Winarsih Waiting
Episode 18's

When I was breastfeeding her, suddenly I was like a trance pinching my son, almost even I slammed him. Fortunately, at that time, Bu Sukma immediately came because he heard the cry of Bening as a result of my pinch, and right at the same time Mbak Mira had returned from the mini market. 

"God, God! Win, what are you doing?" Shouted Mbak Mira who immediately took Bening from my lap. His shopping was thrown at the door.

Bening's cry sounded heart-wrenching. Ma'am Mira was calming her down, while Bu Sukma hugged me while patting my back, I cried in his arms. 

God, what did I do to my son? Almost his life was floating in my hands. Now a sense of regret lingering in the chest. 'Thank God, you still saved my son's life from my hands.' My inner self. 

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Since then Mira no longer let me alone with Bening. They're always watching me, they're worried about something that's putting Bening's life at risk.

Two months is the age, but Mira hasn't allowed me to leave yet.

"Pity Clear, Win!" mama Mira said as I reiterated my intention to leave.

"I'm sure, here Bening will not lack anything, Ma'am. If I'm here, I could endanger him. I promise, Ma'am, if I'm ready, I'll definitely come." I explained. I hope Mira understands. "Bak see for yourself how yesterday unknowingly I almost lost the Clear Life, Ma'am," I continued. Now the pain of remembering the incident returned to torture. Mira looked at me.

"Are you sure of your decision, Win?" Mira's mom convinced me. I nodded confidently. 

"if you insist, yes, go. But you have to promise, you have to tell me." asked Mira. "where are you planning?" ask Mira. 

"To the city, Ma'am. There was a friend there who offered me a job." I replied. 

"Are you sure your friend is good? Don't trust people too easily, Win. Especially if you are a girl, there is no family. No one is afraid of evil intentions with you." advised Mbak Mira. 

"Related, Ma'am,"

Just as I decided to give up custody of my son to Mira, now I also have the confidence to leave here. Although I actually do not know what work I will get later. 

Actually I lied to Mira one thing, which is about my friends and work. At that time there was someone who offered a job as a domestic assistant, but when I found out about it through his social media, I became doubtful. The statuses he made on his social media like deliberately attracting the attention of women, made me decide not to get involved with that person. 

"Thank you very much, Mom, help me a lot" I said to Ms. Sukma, before I left for the city.

"It should be a mother who thanks you, Win! Thank you for giving me a beautiful mother grandchild" said Bu Sukma with teary eyes.

"You should come back here again, Win. Now we are family. If there's anything, you should tell us." Then Bu Sukma stretched out his arms to embrace me and I rushed into his arms. Ms. Sukma kissed my cheek and stroked my hair. I'm really happy now.

After that I also thanked Mba Mira and Mas Dewa, I was lucky to meet good people like them.

Before I got into the car, I first hugged and kissed Bening's face. It felt heavy leaving her, my chest felt tight. Is this what a mother feels like? I'm sorry, son, for having to leave you. I don't even think it's appropriate for you to call Mama. My inner. I tried hard but I still couldn't hold back the tears from coming out. "I'll always pray for you, son." I muttered close to his ear. Then I handed it over to Bu Sukma's lap

I finally went to town. Mira and Mas Dewa drove me to the counter. While Bu Sukma and Bening stayed at home. At first Bu Sukma asked Mas Dewa and Mbak Mira to take me to the city. But I refused it. I don't want them to know that I don't know what I'm going to do in town. 

After arriving in the city, I looked for lodging. The inn is located in the city center. Around it were many clothing shops and also several restaurants. On the side of the road many street vendors who sell a variety of goods. I plan after the break later, will look around here.

For the needs of the next month enough or even more, from the rest of the savings plus more shipments from Mbak Tri from the sale of my goods there. The cost of yesterday's birth was in the responsibility of Mas Dewa and Mbak Mira, even all the needs of Bening at birth were those who met.

While looking for a job, I think the money I have is still enough to pay for the rent later and daily needs. I put a bag of clothes into the room, not forgetting I locked the door. Then I laid my body on a soft bed. 

In the afternoon, around four o'clock, I came out of the inn. The stomach has been rumbling, ask to fill because it was not eating. 

I walk my feet down the street looking to the right left of the road. While I was stepping I smelled the smell of meatballs that instantly made me swallow saliva, it smelled so good. It turned out that the aroma came from a shophouse, I went into the shophouse and sat on a bench not too far from the entrance. Visitors are quite crowded. I ordered one serving of meatballs, and then shortly my order came.

While I was enjoying my order meatballs, I saw the employee of the meatball seller stick the paper on the display case located right next to the entrance. 

"Mbak, tanya, that's what's in the mas paste, Mommy?" I asked a girl who also worked at the meatball shop. 

"That's it, Ma'am, the vacancy, Ma'am," replied the hooded girl. 

"Here's another vacancy, Ma'am?" askaku spirit. 

"Yes, Ma'am" he answered briefly. 

"Oh, thank you, Ma'am!" 

"Together, come, Ma'am." He smiled before it passed. 

While enjoying the meatballs back, I thought, should I apply for a job here? Maybe this is a hint from God. Thought. Immediately I finished the meatballs in the bowl in front of me, then I rushed to the cashier's table. 

"Sir, ask about the vacancy. How do I enter the application, Ma'am?" ask me at the cashier, when I'm done paying for my order. 

"May you propose?" I'm nodding. 

"If so just ask directly to the boss, Ma'am. Let me take you." The girl went ahead of me and I followed behind her. 

He took me up the stairs, on the second floor of this building there are two rooms. 

Geck! Geck! Geck! 

The girl knocked on the door of the room closest to the stairs. 

"Lake in!" The voice of the man from inside, told us to come in. 

Then we came in. Inside the room a man about thirty years old was sitting staring at the laptop screen in front of him. I don't know what he saw there. 

"What's up, Lis?" ask the man to the girl who drove me. 

"This, sir, someone's proposing, sir!" The man looked at me. 

"Please sit down" he said. I stepped into the chair he pointed to, and sat there. 

"You can get out." The girl went out too. 

Now there was only me and the mature man in the room. There was a bit of fear in my mind. The man in front of me was staring back at his laptop screen. I felt like a lost person here, confused about what to say, while the man in front of me did not start the conversation. 

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