Bitter Tongue In-Law
37. Longs

"What's? So Lia ever had an abortion?" Ms. Ningsih showed her surprise the next day.

Lia's been operated on and now she doesn't have a uterus. Lost and extinct is already the hope of having a biological child.

Arga remained silent, not responding to his mother's shock. He did not know which reality made his life and heart into pieces. I don't know the fact that he has to admit that he won't have any more children if he continues to survive with Lia. Or did she feel devastated when she heard Lia had an abortion? He just got slapped by reality. He married a woman who was apparently not much better than Nuna. Even his ex-wife was much better than his current wife.

"What next? What are you gonna do? You won't have any more children if you keep Lia."

"Should you ask that now? Mom, I just lost a child and hope to have a child. Why are you asking this now? Can't you just let me breathe for a second?"

Bu Ningsih was silent. I don't know, he felt upset and a little disappointed to hear Lia who miscarried with her uterus removed, plus the abortion ever done by her daughter-in-law made him look at Lia one eye. The admiration at the top of his head seemed to slowly shrink.

Day after day continues to pass, it does not feel like two years have Arga and Lia become a husband and wife without the hope of having a child. There is also no intention for Arga to separate the second time with the woman who now bears the status of the wife. I don't know, he himself was tired of his life and finally chose to resign.

Had crossed and expressed want to adopt a child, but very wife who is not ready and like being hit with her condition makes Arga stop following up his wishes.

At a time like this, Arga suddenly misses the child brought by his ex-wife. Two years passed making him imagine his son must be running around with his mother.

Long thought of her son made Arga fondle his cell phone and was eager to contact Nuna. However, on the other hand he is also hesitant and afraid if the disappointment he gets. He was worried that rejection was the first thing he received even though he just wanted to meet his son.

Did I go straight to her house, huh? I think it's okay if I see my own son from afar. I still don't have the guts to meet in person.

Getting a brilliant enough idea to treat a passionate longing makes Arga does not want to waste time. He soon leaves home on an iron horse full of memories with Nuna.

Arga's lips were full of smiles all the way. He hopes to see his son even though he is far away. It's okay even if he can't touch his skin, it doesn't matter that he can't use his voice just to say hello. To him just looking at it seems to be happy.

The Arga motorbike stopped not far from the house that Nuna used to live in. He narrowed his eyes and sharpened his vision to see the child.

Arga was still loyal there until it spent tens of minutes. I don't know how many minutes he spent just sitting on a motorcycle while the view that can not be separated from the actual house the door is open, but there is no one who wanders out of the house.

"The house was empty for a long time. That's the door open like he's got another house to clean because his house sells."

"There used to be nquatin, right? Two women with one newborn. Maybe you know where it's going, or you know where they're moving." Arga tried to act calm despite being so surprised.

"Oh it's not long to live here, not until two months have moved, but I also do not know where to move."

Fall is Arga's heart. The smile that had adorned the lips instantly vanished. Not wanting his efforts to be in vain, he ventured to contact Nuna. It's been two years since Nuna's number has been untouched by her. He did not know whether the number he had was still active or not. He just wanted to call because there was no other way or choice.

The breath of relief suddenly Arga let out when she heard the continuous tone across there. Not long after, Nuna's voice was heard in Arga's ear.

"Yes hello" said Nuna.

For a moment Arga was silent, he seemed to be gathering words to become a sentence worthy to be uttered to his ex-wife.

"Hello Nuna, it's me Arga. I'd like to talk to you for a second, am I interrupting your time?"

"Speak."

"I just want to know where you live now? Can I see my son for a minute? If you don't allow me to see him, let me see from afar."

"My child? I didn't hear wrong, did I? The child I am with is not your son. He's my son. What was the storm until you suddenly called me? Something happened to your wife? Ish it's none of my business. I'll never let you meet my son."

"But I'm his father."

"You are his father, I cannot change the flesh and blood that flows in his body. Without you even telling me I know. Looks like you have to remember what you did and what you gave me when my son was still in my stomach. Remember that every time you want to see him. If you remember, I'm sure you'd be ashamed to do this."

The phone was cut off after that. Arga was really not given the opportunity to talk and express his desire longer. He already knew it would not be easy to meet Nuna let alone her son. He also realized that his mistake was too great to forgive. But at least giving him a chance to make amends by occasionally meeting or giving him a living is not a mistake.