Pura Lupa Temple
Chapter 40

---- - Nadine POV ---------

I saw Alva's bedroom door open and I thought it was a good opportunity to approach him. Samar faintly I heard Alv talking to someone, most likely he was Alex.

"Lex but I don't want to marry Nadine Lex, ga ga ga love her. If the baby is my son, but I don't want to marry him, can he not Lex? Please Lex I don't hate Nadine just I can't love her or rather I don't want to open my heart to her." said Alva whining whine like a child to Alex who remained patiently hugging him, giving calmness.

My heart hurts so much to hear all of Alva's words. Not feeling tears had been spilled over my eyes, I immediately turned around and ran out of Alva's room. Damn .... because my eyes are blurry filled with tears, I accidentally kicked the urn that is near the door of Alva's room.

Prang...... I was so shocked, my eyes met with Alex and Alva, rushed me back to run into my room regardless of them.

In the room I spilled all my heartache and disappointment. I was so happy when I found out that I contained the seeds of Alva, I hope that as time goes by Alva will accept me, it was all just my imagination.

Even when Gaby had let go, Alva was still unable to turn to me. He was even very depressed and unhappy to see the fact that he was going to be a father. It turns out that the story of a man who will be devastated when he finds out that the woman he does not love contains his child is only in soap operas.

I'm really confused how to get on with life if Alva really doesn't want me. Over time the agency will know that I am pregnant out of wedlock. It's certain they'll cancel my contract.

Aaaaaarrrrrrggghhhhh...... I can only cry and cry right now, my parents don't care about me even my own father who knocked me out at first. Oh my God, what should I do.

Tok.....

Chequek.........

"Nadine, hey why cry? I can come in, right?" gaby's head came up from the door asking permission to come in and I did.

"Nad tomorrow we check your content, yes, whatever happens please do not ever think to do something stupid. You must love this child, do not make this child bear the consequences of your mistakes."

I stared fixedly at Gaby, the woman who made Alva unable to turn away. Beautiful problems are tastes but I can say I'm prettier than her, even body problems I'm better. But what's the point of physical beauty if it can't make Alva love me even if she just uses my physique as a lustful gratifier.

"Hey Nad, why are you looking at me like that? Are you angry with me? Are you hurt as Alva says? Sorry Alva yes, understand the situation that all this is heavy for both of you, so enjoy just living with chesty."

I didn't budge still looking at her while thinking what exactly Gaby's purpose was to be kind to Alva who had betrayed her and even to me who was the culprit of all this. What is his heart and mind made of? Or is he just pretending to be good? All the questions and thoughts of negative thoughts were running through my brain.

"Nad..... Nadine do your hear me? Hi.. hello.....Nad's!" I gasped at the call that went up an octav following a pat on my shoulder.

"Eh ... hi.... Gab..." I replied with a trembling voice and a gasp.

Gaby smiled at me, the look on her face was relieved, "Nad you're daydreaming huh? Trust me, I'm not your enemy!"

Tears flowed back with a rush without I can stop, I sobbed my chest sobbing pain once it felt. Gaby hugged and stroked my back.

"I'm sorry.." It's hard to say that one word to me. Gaby just nodded while continuing to stroke my back.

"I was stupid, I used my body to seduce Alva, we never talked about any commitment but I easily gave up my body many times, I thought if I got pregnant then she would accept me giving up on my love."

"But... I heard everything, Alva was depressed, she was frustrated by my presence and my son. This isn't what I want Gab to be, maybe I'm too naive, but I don't just admire Alva, I love her." I keep expressing all the burdens of my mind while crying.

I think revealing everything to Gaby is appropriate because I don't have someone who can be trusted like a brother or a friend. My relationship and friends are intertwined just because of an advantage so they will be there when they need me and vice versa.

"I see and hear everything Gab, how Alva doesn't want me, he just loves you, I really don't mean anything. I know I'm dirty because Alva isn't the first person but I guarantee she's the last one to touch me Gab."

"It's my fault I didn't take the Pill but because I thought I could tie it up with having children. But it turns out I was wrong, whatever I did couldn't make him choose me."

