You're Changing, Mas
Make Him Understand

In the life we live is not always in accordance with the wishes or even have to present pain that is difficult to be eliminated. One of them is the thing that can make us feel sick and very hit when our loved ones prefer others to be their life partners. In other words, the marriage of the lover is left and must sincerely let the former lover live with his choice.

There may be a variety of factors that cause a person to go away from our lives. Especially if the person is a special figure that we love, it certainly feels heavy to take it off.

Sadness, disappointment, and confusion certainly envelop our hearts when we let the person we love with others. Especially if we still keep the taste, it must be very difficult to really move on.

"Don't do what you shouldn't deserve to do, Bram. I'm already married. And please don't cross the line" I scolded Bram again after pushing him away from me.

I was upset when he almost kissed me. I don't want my lips stained by a man who's not my husband. At first I was comfortable when Bram returned to Indonesia, especially when he comforted me when my relationship was not good with Gibran mas. But it seems to have been arranged as well as possible by Bram. The more I know his hidden bad behavior, the more I can keep my distance from him.

"It's hard to leave Gibran, and then we get back together like we used to. I promise I will make you happy. Now I have everything. Only one is lacking, you are Manda. You complement my life. So, come with me abroad, yeah!" Bram again pleaded with both hands. Bram was so arrogant and confident in his words.

Slowly I took my hand off Bram. It is not true that I accept his request. Then how do I tell the truth that I rejected it? I'm afraid to offend him. Right now what Bram needs is attention with good speech. If I am wrong in saying then a debate will arise. It would even upset and annoy me.

"There comes a time when you let go of someone you love when you know he's happier with someone else, Bram!" I said in a soft voice.

Bram looked at me sharply, then he ruffled his hair. I see if Bram looks frustrated at the moment. But as much as possible I should just calm down.

"Sometimes you have to let go of someone you can't have. Though it's hard, it's the best thing for you, Bram. Believe me!"

"Sstttt..you are noisy! I told you a long time ago, after my father's company was transferred to me and everything was mine, then I would propose to you. And now I'm fulfilling, aren't I? So please, come with me yeah, pretty!" Bram is increasingly looking unstable. His eyes and facial expression, I know he's holding a temper tantrum.

"Bram, I-I'm married. Mas Gibran my husband," press me nervously. Actually I'm very afraid to say that.

HAHAHAHA

Bram laughed like a person who lost consciousness. I'm getting scared to see it.

"The jerk, Gibran. Hahaha, he messed things up. He took you from me, Manda. He's the most fucking best friend I've ever known. I'm sorry I put you in her. HE'S EVIL, ISN'T HE? GIBRAN IS EVIL, ISN'T HE?" Shouted Bram loudly while shaking my body violently.

I held Bram's hand and tried to calm him down.

"It's not like that, Bram. It's not just Gibran that's wrong. But I also included betraying you. Please open your eyes. Don't always blame one person if everything turns out to be our fault, Bram!" Deny me with the smoothest word possible.

PROK PROK PROKK

Bram clapped his hands and smiled with the sangar.

"Wow, you're defending that jerk, huh? You love her so much? I should have killed Gibran when I found out he married you back then" Bram said.

"Don't do that, Bram. Your life will not be at peace if there is still grudge in your heart. Just kill me, don't kill Gibran."

"Stop defending him, Manda. My ears hurt if you always say his name. Don't you think about my feelings a little bit, huh?" Bram glanced sharply at me.

"I'm sorry, Bram?" Instantly I bowed.

Letting our loved ones live with others is not easy. Because, it takes patience and determination when he sees he is no longer near us. It is so sad and heartbreaking.

"Receiving the reality of our separation drives me crazy, let alone seeing you now belong to someone else. I always held back from killing him" Bram said with teary red eyes.

"God put someone in your life for a reason. And if you lose it then it's for a better reason, Bram. If God doesn't allow you to be happy with me, God will be able to realize your desire to see me happy, Bram!" I gave him a little understanding.

"No need to touch me, Manda. I don't need that. But I need you," he said.

I don't care what Bram says. I'm just talking about what I'm doing is right with a soft word.

"Be aware that true love does not have to be one with each other, sometimes true love is separate but nothing changes from you. Rest assured that you can definitely get the better of me, Bram!"

"Stop talking, Manda!" Pinta Bram looks upset.

But unfortunately I can't stop talking like I've forgotten who I'm dealing with right now. I seemed to lose control to argue with Bram. Though he is a figure who must be guided in a gentle way full of understanding.

"Life must go on, Bram. Whether you like it or not, you have to give me away, Bram. No matter what you have lost, as long as you are able to give thanks to God, you will not lose anything, trust Bram!" Saying again.

"STOP TALKING, MANDA!!!" Snapped Bram with a loud cry.

I was so shocked that I was silent at once hearing Bram's scream. My heart feels like it's getting out of place. And Bram's success is making me stop talking.

"Don't teach me how to live well. I understand all that, Manda. The way to love someone who is loved is not easy. It took me a long time to face it and accept it, Manda. You understand!" Bram said by explaining long enough but not as long as I spoke before.

"But, Bram...."

"Ssttt, don't talk anymore. I was dizzy to hear your voice that always cornered me, "I asked him while using one of his index fingers in front of his mouth as a signal I should be quiet.

Bram ruffled waist took pains to adjust his breath so that it can be controlled properly. Bram began to breathe calmly. Bram seemed to think of something. He looked at the watch in his hand and then looked back at me.

"Go away" said Bram.

I was shocked to hear it because I didn't understand what he meant. I cringed in wonder.

"Go away from here before Gibran I destroy" Bram continued.

"Who-you mean?" I asked full of fear.

Then Bram opened the hotel room door, he blocked my hand and pushed me out of the room. He kicked me out rather let me go from there.

"Go see Gibran for the last time!" Press Bram who starts I understand the point.

"Bram, don't tell me you .. hiks..hiks," I immediately ran from there, looking for a taxi for me to go home.

Truly I never thought that Bram would really make me part with Gibran mas forever. I wish this was just a dream.