Pura Lupa Temple
Chapter 33

Nadine gives her phone to Dicta showing them videos and WAs of their trappers. Alex and I came closer and saw, and then I opened my phone and there we knew, Nadine and Alva were having sex under the influence of drugs. The video revealed that the mastermind of the trap was Papa Nadine herself.

The video itself they have sex without safety and spending more than once, the possibility of pregnancy is certainly large plus the repetition they did outside the day of the trap. And I don't think every time I reach the top Alva scatters saying my name. Huft whether all this time I was the object of his fantasy hahahaha, I think.

I feel more guilty because for 3 years together you could say almost never combined love, heart to heart talk what so desire Alva and vice versa. We're adults who date like ABG, the romance we do the most in just hug each other, kissingpun can be counted with fingers.

I understand more and more that the kind of feeling I felt when I was with Alva was different from when I was with Stan. But because of this different understanding it makes me feel guilty, because all this time has been lame in our relationship.

"Gab, you believe right now that this is all my papa's scenario? He still grudges Alex and Alva's extended family because he assumes indirectly the downfall of his company is the result of the cancellation of Alex's family's help."

"Gue salute you, and I'm sorry if only he's not deketin Alva for sure he won't fall because of my papa actions. Lu's a good guy and Alva's panties love you so much. I lost, Alva did not want to bond with me because this child until he was a rich raging earlier." back Nadine cried fondly well.... I'm sure it's not acting because which women hold up during intercourse, their partner shouts the name of another girl.

"Sorry Nadine, I'm sorry about your condition, so I will slowly help Alva realize that there are women who need her more than me. And you don't see me as good and holy, I'm just an ordinary man who can't .. sorry. I'm not that good as Nad, the proof is I chose to break up with Alva."

"Owh if this number you know whose number it is? He tried to terrorize me, the owner of this number maki maki me and accused me who destroyed Alva. At first I thought it was you Nad but after meeting me today, I'm sure it wasn't you. Uhmmm.... You know who I think this is?" I gave Nadine my phone and showed her the unknown number and the contents of her WA.

Nadine checked on her phone but the number did not come out which means she also did not relate to the number. I'm sure this time he's honestly not him. 

"But my guess is related to the management of Alva, because when this video was taken we just finished the event and the committee hosted the filler at this club. I was there too and squirming Alex and Alva. Trus if understood from the word he said this is clearly related to some work that was canceled because Alva was in a condition to visit the event." Nadine explained the same as Alex alleged yesterday.

For a while we were busy immersed in each other's thoughts. Yes, it's about who sent WA will not I trouble again, the most important thing is that the person is not physically threatening.

"Dict, according to your examination results, what is the condition of Alva?" alex asked me what reminded me of my intentions and purpose in coming here.

"Physical condition is not worrisome, well. earlier he could not control emotions because under the influence of alcohol. But his mental state is worrisome, Alva is currently frustrated and leads to depression. I recommend referring to Retna by Gab. He's pretty good at this."

I nodded my head in understanding with Dicta's explanation. Frustration is a feeling of disappointment or annoyance due to being hindered in the achievement of goals. The more important the goal, the greater the frustration felt. 

Deep and late guilt and disappointment cause great sadness and mental stress, thus leading a person to depressive disorders. A person is said to suffer from a depressive disorder if he experiences a depressed state and interferes with his daily activities.

Severe depressive disorder if a person begins to lose interest or a sense of pleasure towards all, or abandon his normal responsibilities and activities almost every day, significant weight loss when not on a diet or significantly gaining weight, insomnia, anxiety, slowed psychomotor movements, feelings of fatigue, feelings of worthlessness, feelings of guilt, difficulty thinking and concentrating, etc, thoughts of suicide arise.

The symptoms shown by Alva are actually not too heavy just that the influence of alcohol aggravates the situation and condition. Alva vented her negative emotions with alcohol which was getting higher and higher so it made her look very bad.

"Lex, we need to tell and give detailed info to mama papa Alva, I don't want if they get to know from others with various kinds of spices that will complicate the situation."

