One Summer Night "Only You Do I Believe"
Prologues

My apology may mean nothing to you.

Thank you for helping me with my healing.

Thank you for always being by my side when I've been through a lot of pain.

Our relationship, perhaps, will never find blessing.

We are like lovers who never arrived.

We've been through a lot.

But I understand our destiny.

Even though we'll never be together.

But the longing will always be there.

And love will be hidden within us.

Ilove you.

Nikens...

Hans crushes the letter from Niken. He throws paper rolls in any direction. A clump of emotion ignited onto the sidelines of the blood flowing within his body. His breath could not be set well. His heart crumpled as soon as the letter reached his hand. The letter was a confession of Niken's feelings towards her. An unacceptable confession and digested with a calm heart. The emotions of the man who had grown up were very burning, disappointed and angry. Niken disappeared before the letter reached her hand. Hans was looking for thousands of reasons he wanted to hear from his girlfriend. Why did he leave? Why should I leave? Where's he going? And what about the relationship they've been in for a long time? So Hans had to search again, Niken figure to ask why should he leave? Is it because of mom? Hans. She began to hate her real mother. Hans felt his life was empty. Feeling that his life is meaningless. For a long time he loved this woman. Looking forward to the news, is he happy or not? Is he married or not? And other unexpected possibilities. All she knew was that her love for her grew deeper. All day, all night, longing gnawed at his heart. It's like being eaten by termites. Only one he wanted to tell her "forgive me". When time gave her a chance, her heart again shone like the light of the sun.

No matter Niken hates him or not, all he knows is his love springing back. No matter Niken considers it or not, all he knows is, he must chase back his true love.

Both then, now and later, for Hans his love will never fade as the seasons change. Even if he had to go through storms and long dry seasons, his heart was only for a Niken. There is no place for anyone else. He just wanted a Niken. His first love and his true love. Then, now and then.

Hans doesn't know many of Niken's favorite vacation spots. Niken is not very aware of his colleagues on campus. Niken includes lecturers who are closed compared to others. Other than Hans, no one knew about the phobias and trauma Niken had. Hans was frustrated to find his girlfriend. It was venting on alcohol and intoxication. He picked up a bottle of wine and downed it with a feeling of annoyance and sadness. He loved that woman very much. Don't want to let go of it anymore.

"Mas, the bar is closing." Said a bartender. Hans pulled the man's hand. He downed the 4th bottle, already very drunk. Hans took out another note.

"I know it's a rich man. But the bar is closing. Please come home." Said again.

Hans was forcibly kicked out of the bar. "Take me off. Untie me. You folks. I'm sure you know Niken. Where's lover? Whereaaa..." Cherry Hans. The bartender shook his head, seeing Hans calling someone. But there was no answer, Hans again scolded. The bartender grabbed Hans' phone, then called someone. In his nickname list there is only one name that is 'NIKEN'. And he copied the number and then pressed his phone to his right ear.

"Good night, ma'am. This is Aris, I know the mbak number because this guy called mbak and did not answer. I don't know his name but it looks like I have to come here." His word.

Hans is lying in the street, awaited by a bartender named Aris.

"here's mbak?" Aris reached his hand.

"Hans?" The woman exclaimed.

"Ohh his name is Hans. Sorry since 9 o'clock Hans kept getting drunk, madam. And scold the no-no."

...***...

Niken's flight to Turkey was at 9:00 p.m., but he deliberately arrived early to the airport. At 5:00 p.m., Niken saw Hans and his parents hugging. That same day, Hans left for Russia.

"May our paths always be the best." His inner. His departure to Turkey was to continue his doctoral studies. In the same campus, while he was in graduate school. Niken earned Cumlaude's GPA while in graduate school, then he applied for a list of doctoral scholarships after graduation. After a few years, Niken got an email that the scholarship application was accepted by the campus.

The plane took off. Niken wrote something in her personal book.

'The blue sky depicts a story. I am here and you are there. A different story when we're no longer together. I pray that God may save our love. So that God will give us another chance. To be together in the beauty of the love you always tell me. I love you for heaven and earth. I love you, for the good of both of us.'

A single tear fell slowly onto his cheek. Niken held back the crying inside her chest.

...***...

Niken has worked as a lecturer for 3 years, in addition, he also often held various seminars on Child and Adolescent Developmental Psychology. Not only in Indonesia, he is also often invited to various cities both in developed and developing countries. His name became even more famous after he wrote a non-fiction book on Child & Adolescent Development.

Before meeting Hans again in his life, there was no such thing as love or just an estimate. Niken always keeps her distance from men. There is no such thing as a broken heart. Especially because of love. Niken has only one discourse, one vision and one beautiful dream for him to realize.

My Vision The Five Future's

* Conducting Research in several countries to support knowledge.

* Conducting workshops/seminars

* Writing a book about children & adolescents.

* Continuing doctoral studies in Turkey.

* Apply research for a professor's degree.

* Have an apartment.

* Have a SALON business.

* Become a lecturer.

* Travelling. And

* Married....?

Niken gulped, as if he had never imagined that he would fall in love with a man. Especially to get married. He knew it wasn't easy for him to fall in love. Moreover, he suffered from philiphobia which he had long experienced.

Let alone to get married, to fall in love alone, Niken did not dare to imagine it.

It will all be like a dream.