Bitter Tongue In-Law
36. Lost Both Times

It has been a few months Bian returned to his former self. Easy to get angry, cold, and a little stiff. Only in certain people he was friendly and full of smiles.

Honestly, the change in his life is quite sudden according to him, making Bian's soul like something empty. A month more intensely close to Nuna and Cashel apparently brought his own impact to him when he lived suddenly like this. Although he still exchanged news with Nuna, it felt dissatisfied and there were still less.

Bian hasn't felt this way in a long time. Since the last time he was married by his girlfriend five years ago his world seemed to change 180° and his feelings were instantly numb after that. I don't know, for five years he's not in love with anyone at all, let alone falling in love, having a sense of wanting to be close to someone just isn't. Bian's ex-lover seems to have left a wound and pain that will not be able to disappear until death.

The man who has recently felt the emptiness of life is enjoying the moon of stars scattered in the vast expanse of the sky. He did not know if Nuna was currently doing the same thing or if she was busy with her son. Bian's small smile was just like that when he remembered his friendship with the child and the mother.

"Mas has been different lately, yes. That means Mas's back to the old days." Bianca sat down next to her sister.

"When did you ever change?"

"Then there was Nuna. Mas tuh so more sumringah, not careless, yes although sometimes his emotions like to come suddenly, but not as bad as before. I smile more, I'm not a kid anymore who can't fathom any change in you, Mom. Indirectly you do not realize that something has changed, there is a different feeling, but others around you are aware of it. One of them is me. Mas's life before Nuna's, when the woman was in Mas's life, and after she left, it was me feeling something different from Mas's self."

"Not to make it up. What do you know about Mas?"

"Mas who don't know anything about Mas himself. That's just ngak ngerti. Mending to do other things from the pasda ngelamun doang. Kayak for me." Bianca then went back in.

Bian was only throbbing to respond to his sister's taunts. But if you think about what Bianca said earlier there is a point as well. He did feel a change before and after getting to know Nuna.

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Meanwhile, a situation of tension ensues at Arga's house. He had just returned home from work and found his wife sitting on the floor near the stairs grimacing in pain. Blood just flowed down Lia's thigh.

Although not hysterical or noiseless pain, very visible on the face of the woman carrying pain in her stomach very much, it was supported by a face that was getting pale.

"Arga." Only that word had come out of Lia's mouth. He bit his lower lip several times to endure the pain he felt.

"We have arrived, you must be sure that nothing will happen to our children."

Arga screams for the nurse and deftly the health worker on duty there pushes the gurney and takes Lia to the ER. Arga and his wife were separated in the room.

Arga was not calm at all. He had no idea what was going on until Lia had heavy and heavy bleeding. His mind is now raging, the trajectory of negative things is now milling around in his mind.

Nope-no. Nothing's gonna happen. Everything will be fine. Please don't let my son do anything, God. I've lost my firstborn.

Not long after the prayer that was lifted in his heart, the door of the ER room opened from within. Without Arga asking, the male doctor explained to Lia.

"Sorry, sir. We can't save Father's fetus. Your wife's uterus has a severe infection and we must immediately remove it so as not to spread everywhere."

Stabbed by a dagger, hit by thousands of arrows, struck by lightning, and shot many times. Only a row of sentences that Arga can feel, even though the pain and shock actually can not be represented by a sentence.

Arga was still silent when the doctor explained the condition of Lia who apparently had had an abortion several times. Hearing that continued to make Arga immediately helpless and just want to die. It was in that instant that he felt his world come to a halt. What's he supposed to do? Is this God's karma? This fast coming? How does he get on with life in the face of such a heavy test?