The Story of the Heart - Ellie's Journey
That heart, broken again

Because Lee was pushy and there seemed to be something important, I agreed he came to the club. Although actually, I had doubts because I was hesitant about the person2 here and a little worried about what Andri would think, just now in the car I said being single was long enough when there was a guy who nyamperin anyway. But... Yes, I am not whose girlfriend and of course I am free to be friends with anyone. Including my ex-boyfriend. Who will always have a place in my heart this . Lee's.

After a while,

The door opened, Lee entered and said his greetings . I see parents glancing and smiling, most kids don't care. But I feel like Om Kay's smile and Aunt Titi look worried. When I say goodbye to the club restaurant to my parents, my eyes look for Andri . But, he doesn't exist. *Where is he*? my thinking. But when Lee was outside the field door, I closed the door while glancing inside.

I saw Andri there staring with a stare like holding back anger.

I can't believe what I saw, I blinked my eyes a few times and Andri was gone. Aahhh I expected, I must have seen it wrong. Why is he angry?? didn't he??

At Resto cafe Green club:

Lee ordered fizzy drinks and mineral water for me, he still remembered I don't like drinking soft drinks. The stabbing taste of my throat and nose shortly after drinking it made me uncomfortable and disliked it.

Oohs...He still remembers, he always knows best what I like and dislike. I used to think he had a dictionary on everything about me because he always gave me the best, never let me down. I think Lee the man I know best and I could imagine marrying him would be a lot of fun. My memories,.

Hmm Lee, I still miss him. Very soon Lee, I'll be waiting for you.

Lee: "Ells how are you?"

Ellie: "I'm good Lee. You? When did you arrive in Indonesia? Till when? Did you go home with Caca?

Caca is also home. " I asked without pause out of curiosity.

Lee: Without answering my question he said" I don't know where to start Ells". Lee said stammered, Lee looked down.

"I'm probably gonna hurt you Ells".

Ellie: "What do you mean Lee, you scared me. What's up Lee?" I'm getting impatient. "Come Lee!" I was a little screaming.

I imagine things that don't.

Don't don't, don't

Lee's family broke?

Lee got stage 4 cancer and in 2 months' time he's gonna die?

maybe, maybe,

Lee killed people?

Or, or,

Lee realizes a different sexual orientation (read Gay) and says she regrets dating me ??

I was desperate, and curious.

"Lee talk what do you mean?"

Then he told me everything, and when he finished telling me what he meant by coming here to see me, he apologized for his 999x (maybe) and leaving me there. By ourselves.

Still digesting what I just heard from the man I still love, the man who, despite being separated from me, promised to come back one day for me. Was that really what I heard?

My heart couldn't be more broken, but I couldn't cry. I just felt a tremendous pain in my chest, maybe even the term heartache could not explain my blood-blooded heart.

I saw my parents and the others get into the restaurant cafe, apparently they had finished exercising and had cleaned themselves in the club bath. Means I've been in this place long enough, pensive and silent like a dead man. I quickly stood up and walked out of the restaurant through the other door.

I ran and reached the club park and fell on the grass. I kept quiet for a while, waiting for the pain to hit my chest again.

And finally I can cry, cry bitterly with pain in my chest. My tears can't stop flowing. Remembering the words Lee said earlier. Lee is getting married, yes! get married! And she's getting married to my best friend from our little neighbor's house. My friend, where I pour out all my heart. My best friend from whom I heard about Lee overseas. Friends I trust. I am angry and hurt . I can't believe it, even if Lee can't keep his own promise to come back to me, and then fall in love again with another Ellie. Why does that guy have to be Caca?

Obviously Caca knew and understood very well what was going on between me and Lee.

I feel betrayed.

At the same time,

I lost Lee-, the man I love so much. At once Caca, a friend I trusted and loved like my own family. I can't believe I've experienced something I've only heard and watched on the screen, about the main character whose boyfriend has been captured and stabbed by his best friend. I used to watch that scene with Caca a lot, and we would get angry. Then the compact swearing at the mouse and traitorous man on the screen. Ironical.

I just vividly remember what Lee said, the other story I don't remember, just sayup I heard it. Because the word "**Ells, I****will be married to your best friend's vaca**" alone has made my body paralyzed unable to respond and say the word.

And it's like the scene in the melodrama \(the drama with the sad story\) raining down. It was like crying with this heartbroken me. I cried louder and louder because I felt safe, the sound of my crying would be drowned out by the sound of this torrential rain. I feel helpless, meaningless. **Stupid* because he had time to believe the words of Lee who when deciding to separate he promised to come back to me, after living his youth and dreams of seeking identity and improving themselves. So that later after more mature and worthy will come to me, the person he said he loved one of his in this world. And who can't live without me. Butwhat?? just a year after separating from me, she said she would marry my best friend. ***How dare you Lee, asshole***! I hate her as much as I love her, as much as I expect her to come back someday. And as much as believing that he really loved me .

You naive girl! I'm getting myself. And wept with a heartbreaking voice, which *maybe*all who heard my cry at that time will feel how much pain my heart is.

Suddenly someone was waiting for me, I tried my hardest and my best to stop my crying. I'm afraid it's mama, papa, one of my sisters or someone who knows me. I'm ready to make up a story if I have to explain my situation right now. And that guy ducked down and squatted to be on par with me . *Andri*.His face is worried and his eyes are looking for me.

" Ellie you're hurt?" ask Andri.

I screamed in my heart, yes I was hurt, very much.

"I'm not what you are, I just fell down soft grass is soft". I tried to smile while hoping he didn't ask what else. And not realizing my hoarse voice from crying and my puffy eyes from crying for a long time.

" Okay, let's stand we go home. Mama papa kita and your sister have gone home first, you were searched where but did not meet , your HP was left in the field seat . But I promise your papa mama you'll find you and drive you home safely. They were a little rushed, they got a call from the karaoke place they had reserved. The show continued" he said." Smiling, he explained. "You want us to catch up with them Ellie?" he added by remaining friendly.

My heart warms when I see her smile and hear her calm voice. I stood up and arrived at my vision**dark**.. I staggered, slowly losing my consciousness. Ohhh shit my anemia disease!

Andri Yang - illustration