Hijrahku From Dating
part 46's

The next day, I went to college as usual. Even though my eyes were all full of crying all night. I heard Roy's voice in the parking lot.

"Lo tega, Kit! Betraying Annisa's love! You think Annisa's a girl what?" roy's voice sounded furious.

I approached the parking lot, peeking at what was going on. Looks Roy is pulling the collar Rise shirt with his left hand & Rise can only resignedly accept the anger Roy.

"Annisa's the special girl I've met! He's good, help Vina & Vina's family. He tried hard to carry out the mandate of parents to jeblosin Papa Dara to prison. I've never met a girl as good as Annisa! I love Annisa. I don't have any heart in him! I don't care if you're dating Diana! For me, Diana is nothing compared to Annisa! I love Annisa, but I realize Annisa belongs to you! I'm as hard as I can get at Annisa's heart, but Annisa's always your defense! You got Annisa's heart, and you wasted her? I'm disappointed, Kit. I'm a jerk, but my assholes, I've never had a girl! What losers!"

Roy's words made me shed tears. Is that Roy's love? Why did I just realize?

I'm approaching Roy. My presence was not realized by Roy, nor Rise. I wiped my tears.

Roy clenched his right hand, about to hit Rise. I caught Roy's hand quickly.

"Annisa, since when is here?" roy was surprised. He lowered his hand and took off the collar of the Rise shirt.

Rise looking at me, then look down lethargic.

"We're educated people, Roy. It is not appropriate to be anarchist. Let the past be the past. I don't have any more business with this hypocritical guy. You don't have to do this, Roy. Now, come with me to class," I said.

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Then, Roy and I walked towards the class leaving Rise.

"I wanted to ask you about yesterday" I said, starting the conversation.

"Ask what?" ask Roy.

"Your first look did you wake up with Diana in the garden?"

"Yes. Yesterday I was invited to play with Dimas, use his car Dimas. Trrus I'm the same Awakened Look as Diana. Trus Dimas came home, telling you at Vina's house. Because Dimas knows you're at Vina's house again. I'm waiting at the gate for their spies to leave the park before you see them both" Roy replied.

"Ooh gtu's. Thanks, yes" I said.

Not sure, we arrived at class. It's still so quiet. I sit on my stool. Roy passed my stool, because the stool was behind itself. I held his hand, as he passed me.

"Roy," call me.

Roy stopped and stood by my desk.

"What did I hear in the parking lot? Mmm about how you feel about me?" I was nervous, letting go of my hand.

"Honestly, Nis. From the first time we met, I went into this class, I've been in love sm km" replied Roy.

"But at that time, I realized. We have our own girlfriends. So yes it's not possible, I cheated on Diana," Roy said again.

I'm stunned.

"Seriously? Honestly, I did the same thing back then. But, just like you, I knew my position at that time," I said courageously.

"O yeah? Hm, that's why at that time, I only dared to push for office. I just love you in silence" said Roy.

Then, we laughed. Laughing at the ridiculousness we just realized.

"Why did I just find out? I thought, my race to you was just clapping one hand" I said.

"No, Nis. I also know that. Just haven't got the right timing yet" Roy said.

"Roy, but sorry. For now I am." I said.

"Yes, I know. You have to calm down especially dhulu & ga want to make me an outlet. That's what you want to say?" guess Roy, as if he knew what was in my brain.

I just nodded slowly.

"Yes already. I'm not going to maksa. All you have to know is that I'm waiting for you faithfully" said Roy.

I just smiled stiffly. Roy stepped onto his bench. Shortly after, Vina & my classmates came. I was busy thinking about my feelings. Between sad and happy. Very difficult feeling to quantify. Why do we know each other now? I really didn't expect Roy to be able to have the same feeling as me that fast. There's a little regret. But, I don't think it's too late. Ah, I don't know.

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"Do you have to feel that important as your ego. We begin because of love, let love end.

You have a choice between me and him. So complicated is the world just for a taste".

Agnes Mo's song titled "A Flavor" I always play via HP. For a week, I played that song at every turn. In class, in the cafeteria, in the boarding room, when I was alone. Remembering the Rise I once had. Every second together with the Resurrection is still firmly attached in memory. Tears that always flow every remember everything. Regret the reality that has happened. Honestly, I still expect to rise. Want me to collect on his promise, realize a beautiful dream in the bond of marriage. Yet.... Ah, nevermind!

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Seriate.