My Bow to the Destiny of Love
Ardian is stubborn

Meanwhile...

Amira sits languidly on the floor after texting Tina. Her tears are flowing. Almost eight months he left his homeland just to avoid the heartache he would get.

He didn't turn on the Chayra or anyone else for this. He only needed to become stronger again for the greatest possibility ahead of him.

She will marry the man of her parents' choice. Successful men with a myriad of achievements. When compared to that man, it was obvious that Ardian was very far below that man.

But love is love. Nothing can change a person's feelings except the Most Willing. Not looking at looks, not looking at performance. That's how Amira feels right now. He can't forget Ardian as depraved as that guy. No matter how bad he was in the past, Ardian was still number one in his heart. She was so happy to hear that Ardian had changed into a better person. However, it was sudden that the sense of happiness disappeared in an instant after the man contacted him a few days ago. Especially after Ardian said that he fell in love with Chayra Azzahra.

Who wouldn't fall in love with that girl. The girl who always smiled softly and spoke politely. Always do good to anyone regardless of race or tribe.

"Keep up the servant of Allah.. What am I going to do now. Hiks. hiks... hiks.." Sitting at the foot of his bed. In three days she will be engaged to the man. So far, no feelings have grown between them. The Arabian man named Hashim was too perfect for a former woman m***** as he was. Various reasons he told Papi and his mother to reject the man. However, both of his parents did not. They keep saying that Amira fits Hashim well.

Amira was only worried about her situation. Until now, none of his family members knew that he was no longer a virgin.

Some not the past, Papinya proudly introduced her to abi and umminya Hashim as a prayer woman. Far from the real truth. That is the burden on his mind until now.

Amira wiped her tears as she got up. He almost forgot that today there was a meeting with the Hashim family. Her mother always demanded her to look perfect in front of her future husband's family. Although Amira actually wanted to reject the wishes of her mother.

Amira stared at the reflection of her face in front of the mirror. His eyes look a little puffy. How his eyes are not so big. Ever since Ardian called her that day, Amira has been crying for no reason.

Amira opened her dresser drawer. Applying thick makeup under her eyes to disguise the rest of her cries.

A knock on the door of her room made Amira stop her activities. "Who..?" slightly raise his voice. Because the distance of the door with the place sitting is quite far.

"The great guest has arrived, Miss."

Amira took a deep breath. Ready not ready, inevitably, he has to stay out. "Tell me Papi and Mami, if I'm going down in ten minutes."

"Good, Miss."

Amira contemplates. Breathe deeply a few times. She had promised herself to explain her situation to her future husband before the marriage contract took place. "Bismil was bornrahmanirrahim." he said lirih while moving out of the room.

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That night, about two in the morning.

Chayra's a bit of a joke on top of her alphabet. Actually, he was very tired of this situation. Pretend to be happy and give more attention to people he does not expect at all.

However, as hard as she tried to avoid her husband. So strong is Ardian trying to always be there for him and trying to be close to his wife.

Chayra raised her hand in the middle of the night. Do'a very solemnly for his good in the future. After praying, he wiped away the tears that kept flowing. His feelings felt calmer after pouring out his grief to the Almighty.

Chayra moved to the front of her desk. There is no intention to sleep again even though time shows it is still midnight. Take the translation of the book of Jaqut and open the chapter of marriage.

Not long after, Chayra was startled by Ardian who suddenly sat down while twitching his head. Chayra only glanced at him without any intention of greeting him.

Ardian was heard cursing and then beristighfar several times. For a few weeks he has survived his condition. But, his dizziness this time really pissed him off.

"What's wrong with Ardian?" Chayra asked without taking her eyes off the thick book she was reading. Just to make small talk so that the man doesn't feel ignored.

"My head is dizzy again. But. Dizziness this time feels very heavy and painful."

"Did Ardian want to see a doctor?"

"No need, I'll take my medicine."

"It is not good to keep the disease. Tomorrow, Brother wants a consultation to remove the object on Big Brother's back. Just consult why Brother often dizzy erratically."

"I'm scared."

"Fear why?"

"I'd better not know what disease I'm suffering from. I don't want to trouble people."

