You're Changing, Mas
It's not Easy

Making mistakes is a natural thing and must be experienced by all humans. As an imperfect creature. Man is a creature that never escapes from wrong and sin. It can even be said that there is not a single human being in this world who has never made the slightest mistake.

Even among us as humans, there must be some who still feel haunted by the mistakes of the past. Whenever you remember mistakes made in the past, sometimes you still feel sad and even blame yourself.

Everything that happened in the past cannot be removed or forgotten. All things and events that have ever existed will become an inseparable part of life. Although the past is not always beautiful, but everything we have experienced and lived always presents a process of self-maturity.

"Why do you still care about me, Bram?" I asked Bram. Not one bit to not pay more attention to me. I wonder how it is made.

Bram was focusing on the food in front of him. Now he turned to look at me seriously.

"Because of love!" Answer's short.

"Love?" I asked back.

"Yes, because I still love you, Manda!" the answer is no doubt.

Actually I knew that Bram would say that. But I'm just making sure that it's true that Bram deliberately offered me to come with him because there's a reason Bram still loves me. If this is the case, then is it wrong if I follow Bram to get here? Why does my heart say that this is not true? I'm afraid that Bram will think otherwise of me.

"Why Bram? Why do you still love me? And I was the one who left you, who betrayed you and married Gibran, your friend?" I open old wounds in the past.

Not everyone can survive the love that once hurt his heart, betraying him. But unlike Bram, this man is still able to love me with all his heart and soul. I'm sure of it because I saw his attitude and his eyes there was sincerity that he showed me.

"Love doesn't need a reason. That's why I still hold on to my love, because I'm sure any soul that betrays will never be happy and last, just like you and Gibran. You're getting divorced, aren't you!" reply Bram with his satirical answer.

I feel like I'm getting a loud slap from every sentence Bram throws at me.

"So you think with the look of me and Gibran mas there is a gap for you to come back with me, is that it?" Honestly, I'm a little upset to hear what Bram just said.

"Yes, what's wrong if I'm still hanging on with the love I've been waiting for so long?" Bram sighed for a moment then closed his eyes. Looking back at me in front of him.

"Honestly, I was disappointed and very angry when you got married. My heart was broken at that moment. I trusted Gibran to keep you away from me, and he stabbed me in the back. That's where I'm sure your marriage won't last. And the proof now, you see for yourself right? You'll be separated in a moment" said Bram, shrouded in emotion. His eyes are slightly red.

"But you're wrong, Bram. Your ambition to take over your father's company is bigger than our relationship. You don't have time for me to just call a day when we're far away. You also gave up the job to Gibran to take care of me. So it is only natural that during that time I have always depended on him and Gibran was always there for Me" I argued in self-defense.

"But that's not fair to me, Manda. Gibran betrayed me by marrying you, he should have fulfilled our covenant" Bram denied. And Bram accidentally recalls a moment when only he and Gibran knew.

"covenant? What agreement?" Ask wonder.

"No, forget!" sahut Bram.

I became suspicious of Bram's attitude not answering my questions. But I don't want to think bad.

"It's not fair to Gibran. You abroad are busy with your work, I also do not know your activities other than in the office. You could have cheated on me. Why do you say it's unfair to you? What about Gibran whose days are taken just to take care of me? She was willing to refuse any woman to be her lover back then. So please don't blame Gibran, "I said with all the grunts in my heart.

"You don't deserve to hate Gibran. Because the wrong one is me, Bram!" My firm.

Bram again sighed, he looked very upset by what I just said. Not because I defended Gibran. But that's the truth. The breakfast that has been available at the table since then is only a decoration of our debate. The clear morning seemed to fade due to our debate. The atmosphere became awkward in silence.

Bram rubbed his face then looked at me, shortly after that he pulled my hand and grabbed it.

"Honestly, I can't forget you even if you betrayed me, Manda. Because I don't want you to be owned by anyone else, let alone Gibran my own best friend. I want you to be the mother of my children. Please, marry me after your divorce is over" Bram said seriously. I can see from his eyes the truth and sincerity of his words.

I immediately took my hand off Bram. The atmosphere at the time was really awkward. I kind of went into the past where Bram first asked me to be his girlfriend. But different now, what Bram was asking for right now was the ridiculous thing he said. Free, it would be useless. Because my struggle in marriage with Gibran was very strong since long ago. And accepting Bram back in my life is not easy.

"Sorry I want to take a shower, you have breakfast first," answered me who immediately got up and stepped into the bathroom.

BRAKKK

I heard a loud noise on the balcony. Looks like Bram smacked his hand into the table. Maybe he's upset with me for not answering his question at once.