You're Changing, Mas
Start Changing

Establishing a relationship requires mental readiness, as well as confidence to strengthen the heart. Because, on the way later, every couple will definitely find pebbles and twists of the road that is not always smooth and often steep which can make a relationship falter. If you do not prepare the heart before, and just go through it, then it can all turn into an unhealthy relationship.

After a few months passed beautifully, gradually our happiness disappeared. Entering a year of marriage, I began to feel a change in my household. My relationship with Gibran's is not good, like there's a barrier.

Although it is difficult to face a cold husband, I need to strive to fight for my relationship and Gibran's. You do not have to feel defeated or feel constantly giving up because love must be nurtured every day. This is done so that the change of attitude and the emergence of my husband's original attitude can be handled well.

"Mas, I miss you. Tumben today you came home from work late, "I hugged Gibran's mas when he laid his body beside me.

"Let me work instead of playing or sleeping!" at that time the tone of Gibran's voice was a little sticky. It's not usually that my husband is that cold. Maybe because he was tired, I thought.

"Yes, yes I know baby" I kissed Gibran's cheek.

"I'm tired, I'm going to sleep. Turn off lights!" Mas Gibran instead let go of the hug I gave him as if I were being refused to make out with him.

I just breathe patiently. Yes, again I think because Gibran was tired of working all day, so he ignored me tonight. Okay, that's okay, I was still thinking positively at the time.

The cause of Gibran's indifference and fatigue to me, could be because my husband is busy with his work. Maybe lately there has been a lot of work piling up, so my husband uses more time to work. Is not busy with work can also make the husband tired and immediately rest after arriving home? I just assume that.

In the morning, he was still in the same bed as Gibran. I woke him from his sleep.

"Good morning, baby!" my handkerchief kissed Gibran's lip when he opened his eyes.

"Morning," she said flatly and briefly, she got up and got out of bed and walked to the bathroom without returning my kiss.

I've been fixated on seeing Gibran's attitude lately. Usually as often as we can do morning kiss, sometimes he starts, then I reply, sometimes I start, then he replies. But it's been a few days since Gibran changed. He's not as warm and romantic as he used to be.

I thought that Gibran was so tired at work that he was so tired of me but the more days Gibran showed his side as if he was bored. The proof is that every time I pay attention to him, he acts cold and often turns his eyes the other way.

In a marriage relationship, boredom is not a taste that can be avoided. Even boredom and boredom in marriage is possible. And it is only natural that feelings of boredom with the partner and the relationship may diminish after settling down together in life that involves a daily routine.

However, again that does not mean everything decreases after the honeymoon phase is completed and the life of the year until the year passes.

I'm really getting confused. The relationship between us is fine. Boro-boro quarrels, the difference of understanding just does not exist. Even so, a happy family does not always mean free from conflict. Problems in a marriage will always be there. The thing to understand is that I and Gibran come from different backgrounds and bringing differences together is certainly not an easy matter.

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Tonight, I've dressed up very pretty. Everything I think is perfect, from the top to the bottom my appearance is charming. Yeah, that's what I think. I sprayed perfume on the left right side to the top under my clothes. And of course I wear sexy, black lingerie that's a little thin. Yes, because this is indeed the clothing chosen by Gibran mas when we first honeymoon. Ok, here we go!

"Good night my husband, muach...!" I greet with excitement the arrival of Gibran while giving a short kiss on his lips. I smiled at him.

Gibran looked at me from top to bottom. Yes, succeeded. My husband looks fascinated by my appearance. And this time I'm sure Gibran must have been entertained by me and must be tired of missing because he was welcomed by a beautiful and sexy wife like me. Hah, at that time I was really smart. It's nothing, it's also for the happiness of my household.

But after a few seconds, a wry smile came from my husband. She shook her head, after which she ruffled her waist. My smile faded.

"What the fuck? Wanna tease me? You are wrong to know. I'M TIRED AND I WANT TO REST."

Deg

Mas Gibran suppressed his last sentence with an expression of restraining anger.

"Ma-eat first Mas," I said in a stammering voice.

"You alone, I ate outside!" ketus mas Gibran, then he immediately stepped into the room.

My chest hurts so much, my tears can't be contained anymore. At first I thought my husband's attitude was only cold for a moment towards me. But in fact, I was scolded by him, like there was hatred in his eyes towards me.

Living a marriage relationship means we have to care about the feelings of a partner, right? If we are tired and feel stressed all day, do not vent it on a partner once he comes home from work. Releasing stress is important, but keeping your wife feeling is also important. Wreaking it on the wife can actually cause much bigger problems.

In establishing a relationship is also a journey of husband and wife as a process of understanding and understanding each other's partners. Family life is not as simple as when the time of peddling or dating. There are many things that may not have happened before, and were instead revealed after the wedding. A husband's changing attitude can be one of them.

What was my fault that I was treated like this by a husband I've known for years. And in fact this is the nature and behavior of the original Gibran mas, making my heart hurt.

"You changed Gibran, hiks..hiks...!"

I cried with tightness in my chest. I myself am holding this wound. Really sick.