I Hate Having to Love
CHAPTER IX Opens the Heart

I tried to open my heart and try to forget about Faisal even though it was not easy in my opinion but I will try it little by little. And I also have to stay focused on my education .

I always confided also with Dina about how I could open my heart to other men sometimes Dina advised me to open my heart to Dika, but I felt I could not if with Dika. Because, Dika's Faisal's cousin where maybe I'm with her. I'm afraid it'll only hurt Dika's feelings if she finds out that I haven't really gotten over Faisal.

"Din what has been the moment huh now brother should open his heart to other men well?" Ask me.

"Yes, big brother should be able to open his heart to other men. Yes brother same Dika aja rich brother has started to talk with Dika. Dika is also rich he has started to save the taste of his brother and sister" said Dina.

" Huh what is Din ? Do you keep the taste ? There's just you Din, even though we've only known a few weeks, he also knows that brother has not been able to move on from Faisal in the past he's been storing the taste" I asked in shock.

" Yes, brother, if we are gathering family events that Dika always ask brother to me, sometimes Dika also likes to tell stories about brother. It seems Dika already knows a lot about brother deh, it also looks like kok kak if Dika has started to like sister from the way she tells about sister" said Dina .

" Okay Din how if he really likes the same brother. Brother just think of him as a friend more than you" I replied.

" Yes if you do not like the same brother Dika just say brother frankly, surely Dika will also understand kok sak" said Dina .

" Yes Din's brother just think of him as a good friend, he always gives good motivation also to his brother so that his brother feels nothing just like him if so a pair of lovers are more suitable as good friends only" said me.

" Yes already open my heart to other men Dina always support brother kok from brother happy like brother Faisal. Must be a lot of good boys dong in big sister school" asked Dina .

" There's Din now who is close to big brother, he's one class with big brother he's very cool Din humorous just like your brother "my answer .

" Wow seriously kak even better dong kak" said Dina .

" Yes Din from the beginning of the school sister he had been menggedeketin but his brother was still cuek aja exhausted brother likes to be uncomfortable if deket people who do not yet know, but his brother was still ignorant, but now it has started to be close to Din because often the brother in the same group united him if there is a task so brother already know what his original attitude like "my answer.

After Faisal's departure that day, I was very moody once plus my eyes were swollen due to me crying all night crying over Faisal's departure but I had to go to school and automatically my friends knew that I was crying all night seeing my eyes.

Well this Ryan guy that I told Dina he's my classmate he's the most humorous guy and can be said to be the smartest in our class. She humorously asked me why my eyes were so swollen .

" Your eyes why can't it be that rich swelling ? Called a cockroach your eyes" asked Ryan .

" Yeah look out for you if jutek-jutek same I will like you finally" ryan entertained

" Idih what the fuck do not ngarep deh, do not-don't you again like me" I asked.

" Who likes the same girls, jutek, judes again rich you" replied Ryan with a laugh out loud.

" Udah Sono deh ah very disturbing do not know what other people sad "my words with annoyance.

" Oh it turns out that girl jutek can be sad too" said Ryan

I'm the same Ryan did never get along from the beginning of school until now because of Ryan's attitude that makes you upset when you've been teased. But many girls who like the attitude of Ryan who like it said my class of girls, there is rarely a guy like Ryan if joking really cool, even though I think he menggeleselin .

But sometimes Ryan likes to be nice and serious if there really is an urgent problem, when Ryan found out that I was sad, Ryan told me to tell him why I was sad and Ryan comforted me with his humorous attitude .

" You are sad why ndah ? Try dong story only time I can help "request Ryan .

" My girlfriend died yan, until now I still like her keinget until the eyes are swollen rich gini because of her nangisin. I miss him very much, even though I tried to forget him and try to open my heart to others but still can't yan he was special for me" my stories.

" Waw is a rich martabak" replied Ryan with a small laugh.

" Anyhow si yan you just told the story after the story even in the ledek, males me." I said with a ketus.

" Hahaha I'm sorry, but your boyfriend why did he die ? Sick ? Or what ? " Tell Ryan.

" He's sick yan, you want ga si first who early ran away my nyari, he said I was looking for someone well that's my girlfriend who is looking, yan yang, he told me without news when I moved to school here, and I just found out he was sick during the news "my story.

" Oh, what's looking for you is your boyfriend, geez who is patient yes ndah you can certainly escape him kok by walking his time sure lah ndah to yourself that you can without him "Ryan with a calming attitude .

Ryan is indeed a very mature person even though he often jokes but Ryan is very authoritative and mature in my opinion if he is serious. Since Ryan knew my story Ryan so often approached me and often invite me to go for a walk when Ryan never could hang out with women because of Ryan's cool attitude so he was more caring the distance to women and women in school is also inferior to Deket Ryan is afraid Ryan already has a girlfriend he said including the women in my class.