Choosing to Let Go
episode 33

"Yuk's home!" bring Keyndra.

I raised my head, seeing Keyndra standing next to me sitting with focus on looking at me who was cleaning the stationery with a smile. I looked around and found that many of my friends had gone home.

"You go home first, I'll take the angkot. I haven't ridden in a long time," I refused, smiling at him. Keyndra looked straight at me. It still hurts my heart because of the closeness between her and Sandra. And this is the first time I've refused to go home with that guy.

I got up from my seat, "I'm first, Key!" pamittu.

Keyndra did not answer, but she kept looking at me. I stepped out of the classroom, and I could feel Keyndra following in my footsteps from behind. After I left class, she blocked my hand.

"Why you?" ask her with a straight look at me.

"I was wrong? you're weird from earlier?" ask again.

I reflexively shook my head, I don't know who was wrong between us. But for now my heart is in trouble.

"Yes, if it's going home with me," he broke up. Then Keyndra began to walk.

I walked behind him, with one hand in his hand. I watched her from behind, I was still reluctant to go home with her. I need time to myself, I want to calm my heart first, relieve the tightness that never goes away. I wanted to get angry, wanted to scream out loud in front of her face, and say I was jealous, but I couldn't. Please Key, don't worry me.

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Yesterday I finally went home with Keyndra, I really couldn't resist. Even he didn't go home right away, the guy took the time to play games with my sisters. After almost magrib he just say goodbye to go home. I try to act like I always do, like there's nothing.

"Bun, Dad, Cicha left first yes," I said to my mother and father who were chatting at the dinner table.

"Have you picked up?" ask mother.

"Udah Bun, he's waiting in front," I said. It's true that Keyndra is ahead. I don't know why he didn't go in first to just say goodbye to my parents as usual, just let me know through a message. And here he is, he brought a car today.

"Assalamualaikum mother, father!" after crucifying my parents' hands and receiving pocket money from my father, I hurried over to Keyndra who was waiting in front of the house.

My big smile when I came out of the house suddenly shrunk as soon as I got next to the Keyndra car. My vision at that time also met with Sandra who had just lowered the glass of the Keyndra car.

"Hi, Cicha," said Sandra with a big smile that the girl had.

"Hello, Sandra," I smiled back at him.

"Come on!" ask Keyndra.

"Yes" I said, then I got into Keyndra's car.

"Don't you Ay if Sandra leaves with us? She called Mulu to pick her up, until mom called too. How can I refuse if I've been the queen who told me," said Keyndra while looking at me who was sitting on the back bench, because Sandra was sitting on the front bench, next to Keyndra.

"My house is the same Cicha in the same direction, right? isn't it Cha?" sandra asked to look at me.

"No pa-pa," I replied trying to be as habitual and relaxed as possible.

"Tuh denger Key, Cicha aja not pa-pa, Lo nya aja fuss from earlier," said Sandra again facing forward.

"I'm sorry!" Keyndra said the word without a sound.

I just nodded, probably because Keyndra felt bad for me. The guy then faces forward.

After that, Keyndra's car moved out of my yard.

"Key, where's my bekel that mama signed?" ask Sandra to Keyndra.

Keyndra turned to him, "In the bag," replied Keyndra.

"Kirain Lo feed the cat on the road earlier," said Sandra who unhesitatingly opened the Keyndra bag. Keyndra doesn't mind what Sandra's doing.

"The basis of the defamationist is Lo yes," said Keyndra while terrorizing the head of Keyndra, then the two laughed together.

"Eh Cha, have you been invited to the Keyndra house?" sandra asked me again.

I haven't been able to answer yet, Sandra spoke again. "Have you not been the same mom as Keyndra's dad? Have you ever tried Keyndra's mother's cooking? If I every day always made bekel with his mother Key. Very nice cooking for my mom. I really like it." He said with spirit.

Is this Sandra showing off? He also called his mother to his mother Keyndra. It seems like their relationship is really familiar.

"Cicha's been home a lot" Keyndra said.

"Cicha also often cook with mama, not like Lo who can only eat doang. So automatically Cicha also already know the taste of my mama's cooking." It was clearly Keyndra who remained focused looking ahead.

"Enak just eat, do not use complicated," said Sandra and Keyndra flicked the girl's forehead.

"So you've deket dong same mama? mama must be very cool to have a cooking theme, feel have a daughter like her dream all this time." Sandra.

"Mama's good, right Cha? the food is good too, right?" ask Sandra again. This girl is really cheerful, seems to be chatty too.

"Mama is good, the cooking is good too" I replied honestly, because that's how I feel.

"Well, do you want me to make you bekel mama too?" ask Keyndra.

"That's okay," I refused quickly.

"Don't be ashamed Cha, you must be happy, too" said Sandra.

"No, I have to bring my own bekel every day from home" I refused again.

After that there were no more words I said, only the two of them were still talking. I was like a mosquito repellent watching those two people.

I can't stand watching all this. I want to get out of this car quickly. In order to avoid my heart getting more and more pain that was not strong to hear their familiar chatter, I decided to shut up and turn my attention to the sight I was passing from the windshield of the car. I lowered the glass, felt the morning wind touch the surface of my skin. At least it'll calm me down for a moment.

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