Memories of Dusk
He Started to Express Feelings

Today and the next week I'm off school to prepare for my final exams. I don't feel like I'm gonna step on what's called the world of college. Hopefully I can graduate at the University I want with a scholarship. I know, maybe my parents could afford to pay me for college. However, I just want to make them happy with the achievements I have.

This afternoon I was bored at home and I went to the park to refresh my brain. So that my heart is a little happy to see the beauty of the flowers there. I sat there alone. And not long after that Dimas came suddenly to me.

"Haii Son." said Dimas who greeted me.

"Hi Dim! why are you here?" ask me about Dimas.

"Your color is here" Dimas told me.

"What the heck is Dim," I said with a little bit of heart.

"There's actually something I want to tell you, Son," Dimas said seriously.

"What's that?" my many.

"But don't be angry" said Dimas.

"Yes." I answered briefly.

"This way we've known for a year or so, " said Dimas who stopped making me curious.

"Haaaa?" I asked with a squeak.

"Emm I'm Son.. akuuu... akuu .. this is Son.." Dimas said nervously and intermittently.

"Why is Dim? kog's nervous anyway?" ask me who is curious.

"This is Sonn.. emmmm apaa .. " said Dimas who was nervous again.

"If you don't say I'm going, too" I said, annoyed.

"I love you." said Dimas who was like a joke.

"Whataaa?" I asked with a surprised face.

"Yes Son! I've been harboring this feeling for a year and I rationed Son so I try to reveal to you. If you don't understand I also don't know why don't break up our friendship ya." said Dimas who looked down sad.

"Emm how well Dim, I can't give you an answer now" I said.

"Yes you don't need to answer now Son, when can you just answer gakpapa kog," said Dimas.

"Thank you Dim already wanted to understand." I said.

"Yes Son if we go home this afternoon," Dimas asked me.

"Yes ayukk." I replied.

We both walked towards the house. I actually have the same feeling as Dimas. Even my heart is not broken right now. Chaos between accepting the love of Dimas or not. I am in love with him, but I am afraid of being hurt and fear that my purpose in the future will be stopped only for love. I was confused as to what steps to take. One side I don't want to lose.

About 10 minutes later Dimas and I reached our homes.

"See you Dim." I told him.

"See you, you take a break right away." said Dimas with attention.

"yes, Dim.." I replied.

I walked into the house and took a shower because it was getting darker. If mom and dad knew I took a shower tonight, they would scold me later. After I finished the bath I tried to contact Liana and ask her for a solution. I was worried and had no way out of this.

Liana picked up my phone.

"Halli Son, what's wrong?" ask Liana.

"I want to tell you a story" I told Liana in an agitated voice.

"Why? you're so nervous about that?" ask Liana.

"Yes, Dimas loves me." I said.

"Keep it?" ask Liana.

"Not yet" I said.

"But you also like him why hasn't he been accepted?" liana said with another question.

"I'm confused Li" I said fretfully.

"Son, you've set this trap for your heart. You already love him," said Liana.

"Yes I know Li, if from the beginning I did not accept friendship with him gakkan gini so," I said.

"Son you must be able to control your heart" Liana told me.

"i know I love him Li, but I also have a dream, I have to lose both" I said.

"Is that the solution?" my many.

"Entar if you meet when you try to give him some questions," said Liana.

"Example?" I asked Liana again.

"You tell him you have a goal to study Abroad, keep asking him if he is ready if you date later you have to part with a considerable distance?" liana.

"That one?" I said by asking again.

"Keep asking if he is ready to be loyal to you, because you are afraid that his name is broken" said Liana.

"Udah?" answer me with a question mark.

"Udahlah Sonya, if you have any other questions yes please ask" said Liana.

"Well if he answers he's capable and ready how is Li?" I asked Liana.

"After that it's up to you to accept him or not, he's answered your questions" said Liana.

"Yes, yes, okay!" my answer.

"One more Son" Liana told me.

"What's thatu?" my many.

"If you accept his love for Dimas, and one day you graduate from college in Turkey I ask you yes, you should focus on your college" Liana said.

"Yes Li, I'll try it out because my goal is more important than anything else" I said.

"Yes, noisily like whatever you are with Dimas do not let you get upset and ignore your lecture ya." said Liana.

"Liana. Thank you, yes" I said.

"Yes, I've closed the phone, yes, I have to have dinner first" said Liana.

"Yes, thank you very much Li" I said.

the phone is closed. Now my heart is a little calm because I got some advice from Liana. Hopefully onward my heart stays like this.

I looked for the wind by opening the window and standing near it. I came out of the window looking at the beautiful sky. There are a lot of stars scattered there. Instantly I was daydreaming without me noticing Dimas was watching me.

"Do you see those stars?" ask Dimas.

"Haaa there you turned out to be Dim, how long has it been there?" I was surprised to see the presence of Dimas.

"It's only been about 10 minutes that I've been here" Dimas said.

"The old donk means," I said.

"Yes so" said Dimas.

"Yes there's something I want to ask you Dim" I said.

"What is Son?" ask Dimas.

"Dim, I have plans to take the scholarship exam in Turkey. If I graduated and we were then, would you like to have a long distance relationship with me? are you loyal to me?" ask me about Dimas.

"Son, I also took a scholarship to study outside, precisely I am in Japan. I promise Son, I will be loyal to you. I can definitely go on a long distance relationship. Because I also have dreams just like you." said Dimas.

"Seriously Dim?" my many.

"Seriously!" answer Dimas.

"Em I give you the answer tomorrow yes.I'm afraid I'm hurt for the first time later." I said.

"Yes papa Son, I understand you will be the first to step for the name of dating" said Dimas.

" Yesudah if so thank you Dim for your understanding" I said.

"Yes, it's your night of rest. It's not good that you're out like this." said Dimas who was very attentive to me.

"Yes you too" I replied.

"Sonyaku's Good Night." said Dimas.

I simply replied with a smile and immediately closed the window of my room.

Late night brought me in a daydream before my sleep began I thought that I was Dimas definitely able to have a long distance relationship. And when we have finished achieving the dream we can meet again to continue the relationship to a more serious level.

Distance is not everything! distance can be overcome with trust and loyalty.

Maybe I should start opening my heart to Dimas