Winarsih Waiting
Husband Doesn't Go Home

"Just go, baby!" say Mas Roby before he leaves.

"Good at home, take care of our child!" While stroking my enlarged stomach, then then kissing it.

"Don't be naughty with Mom, yeah, kid!" He spoke in front of my stomach. Then he kissed my forehead and hugged me tightly.

"Be careful, Mom!" I said while kissing the back of his hand.

My name Winarsih is twenty-one years old and my husband Roby is twenty-nine. Mas Roby and I have been married for three years and we had a daughter two years ago. But unfortunately, our son died shortly after he was born. I am now pregnant with my second child. My current age is six months.

My acquaintance with Mas Roby started at a pulse seller's kiosk, where at that time he was about to buy a pulse and I was the one guarding the stall. At that time Roby asked me to meet. After that he so often bought pulses at the kiosk, until finally we exchanged mobile numbers. And we're getting in touch more and more over the phone or by short messages.

After a month of acquaintance, we had a more serious relationship and four months later Mas Roby proposed to me and we finally got married.

After we got married, Mas Roby invited me to stay in his rented, because at that time I was living at Pak Haji's kiosk, where I worked.  It was about an hour's drive from where I lived at the time.  Mas Roby also asked me not to work, he said so that I focus on family. In addition, so that I am not too tired, because the distance is quite far.

Mas Roby is a kind, caring, compassionate and responsible person. As long as we were married, he never once was rude to me. If there's a problem, he'll choose to be quiet when I'm busy blaming him. After the atmosphere began to cool and calm, then he invited me to talk carefully, and look for a way out of the problem well.

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It has been two months Mas Roby did not go home, a week at the beginning of his departure he still often gave news, either through wa messages or by phone and video call. At first it was normal, but after that he began to rarely give news even for almost a month now Mas Roby did not contact me at all.

There is a fear of Mas Roby why-not in the street. His work as an inter-provincial expedition driver is very risky. Usually, if out of town for two weeks at most he has gone home. I'm afraid Mas Roby's car is wretched on the road or has he forgotten me and our future son? Ahh .. is impossible. I quickly threw away my bad thoughts. I also want to contact his family and friends. Who knows if they could give me information about my husband.

"It's been two months that Roby hasn't come home, Mas. Did he tell Mas Joko?" I asked Mas Joko when I called her on the phone.

"Nothing, Win. Even he had never contacted us for a long time." Mas Joko replied increasingly making me lose hope.

"Try you call again him, who knows yesterday in his place there is no signal," said Mas Joko again.

"The number can't be reached anymore, Mas." I answered rasu.

"Ohh. Yes, later I try to help find yes, Win," said Mas Joko, a little hope.

I was confused, not knowing where to find Mas Roby. His family is only Mas Joko, Mas Roby's parents have long since died. When I asked Mas Roby's friends, their answers were the same. No one knows where my husband is. Even when I asked his office, the people there, no one knew where Mas Roby was going. According to one of his friends I met there, Mas Roby was not working there anymore for two months, it means that when Mas Roby left the house he was no longer working. Then where is he?

The departure of Mas Roby who had no news made me dizzy. I don't know where to look anymore. My pregnancy was approaching the birth, but there was no preparation at all. Even my savings are getting smaller. In addition to the cost for the delivery, I also have to think about the rental costs that will soon have to be extended. This is our second year living in this contract. Usually the money is paid for a year.

All this time I've only relied on money from Mas Roby, and these two months Mas Roby didn't send me any money. The money I could save all this time wasn't much. 

Then what should I do now? With my condition now it is not possible for me to find a job. No one would want to hire someone as pregnant as me. 

Oh my God, how is this? I also have no family. My parents died a long time ago. My mother died when I was four months old, while my father died when I was in Junior High. I actually have an older brother, his name is Minarsih, but he lives off the island. That's all I know. My father said that my brother was taken by my uncle, the sister of my mother, a few moments after she died. After Kak Minarsih was taken by uncle, there was no news of him. 

I really don't know where else to find Mas Roby. All this time he never showed any suspicious gurgles. But why did he leave without news? Why did Mas Roby leave to go to work as usual, while his friend said, he did not work there? Why would he lie?

When he left last time, there was nothing strange about his attitude. He's still as usual.

[Kangen, Deck!] 

[Take care of yourself, don't forget to eat, take care of your health, take care of your child!]

[Wait for you to come home, Dek!]

[Mas can't go home yet, Deck!]

I opened the last messages Mas Roby, which he sent through the green phone picture application. Nothing strange, as usual. But why did he suddenly disappear without any news? There was a deep worry in the chest. There was pain when I thought something was happening to my husband.

Oh, my God, protect my husband. I don't know what to do without him. He's all I got, God. 

Geck! Geck! Geck!

The sound of a knock on the front door made me jump, making me wake up from my daydream. There was a sudden sense of happiness running through my chest. He finally came home. Thought. Soon I opened the door. I want to hug her immediately. And when I opened the door, someone was standing there. She smiled very sweetly. But …