The Angel of Time
chapter 32

Quite grateful because our outlet is quite crowded buyers. All the order notes I have prepared as best I can. My position is checker, I must be able to get used to fast and meticulous movements to ensure that the order is not exchanged or wrong in preparing. What else I do not want to lose to Riko who is also a checker one, I consider it a rival because it will make me continue to try to exceed it. I always motivate myself by assuming the other partner is a rival, competing healthily. It will keep me growing.

Astrid, who usually goes to work at the cashier, is currently in the bartender, preparing and making drinks for consumers. Though the condition is crowded but I see he is so excited and cheerful.

"Yeeeayyy my iced tea is over!!" Astrid cried out with great joy, whereas others were confused when the iced tea ran out. The point is not to run out of stock when many buyers. But Astrid made us all laugh. His funny behavior and tone of speech always make the atmosphere becomes not too bad.

"Sir Matin my iced tea runs out.. I like it in bartenders!"

"Don't run out, later if there is another order you don't keteter lho mbak" said Mas Matin with a smile.

Sometimes I help Astrid deliver drinks on order. Even when I'm on the checker, or I'm on the bartender, it's very rare to help Astrid. They prefer to help other children. I understand, not because he does not want to help, but let there be no impression of romance in the work.

Several times I delivered food to consumers, I saw there was a woman who I thought was almost similar to Dita. I just looked at it and passed. I walked up in front of Astrid.

"In front there is something similar to Dita" I said. Astrid looked at me astonished, maybe she didn't quite understand what I was saying, because she was busy making drinks.

"Well what?" Astrid didn't understand, and wanted to be clear.

"Say in front there's a beautiful girl who looks like a rich Dita!" suddenly, Agus explained. As I recall I didn't say pretty rich Dita.

Astrid fell silent and averted her gaze, her countenance changing. Astrid carried a drink and passed past me without even glancing at me. I was wondering why the look in his eyes changed when Mr. Agus explained to Astrid.

Ah maybe my feelings are the ones that think she's changed. I went back to my job room, and continued my work. How many times Astrid talked to others, but did not answer my jokes. I started to get nervous about what was happening. This feeling bothered me in my state that should be focused.

I approached Astrid, she turned her face away and left. I was getting clueless, my mind was directionless, and my mind was really\troubled by that attitude. Is he angry, so what's my fault?

I tried to chase him to the one who had just passed in front of me with eyes still turned. I tried to hold her hand, she tried to let go. Several times I tried to ask what happened, he stayed silent, and tried to stay away from me.

"So get out of the way" Astrid said. I held her hand which was taking ice.

"Why you?" my many. Astrid remained silent without speaking.

I tried to recall the events before they started to change. I remember what I said. Yeah, talk about something similar to Dita. Is she jealous because I remember Dita's face better? It doesn't seem like it.

"You're upset because I said there's something similar to Dita?" I tried asking back.

"What to say beautiful?" answer Astrid.

"Beautiful? I didn't say pretty."

"So Mr. Agus said that you said beautiful rich Dita. Yes, you are dating Dita!"

Astri avoids by looking for other activities. Shit, how could I possibly talk about it here, we're at work. But, this would bother me a lot if it wasn't explained. Very unprofessional, but he's the one who can calm me down anyway. I keep trying to explain to him.

"I didn't say Dita was pretty."

"Udahlah, you approach Dita aja. Same relationship with Dita."

"No! I just want to be with you."

"No way, you're complimenting another girl. This is the reason I still hang with her, she never compliments the other girls in front of me."

"I swear, I didn't say pretty looks like Dita."

"We are beautiful. If you like it, go after him."

"You believe Mr Agus, if I say so?"

"Eitherway. Don't bother me, I'm working."

I'm confused how to explain, I've been honest with him, but still he doesn't trust me. Maybe it's a little crazy, but I have to make him believe. Even if it'll scratch my hand. I took the usual knife to slice the orange. Quite pointed but I don't know if it's sharp or not, if sharp yes let it be.

I clasped the knife, and I showed it to Astrid. Quite noticeably that the blade was indeed sharp, I wonder how Astrid reacted when I did this.

His eyes were round, and he looked at me sharply. I think he'll arrest me and worry about me. "Don't be stupid" he said. Beyond a doubt, I thought he would say things that he might feel anxious about.

"I don't know your way of thinking!" said.

"I just want you to believe" I said.

"I don't really know you!"

Where is this conversation going? I don't understand what he's saying. Was he disappointed in my actions? I became a fool because my heart became clouded. I put the knife back. My mind is trying to digest what I'm talking about.

I was silent, regretting what happened. Is this entirely my fault? Ah it doesn't seem. But what if he believes what Agus said? Does he trust her more? Then all this time, has he not put his trust in me? I hate myself why I can't make him believe me. Until he finally silenced me, he played a song from Gheisa with the title If Love Him.

I understand this song hints at what he wants to say. If love is honest with me, it's the lyrics that make me feel like he's gonna walk away from me. Is his jealousy this big? Then, wouldn't he if jealousy meant loving me? But why did he tell Fajar? Did he compare me? It's insanity. I'm still me, I'm gonna prove that this is gonna be good again. Even though he's silencing me right now.