"Don't say that. Now Brother Ardian already has a wife who will accompany Brother."

"What brother do you want now?" Chayra closed the translation book she still held. Breathe deeply as he approached Ardian. "Don't equate the present situation with the past. Where there are no friends to tell stories and complain. Now Brother has me, wife will accompany Brother." Chayra was surprised to hear his own words.

Ardian grabbed the woman's hand. "I. I need you. Never intend to leave me. I will keep trying to be the best man in your eyes."

"Don't force yourself if it hurts. I told Brother a few times. Never change because of me. Change because you need to change. The path of life that Brother traveled before was wrong in the eyes of Religion and. everything is wrong. Nothing useful, right?"

Ardian looked up at Chayra. The way Chayra says it always makes her feel better.

"Tell me to pray as you did. I also want to pray in the third of the night like you did last night. I want to tell God my situation."

Chayra smiled, "Just rest first. Do that if you're healthy."

"I want it now. It's not a disease. But, this is the depraved lust that calls me to meet him again."

Chayra was silent for a moment, "Son, take the water of ablution then. Leaving Ardian, sitting in front of his study desk.

Ardian tried to get up. Although his head felt very heavy, he tried to get stuck. However, it was just about to stand up. He fell on the floor because he could not hold his weight.

"Astagfirullah, be careful Brother." Chayra got up and rushed to help Ardian stand up. "I told you, Brother take a break."

"Help me take the water of ablution." Ardian said, ignoring Chayra's ban.

Chayra breathed a heavy sigh. "Sister is really stubborn. I told you, later if you don't get dizzy anymore."

"Ssttt. Just help me." Ardian tried to get up. With a limp step and aided by Chayra, he made it to the bathroom.

Chayra patiently guided Ardian until the man finished his tahajjud prayer.

"I'll stay, brother. Do'a, confide in Allah. Take out whatever you want to say."

Ardian nodded, "thank you for patiently guiding me."

Chayra just smiled as she passed. Sit back at the study table. Look at Ardian from behind. There was a sense of urgency in his heart seeing the man. A man who tries to push himself to be with him.

'What else do I expect, O God. This guy has really changed. Can't I accept him. This servant is very proud, O Allah. A man who is willing to change and let go of his dark life. Just for the sake of a woman who is not as much faith as I am.'

Chayra wiped her tears. "O Allah, forgive the servant." Lirih.

Ardian got up after he finished his prayer. His eyes are slightly red. Turns out, he was really drifting in a do'a. He went into the dressing room. Get out wearing a full jacket. Take the motor key from its storage. That certainly caught Chayra's attention.

"Where's Ardian going?"

"I'm going out for a second. There are things that cannot be delayed." Ardian intends to go affirm to a woman who has been his subscription all this time. The woman continued to harass him by sending him videos that damaged his morals. There's another Ardian video with him. That's what worries Ardian.

"Tell me, what kind of business is it to be done in the middle of the night like this." Chayra's lips twitched a little. Just now her husband asked to be guided to prayer. Why now even want to go to the forbidden place.

Ardian flipped his body, standing his back to Chayra. "It's my business. I promise, this is the last time I'm gonna be out tonight. I'll just meet him after that I'll go straight home."

Chayra's eyes heat up again to hear Ardian's words. "Then why did Big Brother ask me to teach Big Brother tahajjud that Big Brother still has the intention to return to the forbidden place?!" Chayra raised her voice in annoyance.

"I'll just tell that guy that I'll never see him again. I promise I won't do anything with her."

"We don't know what would happen if men and women were together, sister."

"I told you, I'm just going to do farewell to him."

Chayra swallowed his saliva. "I don't like the stubbornness of this big brother."

"I promise I won't do anything to her. I just don't want her to be expecting me."

"Don't go out to see that woman!" Chayra raised her voice again. "God has prepared the lawful for you. Why are you still looking for the illegal?!" Chayra opened the veil. She took off her headscarf violently and almost unbuttoned her shirt. He sat down on the floor squeezing his clothes. Her tears immediately spilled.

Ardian swallowed his saliva seeing that. "A.. what...what are you doing..?"

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