"And we must keep Alva free from all his show activities first, so that he can rest his physique especially in the situation of the Covid-19 outbreak. I'm afraid Alva is infected. What do you think?"

"Gue agrees with Gaby, just the actuality how, Alva is not a child that we can all obey." said Dicta

Alex looked dizzy thinking, seen him massaging his temples, sighing many times. I understand he is also confused about how, Alva has lived independently of his parents for a long time, maybe even they have not been communicating properly for a long time. From the story Alva used to be the relationship between mother and father is not good.

"Lex please you think how good, I'm the same Dicta check Alva's condition first, okay? And you Nad, just rest, again pregnant young do not mind much. You think it's a fetus in your stomach, let me take care of Alva." I broke up rather than waiting too long and thinking.

Dicta and I stepped into Alva's room, and saw Alva who was still sleeping quietly. How can Alva go so far, I really can't think, if it's love me, shouldn't he continue with Nadine?

During the 3th I didn't give him what he needed as a man he never demanded, then why did it arrive like this. Even talking about marriage, Alva never so I consider all is well.

Quiet water turns out to be much more frightening than big waves, because in calm water we can not predict what will happen.

"Gab, I go to work first yes, medicine for Alva later use GoJek aja so you don't need to go out the same I pesenin milk pregnant women and vitamins for Nadine, trus hand sanitizer too. Wherever we have to take care of that innocent fetus Gab. My advice for a while Nadine stay here ajalah do not leave the house of danger also for the health of the mother and fetus, at least until the 14 time the government set."

I just nodded my head in agreement, "Let me talk about Alex Nadine's problem, Dict and order us lunch. I want Chinese food. Thanks." Thanks."

I looked at Alva's calm face, I don't understand what happened until this point. Please stop feeling guilty about me Alv, this is our path. There are people who are married and mate until death separates, but there are people who are met within a certain time limit just as a painter and complement the story of one's life.

Everyone must want to meet directly and be a soul mate but it is not all of us who certainly, there is a God Almighty on our way of life. My own love story is quite winding and fixated on these two men, who would have thought it turned out that the wheel of life drove Stan back to me. The other scales are all Divine Mysteries.

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*Alva POV*

Oowwhhh aarrgghhh. Why am I here, what happened to me? I try to remember what happened that put me to sleep.

#Flasback On#

"Alva, please listen to me first, I'm not involved with my papa's plans, I'm also a victim of Va. And now I'm pregnant with your son. Inget Va we're in contact not once but many times and without safety."

"You're not fair if there's a mistake for all of me Va, when you enjoy my body you're so satisfied there's a result of your actions, you don't want to bear it. Your evil egoist Va!" Nadine kept on criticizing me because I didn't want to take responsibility for her pregnancy.

I was so angry, precisely angry at myself because I was so jerk enjoying every offer of honey from Nadine's body, even I dared to lie to Gaby about the truth. And it turns out that the karma of my lies and betrayals came in a very short period of time.

I'm sorry to be so sorry but I can what, I'm just a weak man when tormented with worldly pleasures. And this time it was really fatal until Gaby left me. I keep getting stuck in guilt. And when the time bomb goes back on for me, Nadine's pregnant she's demanding my responsibility.

Aarrrggghhhhh... prak ....prang ....gubrak..... I slammed all the objects near me, I threw anything I could, I vent my anger on everything around me. Nadine was screaming hysterically to see me go berserk. He tried to hold my hand but I brusquely removed it.

Until a burly hand curled my arm and a loud bang hit me, "STOP It brenti ga lu Alv, are you crazy huh?Don't chlidish lu Alv, all matters can be discussed. Calm yourself down!"

Well.. it's Alex's hand and Alex's voice, hahahaha arrggghhhhhh hiks hyks. Alex hugged me, told me to calm down and called someone to help me. And yahh.... Dicta spupu Gaby he tried to inject something in my hand, I tried to rebel but Alex's burly arm locked me.

