The Story of the Heart - Ellie's Journey
My angel

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- For those of you who are heartbroken at being abandoned, let's go with pride and an upright head. - Ellie - Ellie

Point of view Ellie,

I was silent listening to every word of the song that Andri was singing. Her voice is soft and sweet. Very calm and deep.

My tears came out at the end of my eyes. Not sad anymore because of Lee. Nope.

I was just moved, every word in the song was so touching and relevant to my current situation. And the way Andri looked at me while singing, as if I wanted to understand that life is not always beautiful, but everything will be fine in the end. Because I have a "house" that is the one who loves me . And there are people crying with me.

'And i.' The last word in the song. Andri, does that mean??

Yeah, he's my angel he's my savior. Lee is certainly his demon in this matter.

I like the way it amuses me. Very sincere and not patronizing.

I applaud Andri.

He smiled "My voice is not very good, but the song is good, right?"

"Two - two is good. I want to play guitar. I want to learn ah".

Mode! That word crossed my mind. Is this my mode of getting close to Andri? No, I really want to learn. I defended myself.

"Want I teach you?"

Yup! Mau. mau. mau.. tuh is your mode Ellie! Why am I so happy? That's right Ellie. Just half an hour ago you were crying because Lee in front of Andri again! Twice even!

I'm nyesel.. Zero is the possibility of Andri there is a sense of me, even a little will not exist.

"Will Andri teach me? Is there time? I'll take some nicotine"

Cuih. stay said no need. Papa and sister can be all taught. Ellie's... Ellie's...

Very easy for you. Your heart still calls Lee.. Lee has dared to dare tease the guy again. Ckckck.. I know that, but said mommy if heartbroken because the medicine guy is a guy again. I always had a reason to defend myself.

"Okay, I've got plenty of time too." She smiles.

Tuh. Andri won't be tempted by a little girl like me. His taste must be high. Beautiful adult women for sure. Not a childish girl who cries with snot because of another guy. It's okay, I need Andri for now. Her mature figure makes me comfortable and protected. As a sister, I don't think.

"Thank you Ka Andri, teach me later".

He nodded and rubbed my head.

Andri kept the guitar in its place, then browsed through the books on the shelf.

I remember not turning on my phone. "Bentar ka". I went to my room to get my phone. Then light it up while walking outside again.

Notification Incoming messages popping up. And there's some misscall. Of Lee's most numerous numbers, Caca and several unknown numbers.

I remember Lee, I was worried about him too. Wanna see the situation. Even though he's my best friend's husband-to-be . He was the man I loved the most. Even up to this second maybe, and there will always be a place in my heart for Lee. Dark clouds covered my heart again.

"Why Li?" Ask Andri. Maybe he noticed the change in my face.

"I remember Lee" I replied.

"You want me to see him ?" Andri asked cautiously as if waiting for the possibility of me exploding again.

I'm weighing it for a minute. Am I ready? I asked myself.

Like I know my mind. Andri said "Sooner or later it's good to meet Lee, get everything sorted out. So that you can be at peace with yourself. Maybe meeting her will make you emotional and cry again. But that way it will make all of it not hang, right? Maybe you can find out the things you want to know and feel relieved. Even if it might feel scary".

He stopped for a second. " Are you afraid of hearing things you don't want to hear Ellie?"

I'm nodding.

"But you deserve to know the reality, which will make your decision about how to go forward." He walked over to me.

"I just want you to know, I'll be right next to you going through all the. But I don't want your meaning. If you feel you are not ready. I'm ready to drop you off anytime. Even ready to beat up Lee if you want to". Andri smiled ignorantly but her smile gave me goosebumps. I don't know why.

"Don't ka, hahaha .. I don't want Ka Andri involved like that. I hit him in my shadow. That's enough I said."

"Well, how's Caca?"

"You're amazingly good Ellie, when it looks like Caca stole your girlfriend. And that shows he probably doesn't care how you feel".

"Ga anyone can steal someone is actually Ka. They want to get married, of course Lee also agrees. Lee is not a child. By ignoring my feelings, and Lee's promise. Actually they have the right to do that. I'm just his ex, open up to nobody. Actually, I always knew that the human heart is easy to change. Maybe I was too naive. "

"You're Caca's best friend, that's not pantes. Caca shouldn't have done..- "Andri stopped his words. "I'm sorry, I'm not even saying this to you."

"Hahaha ga what ka, thanks to my side. Come on, let me see Lee?"

I finally ventured.

"You sure?"

"Yes, sure". I nodded steadily.

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After resting for a while, compressing my eyes. I took another shower and prepared to go see Lee and check my health at the hospital where Lee was being treated.

Earlier Andri called the hospital and confirmed the schedule of the doctor who used to treat me and registered my name. The doctor who treated me was Lee's hospital doctor. He used to recommend Lala to me. Besides doctor Lala being the best family general practitioner, Lee also prefers I get checked out by a female doctor. And if I get sick, Lee will take me to Lala's doctor.

Okay enough to remember the Lee.

I'm reflecting. A little better, the volume in my eyes had diminished a lot than the last time I cried.

Andri said first to go on business. I'm not good at keeping him in custody.

I told Andri I'd go alone or with Mama. But he banned me. And insisted on driving me.

I'm grateful, actually I really want Andri to drive me. So, if there's anything like I'm crying again. It's better that Andri sees it, not Mama. Because my family doesn't know what happened to me.

Andri promised to pick me up at 15:00 . Because Dr. Lala practices at 16:30 and I get the starting number for the patient sequence. Then I'll look at Lee.

It's still 14:05, and I've got the courage to send Caca a message.

'I'll see Lee, what floor is he being treated for? What time is it?'

I pressed the send button.

I waited, but I was not answered. I'd better eat a little bit I thought. Not because of hunger. But I don't want to faint again.

I went down to the first floor, my mama was making an order with two employees who were helping her.

Mama: "Ellie, eat donk first?! Did the medicine meet? Let's go to the doctor. Wait for Papa to come home."

Me: "Ga do mah, Ka Andri will anther Ellie. Skalian wants to see Lee". I said as I chewed the fried banana at the table.

Mom: "Wow...ehem". Mama ogling.

Me: "Maaaaaa.. what the hell?"

Mama: "Eh you said Andri how is Li?"

Me: "Where's what?"

Mama got me rice and side dishes, "eat rice! Abyssine! "

"Yes yes." I said.

My sisters came home from school. After washing their hands, they sat at the table. I brought rice for them too. We ate together.

"An-jiiir, Kaka's eyes why ?" My middle sister, Emily, said.

"Why?" My youngest brother, Edwin, looked at me curiously. And spit out the rice while laughing.

"Good, you bastard sister". I said. Trying to keep my voice calm, but my heart shrinks. Do I have to look at Lee? Everyone will notice my eyes.

emily and Edwin-Edwin