Before we split up
Chapter - 27th

Ayunda was tired and weak, he wanted to give up on the fatigue that plagued him.

Ayunda lets Nindyra in, after the girl stands at her door and yells that she will call the police if she does not open the door to prove that she is still alive.

He opened the door and faced the shock and anger of Nindyra who found herself still wearing pajamas from the previous night, with puffy eyes and tangled hair

"Baj*ngan did this to you! I told you never to approach her again, she can only hurt you" Nindyra said, venting all her emotions.

Ayunda tried to explain that Samudra was not baj*ngan, although what had been done by the Ocean hurt her heart but she did not like if anyone said bad things to her husband.

Nindyra sat in front of Ayunda, she was silent for a while, and listened to Ayunda speak.

"All you have to do, let's eat!! Your body needs energy"

Nindyra brought the soup and heated it while Ayunda cleaned herself in the bathroom, Nindyra refused to leave until the bowl was half empty.

"Later I will come again to check your condition," Nindyra kissed Ayunda's cheeks "I will handle all the exhibition business, you just rest." then Nindyra left the Ayunda residence.

Ayunda was alone again, as she wished. Other than solitude, there was nothing to prevent his mind from reminiscing all the moments of his fellowship with the Ocean. All the opportunities that failed to be achieved, when he refrained from parting but instead succumbed to the temptation of the pleasures that the Ocean offered.

Ayunda wanted to sleep, but somehow the shadow as the Ocean hugged her was too heavy to bear. But in the end, his eyes closed and his head leaned against the arm of the sofa, and he gave himself to a feeling of numbness.

Shortly afterwards three loud bangs sounded at the door jolting Ayunda to make Ayunda move from his sofa while holding his sleeping robe in a daze. For a moment, a fog of confusion separated him from reality, but then the pounding was heard again.

Ocean.

The ocean shouldn't have come, but when Ayunda thought of that, her heart was racing.

"Open the door, Ayunda!" The words sounded heavily past the wooden panels separating them, giving him a warning that the Ocean had exhausted its patience. After undergoing a one-hour flight, coupled with everything the Ocean did in order to fly, the man must have exhausted his patience.

Ayunda put the key in, and was just about to turn the handle when the Ocean had opened the door, grabbed her hip, and carried her into her residence, but she did not forget to close the door with her feet.

Ayunda was jolted by that unexpected movement, also upon seeing the exhausted expression of the Ocean. Ayunda gripped the sleeve of the Ocean shirt to find balance. "What are you doing here? I said you didn't have to come everything's been taken care of by the lawyer."

“I know,” Samudra said, while lowering Ayunda in the corner of the room.

Ayunda's heart was pounding, his throat stiffened from too many emotions felt in the past few hours. “Then what are you here for?”

The ocean smiled bitterly at him. "Come on. Like you don't know?"

"Solution," replied Samudra, loosening the tie and unbuttoning the shirt underneath. "What was our goal from the beginning."

"You mean?" ask Ayunda.

"I want to ask for my right, before our divorce hearing on the title next week."

"No" protested Ayunda.

The Ocean's fingers stopped at the fourth button, his dark eyes narrowed as Ayunda stared at the shoulder of the field of pure white skin and a hint of chest hair that had been revealed.

"It's okay? I'm still entitled to you?" said Samudra, while resting one hand on the wall next to Ayunda's head. Locking the Ayunda without touching it at all.

The sound of the ocean getting heavier, getting slower and more dangerous. "I can't touch you or 'no' which means don't stop until I hold you tight and make you scream my name?"

Ayunda exhaled angrily and sneered, without giving any response.

Ayunda's fist clenched at the side of her body was now tightly stuck to the belly of the Ocean.

“I want you, Ayunda..” The finger of Samudra touches lightly down the side of Ayunda's neck, following the silk collar of Ayunda's sleeping robe to the tip of V at the bend of Ayunda's neck.

The ocean hooked her finger on the robe and kept pulling it until it revealed the ring of naked breasts*ra Ayunda, then the thumb of the Ocean rubbed the top of her breast* which hardened, forcing Ayunda's lips to groan.

Ayunda could not resist the pleasure that the Ocean gave her, the satisfaction throbbing in Ayunda's ears as thick and warm passion melted from the center of her body. "Why didn't you ask the woman?" Ayunda whisper.

Both of Ocean's hands were already on his body, cupping his enlarged breasts*, one was still covered in silk, the other was naked. Smooth silk and rough Ocean skin blend contrast in sensual harmony, attracting curiosity at its sensitive point. "Give me tonight" whispered the Ocean.

