Pura Lupa Temple
Chapter 39

---- - Alva POV ---------

It feels like really can't go anywhere because it has to Work From Home gini. I haven't seen Gaby come to see me for a long time, but Nadine is around me every day because Gaby told her to stay in my apartment.

Huft... sucks a lot but I promised Gaby to not be rude to Nadine because she was pregnant which she said was my son. Is that a fetus really the result of my actions?

I'm really sorry that Gaby was right to accuse me of acting out of my own desire not being teased by Nadine or being framed. But my ego doesn't want to admit that.

At that time I did not fall in love or anything like that with Nadine until now even that feeling was not with me. From Nadine's side it was clear she wanted me and I was a real jerk for using her body to satisfy my desires.

Aaaarrrrggggghhhhhh.... I was so upset with myself, how could I not use safety and forget that the possibility of my junior activities could produce such great fruit. And what I regret most about all of this is losing Gaby.

Honestly 3 years of dating, Gaby and I rarely engage in intimacy or skin to skin starting from the simplest of kissing let alone until having ****. Gaby takes care of herself, not that I never try to get more than her but that Gaby is good at looking after herself so I relented because I love her so much.

Thanks to my own stupidity, the wish and dream of having Gaby completely destroyed. Moreover, my toughest rival is back on this earth. Ciihh... considering Stanley I became upset myself, why is it so lucky that he was present when my relationship and Gaby was destroyed.

As long as we were dating, I knew that she hadn't moved on from Stanley but with a big heart I kept my own heart set that one day Gaby's love would be completely mine. Unfortunately, our different professions make it difficult for me to spend time together.

My bandmates didn't like Gaby much because our life style was so different. Women's temptations often come and go, Gaby never told me to push them away, she just reminded me to take care of myself.

Several times I received offers dating from some women but only when with Nadine did I fall until it ended in intercourse. I thought back to the fetus that Nadine conceived, is that really my son, the result of my actions?

I can't bear to not call Gaby, fuck Stanley anyway I ain't doing a macem, I just wanna hear his opinion.

Phone's connected.......

"Hi Alv, what's wrong with the phone? I'm sorry I was so busy at the Hospital so I couldn't catch your eyes anymore." she cheerfully made me smile because she was okay.

"Hey.... Alv.... Why did diem?"

"Eh.. hello Gab, sorry I was so happy you want to pick up my phone so I forgot to talk hehehe." I replied origin.

"Hahaha you are Alv where there are people calling instead diem just forgot to say, there is only you mah."

" Job, owh ya I want to ask you what do you think the real fetus in Nadine's stomach is my child?"

" Alv, for that I'm trying to trust Nadine because she said she's been free from sexual intercourse except for you. Means in that one period she's just doing with you, the chances are very high that the fetus is yours. If the age of the fetus is 4 months you can check the DNA, I think Nadine would be afraid and avoid if she was lying but if she did have a child you would be happy to take the DNA test."

"Keep Alv, he said he wasn't as bad as the gossip that was being breathed out. Nadine is not a naughty girl who wants to change. Well, maybe you're the only one who can know because you feel connected with Nadine. If she's not a virgin, she also admits, but if you change Nadine's partner refuses to be accused of that."

"Honest Alv, though, you told me before the same I also experienced a lifestyle that is so sure from your little heart you know what Nadine likes to change or like her confession that in the period of time the last year you've only touched her."

Well, I haven't covered up any of Gaby's life stories before, so she knows everything and what she's saying is true, right, if I'm to be honest with my little heart, I know if a fetus is my seed or not. See how good Gaby and this good guy I wasted, in this case I really lost a lot.

"Gab, you know my heart can't move on, just like you used to actually not be able to move on from Stan then once he came back and we have a problem you easily accept him again. I'm sorry I said gini, but that's what I love Gab, but you can keep my word until whenever your love for you doesn't change."

"And if the child was born he would be happy to see his papa there is not the same heart of the mother who gave birth to him? I couldn't have married Nadine Gab, she was my biggest mistake until I lost my precious treasure to you."

"Ga can you go back to me again? We repeat from the beginning everything, just like when you first received me, you will also know that my life style was different from you but you still want to accept."

I heard Gaby across the street sighing, either withholding resentment or anger or pitying me, I don't know. My heart is really sick at the moment, it comes to mind to hurt myself, but my common sense is back in control.

I took a deep breath and then exhaled slowly as I continued until I felt calmer. I kept thinking positively in my brain that I could make peace with myself, that I promised a good life so that Gaby could be happy and move on with her life.

"Alv, hello... Alv answered me Alv, hello... halooo.." I heard Gaby yelling at me but my mouth could not answer the call until our phone line was cut off.

I took a sitting posture and then closed my eyes filled my mind with positive things like Retna taught me.

Ceklek.. gebrak.........

"Thank God Alva, you're good. Gaby just called me freaking out because you were on the phone. Oh my God my heart felt like it was collapsing earlier" said Alex with ceaseless breathing reduced tightness in his chest.

"Sorry freaked you out, I'm fine, Lex. Thank you very much you love me even though I have done terribly depraved action Lex. Maybe you are also disappointed because I am not a gentleman to admit that my relationship with Nadine is not under threat but because of passion. Sorry I'm Lex for not being honest with you."

I hugged Alex, all this time only he cared about me, my own parents were busy with their own business that went nowhere.

"It's okay.. it's okay Alv. You have to make peace with yourself don't keep trrpuruk because it makes another mistake for Gaby."

"Lu must accept that Stan can now make him happy Alv. Inget from the past is also your goal to make Gaby happy right, well now you see this in IG Stanley a lot of their photos and Gaby looks happy. And you know Alv, what Gaby wants is the same: you continue to live happily. So please rise up Alv."

I tried hard to digest Alex's sentence which was long and wide. And the point is that Gaby is happy now so I have to be happy too. But what about that fetus, I don't want to live with Nadine.

"Lex but I don't want to marry Nadine Lex, ga ga ga love her. If the baby is my son, but I don't want to marry him, can he not Lex? Please Lex I don't hate Nadine just I can't love her or rather I don't want to open my heart to her." I whined a childlike whine at Alex who remained patiently holding me, giving her composure.

Prang..........

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***Love is not just about the feeling of loving but in love there is commitment, sacrifice and struggle.

So when the commitment can no longer be held then the sacrifice becomes worth doing.

Let your love go because he feels you hurt, let go and pray his happiness is a form of sacrifice yourself***.

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