The Story of the Heart - Ellie's Journey
Long-dilemma waiting

Point of view - Andri

(Spectacle - Andri)

I'm Andri, the only son of the Yang family. Yang family has business in land transportation. Our family relationships are many, ranging from ordinary people, law enforcement, fellow businessmen, to high officials of this country.

People think, I am handsome, good, from a distinguished family, have a lot of money and be the dream of women.

But they're wrong, they don't know the other side of me .

I'm half crazy. And I'm guessing, our family might be damned.

I woke up this morning because

Hearing the sound of sayup from the lower floor of the villa where I live. I rarely sleep well, because even a slow sound can make me wake up and be too alert. I saw a small clock by the bed, which showed five hours over twenty minutes.

My custom, I immediately checked the cctv on the glass screen that I deliberately put in my room, so I could see all parts of our residence except private areas such as bedrooms and bathrooms. Just make sure the sound I heard earlier, which I actually know must be coming from our ART that is starting to make breakfast.(ART\= assistant ruman ladder).

Being able to see all parts of this villa made me feel safer. And feel more free to have control over my safety and the safety of my home.

I hurried to get up, I prayed to the Power to take care of me. To bind the Evil One within me, so that I may not hurt those around me. And don't forget I'm praying for Ellie, the sweet girl I've loved since the first time I saw her a few years ago.

Our meeting was a gift to me, I thought a person like me would never be able to love someone. But loving an Ellie, - I can .

For the 25 years I lived, I never felt there was a woman beautiful enough for me. I'm not blind, I know the standard of beauty in this world. Big eyes, a big nose and so on. But I haven't found a pretty version in my personal opinion. Many girls who approach me, they will also be in the category of beautiful according to world standards, but again of course not my version of beauty.

Most of them are very aggressive. Maybe they think it should be so to deal with passive men like me (they don't know, I'm not passive. - Actually)

That day, I saw the most beautiful girl in the world.

I walked out of Hall , after completing the invitation as a motivator for the 3rd graders of High School who were about to graduate. My job is to encourage them to enter the real world that awaits. I was considered a role model (exemplary) of one of the alumni of this school who has been successful.

After saying goodbye to the head of the Foundation who invited me I prepared to go home. Then I heard the male students who had just heard my motivation exclaim "wooooaa" and looked towards the 1st floor below the floor of the hall, I wonder what exactly they saw? I followed their point of view, and there was the most beautiful girl in the world (perhaps) and definitely one of the most beautiful in my world. " Ellie" called one of the male students, and the prettiest girl looked at us and smiled.

Looking at the girl, the blood in my heart seemed to cheer, soaring up in excitement. It was as if, finally discovered - something - that even - had previously - had never thought existed.

Good Andri, congratulations you're not sane. My inner.

Okay, as if it wasn't enough with the diagnosis of the psychiatrist who's been diagnosing me for years with psychopathic tendencies,. Or another psychiatrist will diagnose me with obsessive compulsive disorder (obsessive compulsive disorder or OCD) . And the next time I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. And now you're gonna get a diagnosis of a pedophile, too. For God's sake Andri she's just a little girl what right do you like her??

I'm cursing myself, don't you dare dare dare Andri!

I keep on cursing myself, how can you be a human being with a myriad of mental disorders, you collect all those mental illness terms as if they were a star of merit for this country.

This is Andri's crime, pedophilia. Oh no! I'm right, I'm cursed.

The little girl's face, Ellie, came to mind, and it was time for my heart to feel warm just by imagining her face.

okay

Andri you're crazy, someone has to put me in a mental institution or a prison?

I'm desperate. I wish, maybe if I were a character in a murder mystery novel, of course I would be the villain. Psychopaths are pedophiles. The complete cursed package. I'm disgusted at myself.

I'm back at my company. I'd better work to distract my crazy mind. But as long as I'm in my room, I don't stop judging myself for a second.

Everything seemed chaotic and out of place, even the unequal size of the leaves in the decorative plant pot in my eyes bothered me. ah the perfectionist was now ruling me.

Enough, I need to see the psychiatrist who's been taking care of me all this time. Soon, before I destroy myself and the little girl.

Dictionary:

Psychiatrists are specialized physicians who specialize in the diagnosis and treatment of emotional disorders. Psychiatrists not only deal with severe mental disorders, but also mild.

Obsessive compulsive disorder (obsessive compulsive disorder or OCD) is a form of anxiety disorder characterized by an obsession that encourages a person to perform certain actions repeatedly (compulsions). This compulsive action is done to reduce the anxiety that arises from his own mind.

Bipolar is a disorder associated with mood swings ranging from depressive/pressed lows to highs/beads.

The exact cause of bipolar disorder is unknown, but a combination of genetics, environment, and altered brain structures and chemical compounds may play a role in the disorder.

Psychopathy is a personality disorder characterized by insensitive, rude, manipulative attitudes.

Psychopaths are part of a personality disorder that can be characterized by behavior, impulsiveness, not following or ignoring norms in society, and not having fear or guilt.

There is a stereotype in society that a psychopath is an antisocial killer, happy to be alone when there are psychopaths who can look normal and even have a successful life. However, they tend to manipulate or perform a variety of irresponsible behaviors to get what they want.

Generally have a gloomy childhood (.You can open Google yes to the notion of psychopathy . Because the understanding and characteristics are too complex.the explanation of the psychopath of the author is only related to the story.)

Pedophilia will be described in the next chapter.