Memories of Dusk
This Love is No longer Yours

After meeting Satya in his office I went home and arrived at the house at 6 pm I checked my phone and found some incoming messages from whattsapp and unknown number.

Incoming message :

“Hai Son how are you? It's been 4 years. Do you still remember me? I want to see you tomorrow. Do you have time? Dimas,”

I didn't think it was Dimas. I was so surprised to read the message. I let my HP go without replying to the message. But Dimas kept calling me. I've forgotten her since she broke my heart. Why he should be back in my life. Can't he see me living happily with my current feelings. I tried to get myself to reply to the message.

“what do you want to see me?” reply with ketus.

“there's something I want to talk to you about important.” Dimas replied.

“oke we meet at caffe near my home first,” reply.

“oke at 2pm yes.” reply Dimas.

I just read the message, I wonder what she wants to talk to me about. He wanted to give me an invitation letter. I've let it go, I can forget it anyway I'll be strong tomorrow to meet him.

That day came.I will meet with Dimas today after 4 years he just dumped me and prefer others. I arrived at the cafe at exactly 2 p.m. And Dimas was waiting there.

“Dimas...” call me as I sit in front of him.

“Hai Son, how are you?” ask Dimas.

“I'm good,” I replied briefly.

“Thank God I'm happy to hear it.” said Dimas.

“What are you taking me to meet?” ask me about Dimas.

“I want to explain something to you,” said Dimas.

“Iya please,” I said briefly.

“Son, I chose Zarra back then because I felt Zarra was always by my side when I needed someone, when you were away from me. And I'm comfortable with him.” said Dimas.

“Then?” ask me cynically.

“Then I realized that Zarra was just a place to vent Son, I love you so much. Even this 4 years I have not been able to forget you Son.” said Dimas.

“Terus?” answer again.

“I want to fix everything with you. I want us to be the same as Son,” said Dimas holding my hand.

“You think I'm Dim's stuff.. After you drop it you can pick it up again for reuse,” I said firmly.

“I know Son, I did this wrong. I'm sorry, but I love you so much there is no woman like you in this world Son.” Dimas said apologizing to me.

“Sorry Dim.. I can't fix this relationship" I said clearly.

“One chance Son,” said Dimas who kept pleading.

“I can't Dim,” I said.

“What's the reason you can't fix all this?” ask Dimas.

“The color of my heart and love is already falling apart Dim. Like a glass that falls and breaks, it is difficult to return to its original shape.” I told Dimas.

“Son, I just want to be able to come back with you. I know you still love me, right?” said Dimas

“You're wrong.. This love is no longer yours,” answered me by looking into Dimas's eyes.

“Is there anyone else you love now?” ask Dimas.

“There Dim. Someone who has repaired my broken heart, and recovered the pain I felt so far.” I told Dimas.

“Who? If there is any reason why you are not married?” ask Dimas.

“Color of love should not be in Dim's possession, he is not mine. But my love belongs to him, he is the reason I can forget you all this time.” I said clearly.

“I'm sorry, I want us to be together like we used to be,” Dimas said.

“It's too late Dim,” I said.

“Wait Son,” said Dimas who pulled my hand.

“Least Dim.. I have to go,” I said firmly.

“I will not let go of my hand grip Son, before you want to come back with me.” said Dimas who began to force.

“I just need you not another,” said Dimas.

“Please Dimas!” I said, starting to scream.

I tried my hardest to let go of that grip, but Dimas' hand was too strong to hold me until my wrist was red, as I struggled to let go and suddenly Satya came to my aid.

“Lepasin..” said Satya by pulling my hand from Dimas's.

“Still Yes Sat,” my word to Satya.

“Who are you?” ask Dimas.

“Whose business do you have. But I don't like you treating Sonya so harshly. You see, his hands until this red,” said Satya who was very angry.

“Whatever I do to him, it's none of your business.” said Dimas.

“Sonya's business is obviously my business.” said Satya who had started to get emotional with Dimas' behavior.

“Sat, Sat let's go back. You don't have to take care of him.” I said by inviting Satya to go home.

“Not.... His actions cannot be justified.” said Satya.

“Oh so you want to come back because of me!” said Dimas who started the emotion.

“You think I'm scared... Here come with me,” said Satya who pulled Dimas' hand out of the caffe.

I tried to chase after them and tried to quiet their emotions so as not to fight.

“Satya already Sat, I don't want you to fuss with him.” I said with Satya's hand.

“You move aside Sonya. I will teach the people who dare to be rude to you.” said Satya who let go of my hand.

“Forward lo...” said the challenging Dimas.

“Satya.. Don't please,” said I begged Satya not to quarrel with Dimas.

“Why fear lo...” said Dimas again who lured Satya.

“You think I'm afraid of men like you.” Satya told Dimas.

“Satya please listen to me this time. I don't want you to have problems because of this,” said I who was holding Satya's hand tightly.

“Son, you're why he's so. You like him,” said Dimas.

“Not your business...” says.

“Let's go home Sonya,” take Satya to me.

“Coward lo...” says Dimas to Satya.

“I'm better at being called a coward than I have to see Sonya crying because of my actions.” Satya said firmly.

Satya finally fell and wanted to come home with me. I'm glad I didn't see him fighting with Dimas. However, like her Satya was very angry at me.

“Why did you meet him?” satya asked in an angry tone.

“She wants to talk to me.” I replied.

“Son, you can endanger yourself. He's crazy,” said Satya.

“I don't know Sat if this happens. I met him because just to respect him,” I said clearly to Satya.

“Continue? You went alone to meet him? You should take me..” said Satya.

“Sat I don't want to bother you continue,” I replied.

“Son, you mean more than anything. If you were then why-why I would feel guilty for life because it can not keep you.” said Satya with an annoyed tone.

“I'm sorry Sat, I was wrong.” I said with a down.

“Other times you don't sell this all yes. I don't like you like this! Reckless, take your own decision.” said Satya.

“Iya Sat, I'm sorry ya.”.

Satya was still silent, I had never seen Satya this angry. I understand that he was very worried about me and I know that what I did was wrong and could be dangerous to myself.