The Angel of Time
chapter 53

Chapter 53

Instantly everything becomes seemingly unkind, beyond belief this will happen. My stomach was getting hot, my heart was pounding irregularly, the more anxiety made me unable to calm down. Everything has happened, I would love to be able to turn back time, but it will never happen. Tonight I will find it hard to close my eyes.

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There are many things I would like to explain to him, but maybe it will not be able to change the assumptions of the reality he has witnessed with his eyes. Very deviant from what I have prepared about this story journey.

My body felt even more vibrating as I looked at the clock that was stuck to the wall. The time showed at 14.47 WIB, my heart was beating faster but it felt like the body was starting to feel weak. I have no other reason to break down his doubts on me. At the end of the day ready or not, I have to convince him to come back.

Bruk bruk..

The sound of hurriedly walking shoe steps sounded in my ears. The voice stopped right beside my left, I turned to my left, and I was very agitated to see Astrid there taking the presence in. I kept looking at her sweet face, I'm sure she knew I was looking at her, but unfortunately she didn't care about it. He passed by without looking at me. It felt like I wanted to call him, but what power if my tongue was suddenly stiff not struggling to start a conversation.

"My Gio Hp..!"

I heard Astrid's voice calling me from behind me. With fear I turned my body against him, he stood up and his right hand thrust out my phone. I immediately opened my phone card and I took it.

"I'll talk later." I said slowly,

Astrid simply fell silent without responding to my words, the very cold attitude she showed me. I'll wait until he's done. I should be able to melt his attitude that might have been frozen.

All right, I'll think about it after this. I'll sleep waiting for him to finish. My work hours are over, I'm getting into mes. Opened my facebook that I haven't logged out yet. I opened the inbok, I looked for Eka's name in that inbok, then I opened the message, I started to delete the whole conversation and I regretted even more, why didn't I do this in the first place.

I opened the mes room door a little so I could see him on the move. But hearing his cheerful voice and his laughter, the more my heart began to slice, there was laughter for them, for the friends around him, but there was no such laughter for me. I was afraid of losing the laughter he used to give, I was afraid of losing my closeness to him, I felt I already had his heart, but not his person.

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"I want to talk first." I said,

"Nothing needs to be said." she replied,

"I can explain!"

"No need, I already know that. If you still want her back please." Astrid said turning her face away,

"No.. I didn't want to go back with him." I tried to convince him,

"The photo in the inbok is still stored, you still expect it" Astrid said,

"No, I forgot to delete it!" I said,

"I don't believe that. If you want to go back with that woman please. I don't give a shit! Looking at that photo, it feels like I want to send a bomb for you two. The picture explains everything" Astrid said,

"That's it.. Let me back off, I won't bother you, let me go" Astrid said,

"No, don't go." I tried to hold him back, I didn't want to end up pathetic, if he left I didn't want to because of my mistake,

"I don't know who you are, I can't guess your mindset." Astrid's wearing a helmet, though,

"Wait.. Don't go home yet." I tried to prevent it, though,

"I'm sleepy, need a break, tomorrow there's still activity." Astrid turns on her motorbike and leaves,

I could only see it pass, there was no bright spot of this conversation. Tomorrow will be what I can only lament my negligence. "Let me go.." The words kept me thinking about it. The hope of going through time with him had me hanging high, beginning to crumble. A sense of despair, a loss of spirit began to envelop my mind.