Memories of Dusk
Start There Debaran Love

In friendship there is joy or sorrow. So did I go with Dimas and Liana. It's just that I feel like Dimas and I are getting closer than friends say. Even when I was around him I always felt comfortable. And when he's away from me, I always look for him. I don't understand what this feeling is. But I believe I can condition my heart. It's just that there's one thing I can't condition, which is a beat in my heart!

I'm Liana and Dimas sitting in threes while telling her the next thing that will happen is that we choose our own path after we graduate from High School.

“It doesn't feel like we're 3rd class now. In a moment we will part ways by choosing each path.” said Liana with a sad face.

“Iya nih Li, soon we will not be able to like this.” said Dimas.

“What is certain wherever we are I always pray for success to kitam”.

“Iya now we just focus on our final exam yes.” said Dimas.

“Let us both pass with the best grades. Yes no?” liana.

“Iya donkk..m” I said simultaneously with Dimas.

“Ehh I went to the toilet broke ya.” said Liana.

“Iya don't be long,” said I.

“Son.. You like twilight?” ask Dimas.

“Eemm really likes..” I replied.

“Sometimes we see dusk together yukk.” invite Dimas while holding my hand.

My breath stopped. This heart was pounding so fast when Dimas held my hand.

“Sonn? You kog silent?” asked Dimas who saw me daydreaming.

“Oh yes Dim can kog if you we see twilight together.” I said with a reddened face.

“Why you? Pain?” ask Dimas back to me.

“No. I'm fine,” I told Dimas.

“I think you are sick because you look restless.” said worried Dimas.

“I went to the toilet broke ya..” I said with a fretful and misbehaved face.

I was in such a hurry to get away from Dimas that I stumbled over a rock and nearly fell. But Dimas sparingly helped me until Dimas and I looked very close.

“You're not Papa Son?” ask Dimas.

“Iya I don't papa..” I said by removing the handle Dimas.

“(Yes Allah my heart)..” I said in my heart.

“Thank God,” said Dimas with a flushed face.

“Thank you." I said by walking away from Dimas.

“Huhh, fortunately Sonya does not know that I feel.. This heart beats very fast when close to her.” said Dimas when I left.

I walked so fast that I reached the toilet I let out a long sigh..

“Huhhhhh, why the hell Son. Why is it like this?” I said I was alone in the toilet.

I have to control my heart lest Son fall in love…

I came out of the toilet and went straight to Liana who was chatting with Dimas.

“Hey.. You guys aren't in yet?” ask them.

“Iya I want to go to class,” said Dimas.

“So let's Li go to class too.” take me to Liana.

“Son, later go home with me yes.” invite Dimas.

“Eemm no need Dim! I'm with Liana.”.

“I'll exkul today,” said Liana.

“Loh but you said you did not excul today.” I said while treading Liana time.

“Duhhh hurts!” liana said slowly.

“You don't excre Li?” ask Dimas.

“Gak Dim, again not feeling well hehe.” said Liana with a small smile lipped.

“It is so. I first entered class well,” said Dimas.

“okey..” answer.

After Dimas had gone a fair distance away from where Liana and I were, Liana started to look me in the eye and she wanted an explanation..

“Sonn?” call Liana slowly.

“Should, you made me skip my exkul today.” Liana said.

“I can't if only the two are the same him.” I said to Liana.

“What's the reason Son?” liana asked as she walked towards the classroom.

“My heart thumped nearby.” I said plainly.

"Hahaaaaa..” Liana laughed very strongly.

“Ihh you fuck sihh!” I said in an annoyed tone.

“You're weird to know. That's the name you fell in love.” said Liana.

“love? And I can't fall in love. Can't!” kataku.

“Son, can I say something?” liana asked with a stalled step.

“What is it?” my many.

“You can still achieve your dreams even if you fall in love.” Liana said.

“But I don't want my mind divided by Li.” I replied.

"You said you wanted to study abroad, right? You said you wanted to go to Turkey?” liana.

“Iya anyway indeed,” I said.

“Well if you were the same Dimas and you graduated from college outside, you separated from him by a long distance relationship. Well that's what will make you more focused for your career Son. When long distance relationship with Dimas,” said Liana.

“But if Dimas could not stand my long separation how?” I asked Liana.

“As you once told me Son. Means he doesn't really love you,” Liana said.

“Iya Li you are right. Yesterday I was able to advise you, but why can't I advise myself.” I told Liana.

“Son, the photo that you should remember your goals and your dreams. After you are both successful later you can meet again and continue your relationship to a more serious level.” said Liana.

“You're right Li, I should be able to do this all, should!” my spoken.

Liana and I walked to class and took the final lesson. The clock has shown at 14:00 Wib and the time to go home from school. Liana and I went home to rest. We're going to take a week off at home before our final exams.

****

When I got home, I took a shower and took a break. But the knock on the door made my eyes open again when I was about to fall asleep.

Tok tock….

“Iya yes briefly,” said me while getting off the top of the bed.

“What's bu?” my many.

“Come down we dinner.” take mom.

“Iya I'm down in a minute,” I replied.

A few minutes later I went out and headed straight to the dinner table. I sat down and took my food.

“Son, did you study in Turkey?” ask dad to me.

“so well.” I replied briefly.

“Dad and mother have prepared funds for you there.” continued mother.

“I want to try scholarship well, ma'am.”.

“But father and mother can afford you Son. Why should I get a scholarship?” ask mommy.

“I just want to be the best for you dad, Mom.”.

“Nak, you don't need to be like that.” said father slowly.

“Dad, I'm your only child I just want you to be proud to have me.”.

“Son, listen to mom and dad.” mom said to me.

“Mother please. Allow me to just get together to prove that I do not always trouble you guys.” I said.

“Okay dad and mom will allow you to take that scholarship test. If you don't pass you have to follow what dad and mom said yes.” my dad told me.

“Good father I agree.” I replied with a small smile.

“You've finished eating, you rest there mom see you are very tired.” pinta mom while cleaning my dinner plate.

“Iya mother..” I said with a smile.

I left the dining table and went into the room to rest. I can no longer close my eyes. Only the shadow of him kept coming towards me. He's like a lantern that always lights up in the dark! Dimas! For the first time I fell in love and this is for you. Of the many men who wanted to get me, it was you who managed to take my heart. I want to keep this love in my heart. Until I know if you have the same feelings as me.