother Bim drove me home.

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My heart is broken.****my meal is lost. My face is always moody. Sad and confused.

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Daytime at school.

"You gotta move on, Nis. The spirit!" support Meli who hugged me. I'm still quiet.

"Aren't you in the cafeteria?" tanyakanya.

"Males meets Brother Bim. I brought you a bag," I replied.

"The break is 2 hours, Nis. There was a sudden teacher meeting. Do you want to sit for 2 hours?" tanyanya.

"There's still a lot of practice I haven't done, Mel" I replied.

"You're the weirdest woman I've ever met. If it's upset cake music, gather with a cake friend. Well, you know what about!"

"Well, a positive heartache channel! Wait, since when did you use Lu-Gue's greeting?" I said as I started eating my food.

"Since now haha, have you been!" he said while leaving.

In class, it was just me and Adam.

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Seriate.