Finally I resigned myself and faintly I saw Gaby, I grabbed her hand and I clasped it tightly as if afraid of her leaving. Before long I felt very sleepy and not restrained finally I slept.

Is this a dream, I see Gaby's smile, God if it's a dream I'd better go to sleep. "Awww....pain!" I slapped my own cheek to see if it was a dream or reality. And it's not a dream, Gaby is here.

"Hey Alv, what's wrong with you? You told me the same donk, what's the heemm?"

I just shook my head and unconsciously shed tears, this attitude of Gaby made me feel more guilty and hurt. How foolish I was just because of the orgasm I couldn't endure I had to lose my diamond.

"It's okay Alv, please don't break yourself. Don't make me feel guilty Alv!" her words were firm but gently jerking me realize it turns out I was very selfish to make her uncomfortable and feel guilty all this time.

I took her hand, held her, "Sorry.I'm sorry I didn't mean to make you uncomfortable."

"Hey Alv, yes, we are not enemies, we just need to change the shape of our relationship. I have no intention of leaving you, only that I am no longer the woman who deserves you."

I shook my head strongly, "No I don't want to, I don't want to change our relationship. I just love you, I don't want anything else."

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I saw that Alva did not want to accept the condition that we had changed status. He shook his head agitatedly and began to scoff if he didn't want anything else.

"Alva, please look at me. Wake up Alv, you are too valuable to waste your life just to remember your story with me. You believe Alv's destiny, at this time, our story only gets here."

"You must rise from your guilt, I'm sorry for you. Nadine told me everything, and I can understand and forgive you so don't torture yourself again okay?"

"You deserve to be happy Alv, as do I. You know now Nadine is pregnant, if maybe you don't believe that the fetus is your child, we can do a DNA test and do not need to wait for childbirth. When the fetus is 12 weeks old and above the DNA test can be done."

I explained at length directly to the core so that Alva ga continues to mengedramama because later it will be more difficult to realize.

I saw Alva starting to calm down like thinking, or maybe also shocked because of my straightforward words.

"Alv, would you mind saying what I said? Right now it's not good for you, because we're facing a covid outbreak, so I hope you stay here not where you used to be."

"For your treatment, let Dicta and one of my friends Retna come. We're homecare, and for a while Nadine's better off staying here too so we can look after her."

"Okee, I'll take your word, but you don't get mad and don't get away from me." she asked with a sad face.

I smiled and hugged her, giving her peace and reassurance that I wasn't angry, "Originally you promised me nothing and no harm in yourself and no alcohol!"

Alv welcomed my promise by cupping his little finger into my pinky. I pray in my heart that this tranquility lasts a long time.

Chequek.........

Alex appears at the door, "Medicine and food have come, we eat first!"

Alva followed me out of the room.

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In the dining room I saw Nadine preparing food that Dicta bought at the table. I noticed the change in Alva's face that had begun to calm back down was irritated and emotional.

"Well, are you here?" her tan fiercely looked at Nadine with bulging eyes which made the girl tremble slightly.

"Hei Alv, calm down, I promise you're not angry. I told you I told Nadine to stay here so we could watch her too."

"This covid outbreak should not be underestimated because the transmission is so fast. The case every day increased even made some countries decide Lock Down."

"I don't want you, Nadine or Alex infected with the virus so please also said I was silent at home, fill the time productively at home."

"My schedule at the hospital this week keep the mall so every morning I can check your condition Yes Alv. How do you want to send me?"

Facing Alva at this time must be patient, he is like a child who plays a lot of drama if he does not comply with his wishes, his emotions go up and down. Nadine's existence became a stress trigger for Alva, but I did not want to make Alva stay away, because the stress must be processed so I decided Nadine remained there.

I want Alva to deal with the pain, guilt and pressure she feels, not avoid it.

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"You don't get to choose if you get hurt in this world. but you do have some say in who hurts you."

"You can't choose who will hurt you in this world, but you can tell how deeply he hurt you."

(John Green)

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