One Summer Night "Only You Do I Believe"
Episode Ten

That morning Hans accidentally saw Niken repairing his car. Hans looked at Niken for a moment, his tall body, jet-black hair and long, nose pointed, eyes slightly narrow and his tiny lips nun pink ranum. She grew up to be an elegant beautiful woman. Who is not fascinated by the beauty of Niken? Any man would desperately want to be his lover even her husband. However, Hans had heard from other lecturers, that Niken had never dated. According to rumors circulating from among the campus, Niken was reported by same-sex enthusiasts. But Hans denied it. He does not believe in gossip, he always tries to get close to Niken again. He wanted to correct the misunderstanding that occurred a few years back.

Hans removed his seatbelt, then got out of the car to see the damage to Niken's car.

"Miss?" Hans Served. Niken threw her thin smile. But she still looked beautiful with a pink lipstick color that polished on her lips.

"Why?" Ask Hans.

"My car broke down again. I don't know what's broken. It's in and out of the workshop, it's still broken." Gerrutu Niken while copying his car engine. Then he gave up.

"Follow it with me first." Hans offered me a ride.

"But my car...?"

"Let me take care of it, later." Reply Hans.

"Emmm, I'll take a taxi."

"Niken, it's not good to refuse a handsome guy like me." Tukas Hans's.

"So, narcissistic." Ketus Niken's.

"Come..." Hans tilted his head. Niken breathed. "Ummm, okay." By force, Niken went with Hans.

"Maybe your car is old, Niken. And it's fitting that you be picked up by your lover." Hans.

"I don't have a boyfriend, Hans." Reply Niken. Hans held back his smile. See how happy he was when he heard firsthand the answer from Niken that the woman he assessed did not have a lover.

"good. That's good news for me." Ketus Hans's. Niken narrowed her eyes and Hans closed his lips.

"Why are you always happy when I'm in trouble?" Niken narrowed her eyes.

"Because it's my chance." The answer.

"What opportunity?"

"To get close to you." Niken breathed a long breath. "We're grown-ups Hans. Not a teenager anymore." Further.

"You're right. We're all grown up. It's time to find a life partner." Niken exhaled, Hans always had a way of keeping him quiet.

"My parents talk about it a lot. And you know what? The most uncomfortable thing in my ears? Hans, mama wants to quickly carry a grandchild. Hurry up and get married if you don't have to die curious because you didn't see you get married." Babe Hans, Niken laughed at the joke.

"I succeeded." Hans. Niken also looked.

"What?"

"I made you laugh."

"What the hell."

"Now tell me, how were your life and your parents?" Ask Hans.

Niken shook his head, he refused to tell his family. It's not very important. Because, he has rejected his cooperation with his father. The inner child she had experienced 21 years ago dragged her through to adulthood. And it makes Niken very uncomfortable if you have to tell the story of his family.

"Oh come on, what about your family? Brother or sister? Or the person you like." Hans.

"Really...?" Hans couldn't believe it. Niken shook his head.

"You never dated?"

"Why do you know my life?"

"To be able to protect you."

"You're not God, you don't have to protect me." The reply.

"You really don't want to tell me?"

"What should I tell you? I don't have an interesting story like you."

"Yaaaa, the story of when you were a little cake, with your parents. I want to hear it." Urge Hans while enjoying the journey to campus.

"Uhmmm I don't have many good memories. There is no reason to stay in the past. I don't live with my parents nor do I get too close to my sister. Grandpa and grandma are my objects. After they died, I grew up alone with hurt and fear. I have no reason to remember the past. Because for me, the wound must be buried deep. I was mistaken, when I thought, I was the only abnormal person. After meeting Naira, Naina, Elsa and Via, I have the power. We're all the same. We have a lot in common in anything. We strengthen each other, get hurt together and cry together. We're both weird, not normal. Compared to them I'm more weird." Niken ended the story.

Hans gulped at hearing Niken's story. "You're not weird. But unique."

"No Hans. I'm a really weirdo." Said Niken.

"There's a lot I want to ask you. But most importantly, of all my questions is, why are you afraid of falling in love?" Ask Hans.

Niken fell silent, he turned to Hans, "You won't understand, Hans." Niken removed her seatbelt and left Hans in the car after they arrived at the college.

Hans still remembers what happened 10 years ago. When Niken is bullied by some of her friends. Niken experienced anxiety and fear, she screamed hysterically. "Why bother Niken anyway? Don't harass women, yeah, if I hear you're harassing Niken, I won't hesitate to kick your ass." Hans threatened to.

"Who's harassing anyway, Hans. We just want the same acquaintance to ask for his phone number. He's aza who's hysterical." Answer Ghani.

"Just watch out, no one bothers him anymore." Threat Hans.

"Ready." Reply them. Niken always clutched Hans' hand. As if she was his protector. Niken is not at all afraid of him, but unfortunately, while Hans begins to have love for him, unexpected events occur. A misunderstanding that separated them. Hans remembers seeing Niken, when he overheard a conversation with his best friend Niken.

"Elsa, how's Niken doing?" Ask Naira.

"He's improved. Ehya, Nay, weird koq huh. Just the same feeling Hans, Niken wants to be held." Answer Elsa.

"Maybe he's different. You know not why Niken thinks his grandfather is any different from his father. Maybe that's also Niken's view of Hans." Reply Naira.

"There are philophobia sufferers like Niken. Hans was the only guy who made her feel comfortable." Tukas Elsa's.

"Sst, it's ah. Someone is afraid to hear. We're going to Via yuk's? Khasian Via." Take Naira then. Hans recalled the Philophobia term that Naira and Elsa were discussing at the time. Hans began typing the term Philophobia on his laptop screen. Then came the various definitions of philophobia.

Philophobia is a term for someone who has an excessive fear of everything related to love. The causes of philophobia are numerous. They tend to withdraw from people they like.

According to Scott Dehorty, Executive Director at Maryland House Detox, Delphi Behavioural Health Group, philophobia is more commonly experienced by people who have past trauma or injuries. People who had to witness their parents' divorce experienced all forms of domestic violence or abuse at home as children, may be reluctant to establish a relationship or closeness with others who will do the same to them. 

People like this end up developing a fear that causes them to tend to avoid relationships, so they can avoid pain. However, the more one avoided the source of his fear, the more his fear would increase.

From then on, Hans thought a lot about Niken. Maybe one of them is not in a close relationship with a man because of that. Hans increasingly wants to convince Niken that love is more beautiful than he thought. Suddenly his phone rang. "Who's this...?"

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