You're Changing, Mas
Disappear for a moment

Everyone has their own choice, especially if there are complicated problems and tired to survive. Sometimes the only way is to leave, to leave something that's messed up. Not a coward or a loser, but rather to make room for yourself, think clearly that can make the heart and think we are better.

Now I've been in another city, far from Indonesia, far from my family of course, Gibran. Honestly, I haven't been able to sign a lawsuit from Gibran. I'm disappointed in him because I don't know what really happened to my relationship with Gibran. I even asked for an explanation but the reason he gave me made absolutely no sense in my brain.

From the bottom of my heart, Gibran still loves me. For some reason why he became different there must be a reason hidden by him. That's why I decided to disappear for a moment from Gibran. Not because I ran away from the responsibility of still being Gibran's wife, but I can't afford to be separated if the problems I'm having with Mas Gibran I don't know where the fault lies.

If Mas Gibran did choose another woman and divorce Me, then I will give her away. But I must see himself first with a woman who accompanies him better than Me. Then I can believe that I am unworthy of her, and I will sign our divorce papers with sincerity.

"Hey beautiful, why are you dumbass? It's cold in here, let's go inside, " said Bram approaching me while I was on the balcony of the room.

Right now I'm abroad with Bram. When he offered to go with her abroad, I agreed. That's the reason because actually I want to avoid the lawsuit that Gibran gave me.

To be honest I haven't been able to let go of my household with Mas Gibran so easily. I had to know first where the rift between the two of us was until Gibran chose to separate. Because I am so sure that Gibran is a good husband. And there must be something she kept secret from me.

"I'm looking for some fresh air. Look at that beautiful moon. If it looks so bright from here, it's pretty, right?" I pointed at the moon I was looking at earlier before Bram came to me.

"Yes, beautiful .. as beautiful as you are Manda," said Bram still with a call that he always gave to me when we were dating first.

"Ih, what the hell. The waves started again" I said a little pouty.

"No, you are beautiful. Come on in, it's cold tonight. You're sick, "Bram took my hand tightly to take me into the room.

I smiled at her, but I slowly took my hand away from her.

"Emm .. sorry, I didn't accidentally because when we were both like this it felt like I was back in the past we were dating," said Bram with misbehavior. His eyes are staring at me.

I smiled blandly. I'm not the Amanda that Bram was dating. And I need to know myself. Bram is my past. But when I'm around her I'd love to hug her. I want to feel like I'm spilling all my grievances right now. But that's impossible, because my heart's fucked right now. Even to forget about Gibran I haven't been able to.

"Nothing," I became awkward.

HOAMMMMS

"Emm .. I'm sleepy. I'm sleeping first, yeah!" I said with a sleepy face.

I did it on purpose because I don't like the current awkwardness. It makes me uncomfortable. So I reasoned to sleep.

"Yes, please. Get some sleep, you need some rest" said Bram, still glued to the balcony.

"Hey why are you still here, Bram? I want to go to sleep" I said, looking at Bram in a daze.

"Ah, i-iya sorry .. I'm a little speechless to you. Then I'll go out" nervous Bram until he steps away from the room I'm in.

"Oh yes, Bram. Next time knock on the door when you want to get into my room, ok!" My message was to him when he was about to reach the door.

"Yes yes, sorry I forgot. But I won't repeat it again" Bram turned and smiled at me.

"Emm .. not really, but my status is..," I said hanging.

"Just calm down, I'm not going to mess with you, Manda!" bram cut my words.

"Thank you, Bram!" I smiled at Bram.

"Yes, except when you're divorced from Gibran," Bram murmured softly but I still faintly heard his words.

"What did you just say, Bram?" ask me to clarify, I'm afraid of mishearing.

"Huh, there's no. Yes, sleep, good night" Bram argued with his head.

"Good night" I replied with a small smile.

After Bram came out, I hurried to lock the door. It's nothing, but I'm afraid that something unwanted might happen. Because I know very well what Bram's attitude was like a long time ago. He had even asked me for something very precious, something that was very guarded by all the girls. And of course I refused his crazy invitation. But I'm grateful that Bram has kept me with respect and respect for me as a good woman.

The next morning, I woke up to knock on the door from the outside. I got up and walked to open the door.

"Good morning, pretty!" Sapa Bram brought breakfast to my room.

"Morning," I reply still in a lethargic tone.

"Now you wash your face. We had breakfast together. I'll wait there, yeah!" bram said while bringing breakfast to the balcony.

"You don't have to bother, Bram!" my words feel bad.

"It's okay, really. Just wash your face, baby!" bram said half-creaming.

I stepped into the bathroom to wash my face, after which I went straight to the balcony where Bram was waiting for me with the breakfast he brought for us to eat together. I also sat on the chair that Bram had prepared while staring at the delicious breakfast dish in front of me.

"Beautiful!" bram said stunned to see me until he smiled widely.

"What the hell, start again!" I'm so uncomfortable with Bram's compliments.

"really so. Like you're still here so I can praise you whenever I want. We have breakfast now!" Bram painstakingly prepared breakfast for me.

Bram's attention reminds me of Gibran's. My husband used to be a man who cared a lot even for the little things. But now it's different. Just try Gibran's attention like Bram's today. I'm not leaving Indonesia to avoid divorce.

"Bram, may I ask you something?" many doubt.

"Yes, please!" sahut Bram with his nod.

"Why do you still care about me, Bram?" Tanyaku later.