One Summer Night "Only You Do I Believe"
Episode Twenty-five

Nikens

After the end of the show can we meet in the back garden?

Message has been sent. And Niken waited for an answer from Hans. Tonight should be a special night for Niken because he received an award as a lecturer who has a high performance. But, because Bella challenged him, Niken became worried. Actually, Niken's feelings aren't good. There was a strange feeling raging within him, which he could not define what it meant. But Bella never knew that Niken was actually a philophobia sufferer.

Hans

What time's?

Niken received a reply from Hans.

Nikens

After everyone falls asleep. About 1 o'clock. How's it?

Hans

Okay.

As Niken promised. He found Hans in the back garden. Bella peeked out from behind the door.

"You've been waiting a long time?" Ask Niken clumsy. Hans was looking at the sky with his hands folded to his chest and turned his head.

"Ohh hi. No, I just got there." Answer Hans.

"Hmmm, Hans." Said Niken.

"Yeah. What are you gonna tell me?" Ask Hans.

"Ummm, what yes... Ehhe..." Ketus Niken while scratching his head that does not itch. He feels very awkward.

Hans looked at Niken's clumsy face. And Bella smiled with satisfaction at it. I just want you to be happy, Niken. Since you've been friends, this is the first time you've responded to a man. Mumbled Bella

"You why?"

"uh? Ummm it's okay." Answer Niken.

"Hurry up, I'm sleepy." Hans.

"Ummm Hans's. How do you say it. I'm confused." Said Niken.

"What by the way?" Niken held out his right hand.

"There's Bella there" Hans scrunched his forehead.

"Why is that?"

"Actually, I brought you here because I wanted to prove it to Bella. That I dare look back at you and kiss you without falling in love." Plain I.

"What's? You wanna kiss me?" Tukas Hans laughed lightly.

"Uhmmm can you help me a little bit." Reply Niken. Actually a bit doubtful. Hans must have thought he was weird. Not normal and so on. Niken is very embarrassed to say it but want how, Niken does not want to explain at length to Bella that she is a philophobia sufferer.

"okkey. But on condition."

"What?"

"Guet me tonight here. While talking." Hans. Niken felt Hans' condition was not so heavy, then he nodded.

"Agreed." Niken smiled triumphantly. Hans looked at him. Then doubtfully Niken put her lips on Hans' lips. The challenge of Bella worked. Hans was surprised because he thought Niken would kiss his cheek or forehead. But the woman kissed her lips. Niken ran over to Bella.

"Have you seen it?" Said Niken. Bella tilted her head.

"Well, that was quite a surprise to me." Reply Bella.

"You succeeded. Let's go upstairs." Bella.

"You go first, I... Emm going to the bathroom first." Niken said it was a lie.

"All right." After Bella leaves, Niken comes back to Hans.

"Hans...?" Seru Niken's.

"Sit down." Hans patted the bench beside him. Niken pulled up her sweater, then sat down right next to Hans.

"What do you feel?" Ask Hans.

"Huh?"

"After kissing my lips." Hans clarified. Niken is a little embarrassed to be frank.

"uh? Uhmmm it... I'm..." Hans laughed hearing Niken nervous.

"That's it." Said.

"Uhmmm ohya Hans..." Hans turned his head, "don't look at me like that anymore." Further.

"Watching how?"

"Because you're always looking at me like that, everyone's misunderstanding. Including Bella." Said Niken.

"Watching you every day, even every second, is how I enjoy the beauty of nature." Reply Hans. Niken blushed in shame.

"But I'm human Hans. Not nature." Said.

Hans shook his head, "you are a beauty engraved from the hand of God. That's why I fell in love with you." Every word that came out of Hans' mouth made Niken's heart soar. "You know, this is my first time." Said Niken, he exhaled and Hans listened carefully. "There was a man who expressed love for me. There's a guy who always bullies me, and there's a really shitty guy in the world, you know who?" Hans shook his head, "you."

"Is it because I'm special?" Niken smiled as she shook her head.

"Hans, if you think I'm a natural beauty, you're mistaken. Nature is never flawed and has no faults. As for me, I'm not the woman you've always thought of." Niken breathed. "I'm sick, I'm not like the others." Niken played down his voice.

"Who said?" Ask Hans. A tear fell on his cheek.

"Hans you wouldn't believe that I never believed in love. And I never fell in love with any man. I always shut myself down, feeling very high anxiety, depression even me,..." His voice choked, "I'm a philophobe? Have you heard that term?" Hans nodded and Niken exhaled again heavily. "I'm afraid to fall in love. I was too scared to feel it. I never wanted to be in a relationship more than just friends. I am afraid of being touched, afraid of losing, afraid of loneliness and afraid of feeling happiness. I don't want to feel any of that. I live only for ambition. My life is different from yours, my life, my life is just for work and dreams. There is no love." Evidently. The night wind blew, blowing Niken's long hair. The sound of the night breeze and the crickets accompanied the romance atmosphere of the two of them. Hans kept listening to every word that came out of Niken's mouth. Then he grabbed Niken's shoulder. And tendered Niken's head to his shoulder.

"Are you not afraid?" Ask Hans. Niken looked up, "I touched you. I even hugged you. I'm a man, aren't you afraid of me?" Hans.

"uh? Hmmm." Niken was confused as to what to answer. He re-established his position.

"Ehh hee, this may sound cliche, but your hands are just like my late grandfather." The answer.

"So I look like a grandpa. Okay, Niken... Do you want to hug Grandpa." Hans replies by mimicking the voice of the grandfathers. Niken smiled as Hans comforted her.

Hans grabbed his left hand, while nengelus niken's hair. "I don't know how to comfort you. But I know you need someone to let go of all your burdens." Hans.

"When you express your feelings. I'm confused what to answer? Me, just don't want you to get hurt. Because I don't even know how I feel about you. I'm sorry." Niken gulps.

"You rejected me in a subtle way." Lirih Hans's. Niken.

"You know? People say love is beautiful and happy. But me, I never know what it looks like? Is this what I feel love? Am I happy? I don't know how to accept your love? For what I feel now is...." Niken stopped his words. His voice choked, a clear grain fell onto his cheek.

"I'm sorry. Again forgive me." Further.

"Why are you apologizing? You're not wrong, that's your right. You accept me or reject me, you have a right to that. We can still be friends even if you reject me." Hans. He approached, then wiped away Niken's tears. Pulling his arm and holding it very tightly. "I still love you. Pain or not you. I love you, accepted or rejected. I love you with all your feelings for me. Whatever you need, I'll stay with you, no matter what." Hans whispered, Niken hugged Hans back. They dissolve in the moon's arms. Niken's entire body was again flowing warmly. His chest is beating faster. The colors of the rainbow adorned his heart, as if his soul was soaring into the air. It was as if it was just the two of them in this world. Flying into the sky to seven. Just two. Niken smiled happily, so that the voice of his heart that most deeply confess his feelings. "I love you, I love you. I love you so much, Hans." Niken let go of Hans embrace, she was afraid Hans heard her inner voice.

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