Winarsih Waiting
Idea Mbak Hanyk 2

"If you can't help Winar, you can! Do not offer a solution that makes no sense! Basic gil*! There is no heart!  I brought Winar here." said Ms. Tri. Ms. Tri could not hold back her emotions. 

"Pump! We're home!" Ms. Tri pulled my hand. 

"So that's where the beard fires, anyway!  The Winar was silent, but it was angry!" It seems that Ms. Hanyk did not accept Ms. Tri taking me home. Ms. Tri turned her body that was going to come out of the door. 

"That's what I don't think!  You don't have an ot*k! How a kid like a cake, just love the same people!" Emotion Madam Tri, I still cry in silence, my tears continue to pour. I don't know what to say. While Mbak Tri and Mbak Hanyk are still shouting at each other. 

"This is your child just love people, do not children people want as good as your nozzle you love people!" sumpul Mbak Tri when he saw Mbak Hanyk's four-year-old son, in his yard when we wanted to get into the car, it seemed like the boy had just come home from playing. While the mouth of Mbak Hanyk looks kamit while glancing at Mbak Tri with a mocking look. 

We also left Mas Joko's residence with a big heart. We were busy with our own thoughts, no one spoke. Only the occasional sobbing of my cries could be heard clashing with the sound of the roar of vehicles. 

"Already, Win! Don't think too much of the Gil* guy." Ms. Tri calmed me down. Maybe he couldn't bear to hear my stuffing all the way.

"Let's find a way out. You are patient, yes! There are we who will help you." said Ms Tri increasingly makes me sob. How could anyone care more about me than my husband's family? 

Maybe because of the exhaustion, I ended up falling asleep in the car. When we woke up, we reached the home of Ms. Tri's parents. After returning the car Mbak Tri, we immediately went home on foot, because the parents' house Mbak Tri is not far from our contract.  Lea went home too. 

"Win, you must be hungry right?  Earlier at your sister-in-law's house, let alone in the food, drink not in love." asked Ms. Tri when we had arrived in front of the contract.  Ms. Tri sewot again, probably remembering the incident earlier. 

"To my house was yok, just before we left, I cooked earlier." Without waiting for my answer, Ms. Tri had already pulled my hand up to her house.  

"No need, Ma'am! I'm not hungry, I want to sleep." I replied, trying to release the handle Ma'am Tri. But Mr. Tri still insisted. I finally ate at Ms. Tri's house. 

After finishing eating and helping Ms. Tri clean the dirty dishes, the former we ate, I went straight home. I immediately laid down my body which felt very tired. 

I close my eyes, I take a deep breath and then I throw it away slowly. I felt my head throb, it was so painful. I'll calm my heart, if there's any way out. But instead of being calm, my heart grew even more furious. My mind grew wild imagining bad things happening to me and my son. If I work, who will take care of my son? 

'I'm giving it all into YOUR hands, O Lord. I should how? Where should I find my husband? What about this kid?' I am in my prayer. My tears are not flowing. 

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"Why is your face so big, Win? You don't cry, Win. Pity your child if you continue to be sad." said Ms. Tri when we met in front of the house when I swept the porch and Ms. Tri was going out for shopping.

"Yes, Win! Pregnant people should not be sad, should be happy so that their children will be cheerful and do not like moody." suddenly Bu Fatma next door neighbor Mbak Tri said. I don't know when he was there. I just smiled in response to them. 

"Mom's going to go shopping with yuk!" bring Mbak Tri. 

"Yok ... You're not coming, Win? Follow yuk, let's not be more comfortable at home continue."

"No, Mom! Shame I came out with puffy gini eyes. There's still stock in the fridge." I refused Ms. Fatma's invitation. 

After Ms. Fatma and Ms. Tri left, I went in. I sat on the sofa and turned on the tv, as usual early in the morning the television broadcast always presented celebrity gossip shows. Although the tv was on but my mind went nowhere. 

For some reason now the longing I feel for Mas Roby, seems to have turned into hate. Heartache now I feel, it crossed my mind to avenge the actions of Mas Roby who until now has no news. Before he left, it seemed like he was already intent on lying to me. The proof is that he left on the grounds of wanting to work, but in fact his friend said he did not work there.

It seems like what Hanyk said has a point. This kid better give it to someone else. Slowly the heavy burden that I have been feeling lately is slowly being lifted. But who do I love this kid? Of course it's not Rusdi. I know that one day Mas Roby will definitely come back, he'll want to see his son. And I'm not gonna let that happen. I won't let Mas Roby meet this kid, after he abandoned us. 

Look at you, you will never be able to meet your son! It's because you hurt me.