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Two months passed, and now I'm still living abroad with Bram. The change that happened when I was reunited with Bram in Indonesia, I was so very comfortable nearby. But after I was with Bram, for some reason that comfort turned into a sense of stiffness, awkwardness and saturation. Only then did I realize that it was true that my decision to marry Gibran was not wrong. In fact, Bram is a man who is very ambitious to take over his other family company. Bram was very greedy.

Today I suddenly felt bad. My thoughts are always with Gibran. For a second I cannot forget it. I miss Gibran. I want to go back to Indonesia to meet Gibran. I realized that my decision to leave Gibran last month was not right. Just because I didn't want to get a divorce from her, I left her to get our divorce annulled. But in fact, I am here even tormented to withstand the longing for Gibran.

THE DERT DERT DERTT

I woke up from my daydream when a phone call came in. I immediately picked up the phone call that turned out to be from the Goddess. Although I am far from Indonesia but I still receive news from Gibran Dewi.

"Dewi Hallo, what's up?"

"Mbak, gini Mbak .. I just got word from Gibran that next Sunday, he's getting engaged."

"What's? You're not kidding, Wi. There is no way that Gibran was engaged while our status is still husband and wife."

"That's why I told you. Mending back to Indonesia. Engine all your household problems that have not been run, Ma'am."

"But Wi, who is the woman who will be engaged to Gibran mas? Was Gibran really cheating on you before?"

"Listen that woman is the sister of Gibran's business friend, Ma'am. He has been to the office a lot lately. I think their relationship is just a partner. It turns out they have a relationship. Sorry I just found out now, ma'am."

"Did Gibran forget Mbak, Wi?"

"Because Mbak left the house, that's why your husband arbitrarily. So go home, Mom. And fail your husband's engagement as soon as possible."

"But Mbak has not dared to go back to Indonesia, Wi. Moreover, hearing he was engaged, Mbak was not able to if in fact Gibran married again."

"Terserah Putih. Means Ma'am agreed to be pitted against Gibran."

"No, Ma'am doesn't want to. I'm not willing to."

"May return to Indonesia soon."

"But....."

Tut Tut tuttt

The phone call was cut off by the Goddess. He seems to be upset with me. Instantly my body suffocated to hear the words of the Goddess just now. I really can't calm down. Mind fucked. Honestly, I can't accept that Gibran is engaged to another woman. Although it is not yet to the stage of marriage, but I am not willing.

Is it true that Gibran did not love me anymore until he so easily forgot about me and related to other women? It's cruel to Gibran. Why didn't he think about my feelings. My heart ached like it was pierced by a very sharp glass shard, very painful.

HIKS HIKS HIKS

I want to go home, but it's free especially that Gibran's engagement day has been decided. Is it worth it that I failed him?

I paced back and forth unsettled, weighing up my decision to return to Indonesia or stay here with Bram. I have been discussing with myself for a long time. And I finally found a way out of what I'm now uneasy about.

"I have to go home, yes I have to go back to Indonesia" I muttered as I wiped my tears.

"Bram, I want to go back to Indonesia today. Thank you so much for helping me to stay here" I said without further ado.

"No need to thank me. It's my duty as .. friend," said Bram a little hesitant by saying friend. Yeah, maybe he'll say that I'm the one he loves so that's his duty. But I don't really care what he means.

"Can you take me to the airport?" I asked, 'cause I saw Bram was free.

"Of course, don't drive. I will come to Indonesia with you" he replied.

"But, what about your job, Bram?"

"Work in Indonesia is more important than here, beautiful. It's a pity to miss an important show, there later. Let's go!" Bram is excited. He even pulled my suitcase straight into his car.

"Important show?" mummify slowly.

I don't know why Bram is so excited and there's no question for me about my return to Indonesia. I became astonished at him. Or did he already know the engagement of Gibran next Sunday, until finally he defends to follow Me to Indonesia when I see Bram who every day is always busy with his work here. So what's that important show Bram said just now?

*******

I am currently in Indonesia. It feels very difficult for this foot to step back home, precisely my home with Gibran mas. That's the only home I have right now.

"You come with me to my apartment, how about it?" tawp Bram's.

"Emm .. I'm going to go home first, Bram. You see, Gibran told me to stay there" I replied honestly.

"Well, if that's what I'll take you," Bram replied with little comment.

Bram also drove me by using a car that was sopiri by his assistant who worked in Indonesia. After I got home, Bram went straight to his apartment.

TOK TOK TOK TOKKK

FLECKISH

"Mother Amanda, Thank God I'm home. Aunt is worried about Mom. Thank goodness Mother was fine," The servant aunt hugged me as she watched me stand before her.

I can't believe I'm here in this house. I'm silent about not answering aunty's words because I feel so guilty about her. Went away without saying goodbye to her, even though the aunt of the person who cares about me the most in this house.

"Sorry Manda yes, Bi because Manda left the house is not saying goodbye to Auntie, make Auntie so worried," I said sincerely.

"That's okay, what's important is that Manda's mother is good and healthy," Aunt stroked my shoulders while checking my body condition with both eyes.

"Oh yeah, Bi .. Is Gibran home now?" I asked who had been from the beginning impatiently heard the news.

Honestly, I still care a lot about Gibran, even though he's the one I know now that he betrayed me. But on the other hand, my heart says that Gibran still loves me. I was in a dilemma.

"I'm here, Manda!" said someone with a voice I miss so much.