The Story of the Heart - Ellie's Journey
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Lee called!

Part of me was happy, part scared. Afraid of hearing something sad. Although I'm not sure if my heart could be sadder and more broken than this.

"Let's go home". Andri.

I looked at him and reflexively showed my phone screen.

His eyes widened for a second "You need time to lift it? I'm waiting for you there" he pointed to the table near the exit.

I hesitated for a moment. I can't let myself cry anymore. Had enough. At least enough in front of Andri.

" No, I'm going home".

In the car, Lee kept calling, and then I turned off my phone. But in my heart I didn't stop thinking about what Lee really wanted to say.

Andri doesn't talk much like last dinner. He only occasionally looked at me and smiled.

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"OK. Wakeup". Andri touched Ellie's hand gently.

"Ahh I overslept, sorry Ka". I blushed .

okay one more thing that should not be done in front of a new person known.

She laughs. "Ga whatwhat, you cape. It's good to sleep a while". He opened the car door for me.

Aaahhh Ka Andri is very gentlemanly. "No need to open donk, I can do it". I'm sungkan.

She smiles. "Let's go in, you're better, right?" The question is ambiguous.

My anemia or my problem crying means?

I just said it in my head.

I pushed the doorbell of my house. Waiting for someone to open the fence.

"I'm fine, I'm not dizzy. I also ate, na-ngis, took a nap.

Thanks, and sorry I'm a hassle. I have a way to repay kindness". I said sorry.

"I'm glad I could help you. Don't apologize or feel guilty. I'm really happy to see you today and spend time with you. Even if your situation is not too good anymore. I can only say that all hard times will not last forever. You'll get through it any weight. And believe that everything brings good."  Said wise.

I nodded in agreement "Thank you, I'll take Ka Andri's words".

Not long, look mom and dad open the door. My mother hugged me. Papa thanked Andri and let Andri in.

"Oh, it's late. I'm just dropping Ellie off". Sorry for a long time, we ate first.

Mama and papa answered compact not to bother about it. And invited Andri next time to play at our house.

"Thank you for the invitation om and aunt. I'll come play again. I'll go home first".

"Promise, son, not a stale base". Mama said.

"Yes certainly aunty, not a stale base". Andri nodded convincingly.

Mama, Papa and I waved to see Andri leave.

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"Ellie, what's the matter with you? Mama papa's worried. Are you the same Lee? Why suddenly in Indonesia, he said the school abroad. Keep breaking up, you were so sad that time. Now ujug-ujug dateng, nyari you again, then you until fainting. Fortunately there was Andri loh li earlier". Ask Mom without a pause.

Ahhh they must know something's wrong with me.

 " It's nothing, mah. Kan emang Lee Indo yes return to his own country no strange donk. I fainted from anemia because I was talking to Lee". I lied, not ready to say everything. I was afraid to cry in front of them.

"Udah ya mah I want to take a shower keep sleeping".  Mam Pap while running into my room.

"That's you wearing Andri's shirt? Where's your shirt? Do not forget to take blood-boosting medication!" Mama screams.

"Yes Andri's shirt". I just remembered my wet clothes are still in Andri's car. I've decided to call Andri tomorrow.

In my bathroom, I saw myself in the mirror, who would believe me.

I was shocked to see myself. "Such ugly shit!" 

Blotchy eyes, blackened in the eye bag area. People who don't sleep for days.

Rainy hair.

A very dull and withered face. My thin makeup is not left because of rain and tears.

Andri sees me like this.

And it just so happens that his face is handsome.

Banget.

And good.

Banget.

I must have snuffed too. Waaaaa.. I closed my own face.

After taking a shower, I pick up the shirt I threw earlier. When I picked it up, I smelled a special fragrance on Andri's shirt I borrowed.

The smell is very soft.

The fragrance I kissed when Andri was close to me.

Remembering him patting my shoulder. Calm my crying.

I smiled .

I thank God, because today He sent someone so I wouldn't go through a hard day alone.

After taking my medicine, I laid myself down in my bed, hugging mr. jojo. Lee's gift doll.

Ohhh Lee's... I let out my breath tight. Giving strength to myself. Don't cry again Ellie said it over and over again to myself.

I looked at my phone but I didn't dare turn it on, I just wanted to sleep. End this very exhausting day.

I prayed to God, begging Him to be strong and to accept everything that should happen.

But....

It seems that my prayers have not been answered tonight. Because when I closed my eyes, there were only fragments of memories when I was the same - the same as Lee.

Shown, the way he laughed.

I remember the smell of his body, his friendly eyes when he smiled. His voice is deep. The way he called me "Ells"  .Her hug was soothing and all things about Lee.

Which will never be mine again.

It made my defense collapse .

I'm not strong.

I cried again, crying alone in the room as much.

Until I fell asleep from exhaustion.

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Point of view Andri,

After saying goodbye to Ellie and her parents.

I got in my car, and drove to my house.

I was thinking about Ellie, so worried about her situation. And I'm really curious what really happened.

What did the creature do to Ellie until Ellie was sad like that?

Feel it Alfons Lee jerk. You deserve it. My inner.

Just out of Ellie's housing complex, I saw the rearview mirror and saw a small pocket in the back seat containing Ellie's wet clothes.

I want to turn my car around, go back to Ellie's house and hand over this bag.

But , undo it.

"Is this a chance you're opening for me to see Ellie again tomorrow Lord?"

Guilt aside, I've sinned but God still helps me. The devil in me says it's okay - what to teach a jerk a lesson. I banished the thought of that thought in my head.

Then I decided I'd just take Ellie's shirt with me for the reason I'm seeing Ellie again tomorrow. I really want to know how he is. And I miss her again. 

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illustration of mr jojo

how cute 🐻!!