Choosing to Let Go
.episode 12's

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Cicha was busy helping her mother serve visitors. Today is Sunday, the restaurant owned by the mother must be a visitor. From the young to the old. Moreover, the restaurant just started to open again yesterday, after a few days closed.

Time still shows at 16:00 WIB. Cicha and her mother had cleaned up the place, tidying up the tables and chairs. They were getting ready to close the simple restaurant.

"Ahhh... finally finished too, Alhamdulillah ya Bun today rame, so can close earlier than usual." Said Cicha while laying down his body on the sofa, squashing his legs that felt very tired.

"Yes Alhamdulillah Cha ."

"Bun, where are you?" cicha asked in a daze looking for the two figures of his sister, who from earlier was completely invisible Stem of his nose.

"Both of you said your mother wanted to play futsal he said." Answer the Mother who looks busy in the kitchen.

"Hmmm, Bun if there's no need for Cicha to help, Cicha up first yes, want to take a bath, it's very hot body Cicha."

"It's over, Cha, yes, you took a shower first, rest. School tomorrow, right?"

Cicha simply responded to her mother by nodding her head, smiling happily, hearing the word school. Walking left the mother, up the stairs next to the shophouse to the roof top of the shophouse, where the room is located.

Cicha misses her school a lot. Can't wait for tomorrow, where he can meet his friends, his teachers, spend time with his three best friends.

Cicha had finished bathing, his face was fresher than before. Sitting on his bed, checking his cellphone that he had left. See if there is a message or call coming in.But there is absolutely no message or call coming in his phone.

Then Cicha opened the YouTube app on his phone.

While browsing through some of Chanel's YouTube, the choice fell on a musical poem.

Hmmmm.. I guess this poem describes the contents of my heart dech, the title is already making a baper, let alone the contents.

He murmured in his heart. Then lay his body on his medium-sized bed.

Put her HP next to her tiny body. Close your eyes, trying to live out every word in the poem.

I know, I'm in love. Not yourself.

I understand, I have feelings for you first.

I am the one who is silent watching you who you never realize (or maybe you are conscious but pretend unconscious).

I steal your attention often.

I just wanted to do something for you to take a glance at.

I just want you to know there are people with all their heart want you to look at.

Although to be honest, by standing next to you, without you ever knowing, my feelings were already happy.

I just want to put a miss on your chest.

Not to force me to have it.

I just want to lay hope in your arms.

Not to force you to make it happen.

I just want to love you, without ever forcing you to return to repay my love.

I just want to do things that don't make my heart regret later if I don't.

Later if my do'a-do'a never granted God to be with you.

I will never regret having said it in my cold mornings.

In my cold nights.

In longing - a lonely longing without ever feeling a sure hug.

Because just loving you is special.

Loving you alone is something that can never be bought with anything.

Because only I can love you like this.

By loving you I am happy.

Moreover, it can have and unite hearts with you.

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"Assalamualaikum Auntie !"

"Wa'alaikum hail.ehh there is Erika, Niken the same Marina !"

Yes. the three friends of Cicha who came to give greetings.Indeed as long as Cicha has not entered school, as much as possible they come to Cicha's house, to let go of longing.Or just repeat the lesson at school, as long as they can, so that the friend does not miss too many lessons.

"Come in !"

" Thank Aunt.... Cicha's upstairs, isn't Tan?"

"Yes..maybe now rest, tired of helping Aunt."

"It's not pa-pa if we go up?"erika asks Cicha's mother, they are afraid that if it interferes with Cicha's rest, especially Cicha is still recovering.

"Well, Cicha must be happy to see you guys coming." replied Cicha's mother, understanding the contents of the girls' hearts.

"Oh yes...Tan here we bring a snack for Rangga Bisma (the two sisters of Cicha)."Marina puts the martabak wrap on the table before leaving Cicha's mother.

"Make Aunt too, if Auntie wants to. Hhhhh," he said again .

After arriving in front of Cicha's camera, they immediately entered without knocking on the door or excuse the owner of the room. Yes, because it is common for them.

Looking at Cicha who was lying on the bed, closed her eyes, but a voice came from Cicha's HP, making them walk quietly towards the girl.

"Sutt's..." Erika gestured for the others to not make a sound.

Without realizing Cicha, the three of them were sitting on the mattress as well.Ikut listened to what was being listened to by his best friend.

They just shake their heads.

Ccckk.they were upset to know what they had heard from Cicha.

"A hobby to make yourself hurt? Why do I have to listen to what I think so? nothing else can make the heart happy?" chirps Niken who at that time also managed to surprise Cicha.

"You guys.kangen know," Cicha immediately hugged his three best friends.

"No need to bother when asked, like how many months have not met." Said Erika who was staring irritatedly at Cicha.

"Not for months, it's only been a day. Hhhh." Cicha slightly strewed a smile on her face.

"Tuch's eyes must be crying again, right?"search Niken

Cicha just kept quiet.sambut wiping the remaining tears that still felt wet on her cheeks.

Yes, indeed from the first listening to the musicalization of the poem he had shed tears, animating every word in the poem.

"There is no certainty, still hung also the same Key?" ~Niken-fr.

"I myself confused the same clarity of our relationship. From the hospital, I really felt his attention, his attitude was not like it used to be, now it was very warm. She has already revealed all her heart, I feel sincerity from her. Last night he was here too, passing through the night like a lover. But indeed he has not given clarity to take where this relationship is. Let time answer, perhaps he is not sure of his own feelings."~Cicha

"I'm confused by the way you two thought. It's up to you." Erika said, taking a book out of her bag.

"Ni..you better learn, that was yesterday's lesson."Erika throws a book into Cicha's lap.

"Not thinking that makes the heart hurt more. Think of something that can make us. Life is already complicated, do not need to be made more complicated with things that are not important."Erika said still in an annoyed tone.

"You don't have to discuss unimportant issues. We were here with the intention to have fun ." Marina, who had been silent, became a good listener.

"Yes, Marina said, have fun girls!"

the four of them had been in Cicha's room for a few hours. As if they do not want to lose their moments together.

They did not want to leave that room at all. When Cicha's mother offered them a meal, they went downstairs just to grab the food and eat it in the room.

There was happiness on the faces of the four young girls. Cicha also did not put on her own face.

The day has changed night. Cicha's three best friends have gone home. Cicha was also preparing to go to sleep.

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