Gaby was still in her position of hugging and stroking me, I stopped talking it was so tired. Seeing me speechless, he took me to sit on the bed and laid down my body.

"Now you are calm, sorry Alva who has not been able to open your heart to you, does not mean she does not accept your children. I'm sure she'll be able to see and feel your sincerity gradually."

"For me Nad, if Alva really loves me then she wouldn't have done that many times with you. Alva just hasn't been aware of her feelings or she's still harboring guilt on me so she won't accept you."

I just kept quiet and tried to think positively about Gaby's words, but my little heart still believed that Alva only loved Gaby so it would not be possible to accept me.

"Gab, why are you so easy to forgive Alva but can't take her back? And why are you so good with me?"

Gaby sighed, probably bored by almost the same questions from others as well, but I was really curious.

"I know that if I'm just making him stop being in contact with any woman, then Alva will, but he did it just for the sake of me not getting angry not because of the realization that if we're committed then we should be able to maintain the attitude of the opposite sex."

"In addition to accepting the fact that you guys are in contact not only twice but repeatedly, I believe he loves me sincerely but cannot take care of himself obviously this relationship is not healthy. I saw your bodies united with my own eyes Nadine, imagine how I could stay with her."

" I'm not an angel, I'm not a saint, I also have a selfish side, and the important point is that I can't accept an Alva like that. Of all the new Alva stories with you Nadine she fell down to involve a physical relationship."

"And I am good to you for no reason I hate you, everything that happens I accept as God's destiny. Maybe his plan for me to come back the same Stanley had to turn first like this."

I understand everything Gaby said, maybe even if I was in her position I could not accept a man who had shared a body with another woman in front of his own eyes. It is evil of my heart to hurt my fellow women just for the sake of seizing the love of men.

I was so tired, crying and putting on a load was exhausting. I'm trying to close my eyes maybe sleeping will make me better.

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It turns out Nadine loves Alva so much, love is not wrong is the way humans get that love. And I can't also force Alva to repay Nadine's love because it's beyond my responsibility.

"Where's Nadine? She must have been sad to hear everything Alva said?" alex asked who was waiting for me to leave Nadine's room. Alex called me right away when they saw Nadine running away from Alva's room and accidentally bumping into a display urn.

"Well, a reasonable reaction actually, especially pregnant conditions must be increased sensitivity Lex. How's alva?"

"He's okay now, you want to see him?"

I nodded and walked into Alva's room.

"Hello Alv.." a sweet smile that a while ago always decorated my day now reappears.

Alva gave me the code to get close to her desk, apparently she was writing the lyrics.

"You've run out of Nadine's check, right? The baby's not papa, is it?" there was a tinge of anxiety in his voice, I think this is a good sign.

"You don't misunderstand Gab, I'm worried about that kid because you're right to say that he's most likely also my son."

I smiled, "Why am I glad you're worried about him. Tomorrow we go to the hospital yuk, check Nadine's womb. Since he's testedpack he hasn't really checked into Obgyn you know."

"Okay, but same with you, right? I don't want to be with him. I always wanted to be angry every time she saw Gab, she made me lose my treasure." Her emotions returned unstable.

"Hei Alv, calm donk. I promise I will help you tomorrow I will wait for you at the Hospital? You're on a 9:30 skitar, I've signed up for Obgyn's clinic."

"Alv promises me to make Nadine sick, if you also enjoy your togetherness with her so you can't be selfish just pinning the blame on Nadine. Every emotion you start to go up, you have to inget the same baby in Nadine's stomach she's your child. Alv's promise?" I stick out my pinkie which is greeted by the pinky link of the Alva.

"Because I promise you I'm sick of him, I accept that he's here just because of you and that kid."

I smiled and nodded in agreement, whatever the reason Alva was important she didn't throw Nadine out. And gradually Alva will be willing to accept them.

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Feelings of Love are never wrong, what is wrong is our way to achieve that sense of Love.

Sometimes God also has to give us a sense of Heartbreak so that we can be separated from the wrong people.

Going and finding Love in others is the right way to get away from the wrong person.

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