Ayunda's hand gripped tightly against the side of the Ocean shirt, as soon as he wanted this, perhaps even more than the Ocean wanted.

The ocean pulls the hair at the nape of Ayunda, pulling Ayunda's head back so that Ayunda has no choice but to accept her gaze. “I want to say goodbye. Don't you want to say it to me, too?”

While staring at the Ocean, Ayunda's throat stiffened and suddenly he blinked due to the sting of tears.

“Ya,” whispered Ayunda hesitated, while caressing the face of the Ocean with the palm of her hand. Then more boldly let his fingertips trace the curves of the face of the man he loved. To remember the tip of the Ocean's pointed nose, his high cheekbones, and his thick eyelashes.

The ocean closed its eyes, the tense feeling in its body seemed to weaken with its breath and then stiffen again into something new.

The pull on Ayunda's hair tightened, slowly bringing his head back to the back until Ayunda opened to the Ocean, exposed and waiting for a kiss from the Ocean.

The gaze of the Ocean drifting away from the position of Ayunda in front of him, the Ocean breathed a calm and controlled breath. “When I hugged you tonight, I knew this for the last time. I'll take my time with you.”

As if to give emphasis, Samudra lowered his head in Ayunda's mouth and licked a soft*t around Ayunda's lips, then Samudra slipped his tongue, filling Ayunda's mouth little by little until Ayunda's body shuddered.

The rough thrust of Ocean's tongue again fills Ayunda's mouth, followed by the friction of the teeth in her jaw, neck, and a point below Ayunda's ear.

Samudra's hand moves to Ayunda's hip, preparing Ayunda to receive her already hardened passion. "Prepare!! There's not an inch of your body that I don't taste and touch."

Desire rippled within Ayunda, making her breath gasp, her hands trying to reach out, unbuttoning the remaining buttons on the Ocean shirt, he said, it then went down to the bottom struggling with a belt and zipper until Ocean caught his wrist and pulled him out of the guest room of the Ayunda residence.

In Ayunda's room, Samudra stripped her and Ayunda's body naked. "Gosh, Ayunda, I want to make you mine once again.”

Ayunda closed his eyes when the body of the Ocean pressed him, every time he would start making love always started with pain, especially when the Ocean hit him with the weight of the body of the Ocean all over his body.

Usually when the body of the Ocean continues to press, the fingers of Ayunda flailing the wide back of the Ocean, moving to and fro, and asking the Ocean to hold for a while or move slowly.

But tonight is different. Holding onto the sturdy and broad shoulders of the man she loved, she realized that every passing second would draw them closer to separation. He wanted to enjoy the weight of his body, he wanted to remember the heartbeat and dampness of the Ocean skin, as well as the embrace of the Ocean.

But only a few times a jolt, the Ocean pushed with one elbow and rolled to its side. Warm hands tucked into Ayunda's back as those sharp, shady brown eyes stared at him. "Are you okay, Ayunda?"

“Ya.” Ayunda's lips trembled as she tried to smile at the Ocean, confirming that the Ocean was indeed true. That Ayunda wanted this separation, but her facial muscles rebelled, refused to submit or obey lies she did not understand.

These are the last moments of the dream he once imagined would last forever.

"Maybe this doesn't have to end, Ayunda. It's a mess, but have you really thought about it?"

Ayunda had thought about it, it was too beautiful to end, and too beautiful to stop. A clump of emotion clogged his throat as he began to force out words he did not want to say. "Since the beginning of your arrival in Jogja, haven't we agreed to end it? The relationship that is now only until tonight. We've tried to live in marriage, but look, we failed right?”

Samudra stroked Ayunda's hair gently, then he kissed Ayunda's eyebrows. "Right" The sound of choking breath filled the space between them.

Ayunda closed her eyes, swallowing all the lies that forced her to let go.

While shaking his head, he whispered, “I don't know how.”

All he knew was that his heart was breaking at every beat of his heart and he was afraid to let himself fall too deep, that he would not be able to reunite the pieces.

The ocean cupped her cheeks, sweeping her thumb against Ayunda's skin that was teary-eyed "No one gets divorced without hurting her feelings. Even if the heart had been injured for a decade, it would still not have healed it. It won't be easy.”

“No. It's not gonna be easy. It won't be easy.”

Ocean kisses soft lips Ayunda. Hugging Ayunda while pulling her closer for one last hug.

Then it all ended.