Hijrahku From Dating
part 23

Alhamdulillaah, today is my return from the hospital. I packed all my things into my suitcase with joy. We cleaned up the garbage scattered in the room, cleaned up the stuff, then went to go home.

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When we got to the car park.

"Auntie.." call me, hug Aunt.

"Yes, son," replied Auntie stroking my head.

"Thank you very much for all that Uncle & Aunt gave me. Annisa apologizes for all the wrongs Annisa made to Uncle & Aunt. Annisa doesn't know how to repay all of Uncle & Aunt's kindness to me" I said with tears in my eyes.

Aunt took off my arms and wiped my tears. Aunt's eyes were also glazed.

"Auntie already thinks of you like his own child. So, all your mistakes have been forgiven. Forgive all your mistakes, too, huh. No need for a reply, Annisa. What matters is that you are healthy soon. Do not stress much and do heavy work. Later, the inflammation of your stomach relapses again," said Auntie, then smiled gently.

I nodded, then kissed Aunt's hand. I stepped towards Uncle, then kissed his hand for a very long time.

"Uncle, please forgive Annisa's mistake with Uncle. Annisa also does not know how to repay all Uncle's kindness," I said in tears.

"Annisa's mistake is Uncle's pardon. Uncle also apologized if in educating, Uncle was wrong. Annisa doesn't have to retaliate, yes. Simply by staying high achievers in college and keep praying 5 times. Good luck and good luck, son," said Uncle, sad. I nodded and let go of his handshake.

"Assalaamu'alaikum," my regards.

"Wa'alaikumussalaam warahmatullaah" they answered simultaneously.

Papa shook Uncle's hand. Mama & Aunty hugged each other for a while and then made fun of it. I wiped my tears. Then, me and Papa Mama stepped into Papa's car.

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In the car, I played a song that excited me. I have to move on and not be sad. After all, my health is important too.

"What has passed let it be, no need to regret don't you cry. If your hope and happiness are not felt, listen and feel. Birds chirping, the singing of nature, how boisterous how sweet. Take a look & ponder, the sky the color line the ocean, how beautiful. Believe me, you are in the protection of the love of the Most All..."

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The song titled Suggestions Hati was so encouraging my trip back to Bandung.

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"Please son" replied Papa.

"Annisa wants to know, how long was Annisa unconscious post-surgery?" my many.

Papa just shut up while continuing to focus on driving. Mama took a long breath.

"Please Pa, answer. Mama, why shut up?" my door.

"You... You are unconscious after X ray examination for 2 days. After the operation is done.. You were unconscious during.." Mama explained, still hanging.

I looked back, seeing Mama who was silent did not continue her words.

"How many days, Ma?" manya curious.

"You were unconscious for 4 months, baby. We are worried and always pray for your recovery for that long. Mama and Aunt are willing to take a leave of absence for you. Being scolded by our superiors, let it be our risk. Papa and Uncle went back and forth from home for 4 months. Accept God's test with grace, baby." said Mama began to shed tears. He could not continue his words.

My eyes glazed.

"I mean Mama... Annisa's been in a coma for 4 months?" many ensure.

Mama just nodded. I turned my body forward, then turned to the side window. I wiped my tears because I didn't want to make my parents sad. Trying to hide my sadness. Although my eyes were fixed on the shops on the side of the road, but my mind did not focus on the shops because it thought about what Mama said earlier.

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Asterghfirullaahis... So, my death from Adam's death impacted my body? Why is this Allaah? I was in a coma for 4 months? Is that how much I love Adam? Means during those 4 months, I didn't do 5 prayers? Yes, I know that the person who forgets or is in a state of sleep or his soul is unconscious, is raised the questioner. Not written as a sin. But, I feel guilty. Forgive this sinful servant, Lord. I can't keep going like this. I have to move on from Adam! I must realize, he's no more! I can't possibly have it! I am sure God has prepared the best soul mate for me. And my soul mate is not Adam. Bismilla. I have to move on!

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I don't feel like I've reached my front door. I was so busy thinking about Adam. I removed my daydreams by shaking my head and flickering. I wiped my tears and immediately got out of the car. I took my suitcase which was quite heavy. When I got to the front of the house, which I did not see for 4 months, a smile spread on my cheek. Hi new sheet! I came to excel & become the toughest Annisa I used to be! Bismilla.

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